What I had with John was a thunderstorm. It was full of lightening and wind and drama and passion.
New Orleans The unambiguous symphony of labored rushing breathes and mumbled words stopped with the motion of John's tensing muscles. Those blue eyes that rarely looked away hid behind clenched lids. A near smile turned the corners of his mouth. Leaving a soft kiss where his chest pulsed, I climbed slowly from his body. …
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“In the arithmetic of love, one plus one equals everything, and two minus one equals nothing.” --Mignon McLaughlin It still feels strange waking up in my own house, even one year later. Thankfully, I don’t wake up alone because there are two toddlers in the house who love to climb into my bed after I’ve …
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Chapter 1: Baby I knew before I ever had to go to the doctor. I knew that the sudden sickness wasn’t the flu. The weird sensation of being invincible and connected to all things wasn’t a coincidence. It’s not surprising that it happened. I’m actually surprised that it didn’t happen earlier. We’ve been making love …
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Vignette: Resentment I lied to John; I’ve been lying to myself. Last night, after we made love for the first time since I’ve been myself, after he assured me of how much I was loved, after he held me, after he asked me if we could move beyond the past, beyond Kate, Roman, and Alex, …
“I wish I could just shut off my brain for a little while,” I finally whisper, breaking the lengthy silence that fell over us when we lay down. Admitting that out loud feels like defeat, but it’s the truth. John’s arm tightens a little around my shoulders. We’re lying in bed, John on his back …
Story Notes: This is set in 2016, some time after Eric’s sentencing, but it’s an attempt to deal with a bit of the ugliness that went on in 2013 that the show never really resolved to my satisfaction. It’s not my usual at all, so if you’re looking for #NumNums or witty repartee, look elsewhere. …
The Escape It was next to a miracle that his body could do as his mind commanded it to do... but he wasn't about to question it... 'Don't think. Don't feel. JUST MOVE, John.. just *keep* moving!! You have to keep on going, get away as fast as you can. There is nothing but the …
This story begins after Marlena has chosen John. They are happy and John has decided to search for his past. You are listening to "I'll Be There" Chapter One- Here We Go Again The early morning sunlight beamed through the open curtains of Marlena's bedroom and directly onto the face of a …
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I am standing here tonight, at The Blue Note, and wondering how in the hell I got into the mess I’m in. I don’t want to be here, I don’t really want to be anywhere, except with her. Her, I can’t even say her name right now because it hurts so damn much. In all …
"Tell me something John. Was it just Hope or was anyone but me?" Marlena's emotions were on overload, she couldn't think clearly. "No one but you baby, come on! You are the one." John tried to get a hold of Marlena, but she kept wrenching herself out of his grip. This was the 10th fight …
The Jarlena Journal 