Marlena was standing in the penthouse looking out her bedroom
window. It was hell not being able to remember her past, especially
John and the children. She knew what Alex kept telling her, but their
were deep feelings for John that were keeping her awake at nights.
She wasn’t sure if she was dreaming or having flashes of the past, but
either way it was unsettling to her. How could she forget such a love
as she dreamed last night.
**************
Alex had been talking to her about re-newing their vows. He had
asked her what she thought about going to Hawaii for their
honeymoon. When he said that word, her head began to swim, she
closed her eyes and could hear a voice in her head,”I was never
struck by that hour; With love so sudden and so sweet, her face it
blossomed like a flower; And stole my heart away complete. Are
flowers winter’s choice? Is loves bed always snow? She always
seemed to hear my silent voice Not love’s appeals to know. I never
saw so sweet a face As though before me stood. My heart has left its
dwelling place And can return no more” Her breath caugh in her throat
and her knees buckled. She had to catch herself to keep from falling.
John! She needed John. She could feel his love for hear. The love and
the desire were so strong it gave her goosebumps. Alex didn’t even
notice her reaction, he just kept rambling on about what a great time
they would have and how romantic it would be. She kept her eyes
downcast and simply nodded her head, she feared if he saw the
emotions in her eyes, he would see how she truly felt.
**************
“I have to call John and find out what this means. Was that really a
memory or just a dream?”, Marlena started out of her room to go get
the phone to call John. Just as she reached for the door, it opened
and in walked Alex. “Good morning Marlena, how are you feeling this
morning?”
“Fine. I’m feeling fine Alex.” she smiled at him, she was begining to
have doubts about his intentions. There was something not right about
his version of the past, she didn’t know what exactly, but she could
feel it in her heart.
“Where are you off to in such a hurry?”, Alex could tell something was
wrong with her, she looked nervous.
“I was getting ready to go the hospital, I wanted to check on Belle and
Claire, just make sure they are both doing ok. I think they may get to
bring Claire home soon, she seems to be getting stronger each day.”
“Well let me get dressed and I’ll take you to the hospital” he offered.
There was no way he could let her figure out what was going on, not
now when they were so close.
“NO! I mean, really Alex, you don’t have to do that. I’m a big girl and
can take care of myself.” she smiled and winked at him, “besides you
are begining to act like John, treating me like an invalid”
“I’m sorry Marlena. I don’t mean to do that, it’s just that I’m worried
about you. Ok, I can take a hint. Please don’t compare me to that ex-
husband of yours. I know you can take care of yourself. Just be
careful and call me if you need anything.” he pulled her in for a hug.
This was a perfect way to visit his partner in crime without Marlena
know what he was doing. “You run along.”
“Thank you Alex. I won’t be long. And I promise to call you if I need
anything. Bye.” she kissed him, she couldn’t risk getting him
suspicious of her, not yet. She hurried out of the penthouse and to the
garage. As she reached her car, she called John, hoping he would
answer.
“John Black here”
“Oh John, thank goodness you answered. . . . . I need to see you. Can
you meet me, please John?”
“Doc, are you ok.?” John was immediately alarmed.
“John, I’m ok. I just need to talk to you, are you free?”
“Of course Doc. Look, why don’t you meet me at your office at the
hospital? We can talk there without any interruptions. How soon can
you be there?”
“I’m on my way now. I’ll see you there in just a few minutes. Thank you
John.” she whispered.
Back in the penthouse, Alex was on his way out, talking on his cell
phone, “I’m on my way to see Lois now and we will finalize our plans. I
will call you when the next stage is ready to begin. I can assure you
that your lovely Queen has no idea what is going on.”
~~~
John was pacing the floor in Marlena’s office, thoughts of killing Alex
racing thru his head. That’s the only explanation as to why Marlena
was so upset, it had to be that bastard. If he hurt her, he’d have to kill
him.
Marlena rushed thru the door, “Oh John, I’m so glad your here” and
straight into his arms, “hold me John, please just hold me.”
John wrapped his arms around her trembling body, pulling her in close
to him and whispering in her ear, “shhh, baby it’s ok, I’ve got you. Your
safe.” oh she smelled so good, it was so right having her in his arms,
“I’m holding you and nothing can hurt you. Just calm down and try to
tell me what has you so upset.”
Marlena was smiling thru her tears, after the horrible way she had
treated him, he was still here comforting her. “John, I’m ok. No one is
hurting me, I’m just scared. Confused.” she pulled back to stare into
the most amazing blue eyes she had ever seen, “let’s sit down so I
can tell you what happened.” she laced her fingers thru his and led
him to the couch to sit down.
*************************************************************
Alex was standing at the door, watching Lois thru the window, ‘man,
she plays the crazy part really well’ he smiled at her performance.
Knocking on the door, he stepped in to interrupt the nurse. “I’m Ms.
Banks doctor, if you’ll please excuse me, I need to consult my patient.”
he ordered the nurse to leave and locked the door behind her. Turning
to Lois he grinned and laughed, “Damn girl, you are playing this
psycho part a bit too well, you better stop or you’ll have me believing
it.”
Lois smiled, “That is the point isn’t it DOCTOR North? Now will you
please shut up and give me a kiss?” sauntering over to Alex, she
snaked her arms around his neck, pulling him into her lips, “I’ve
missed kissing you baby. I’ll be glad when this is all over and we can
go back to living in the lap of luxury.” she attacked his mouth, her
tongue plunging in his mouth, battling his.
Alex grabbed her hair and jerked her head back, “we can’t do this here
baby, we have to deliver the precious Marlena to Stephano and then
we’re outta here!”
Frowning, Lois turned away, “how much longer will it take? I’m tired of
being in the dull town. I’m tired of Marlena and John, can’t we just
shoot them and ease my misery?” she turned back to Alex, “Please?”
“NO! It’s only going to be a couple more days before deliver the
Queen. We can wait that much longer. Then we’re home free baby.”
***************************************************************
John sat next to Marlena, watching her intently, seeing the anxiety in
her eyes. She was nervous. “Doc, it’s ok. I’m here, come on talk to
me.”
Marlena was still looking down at her hands, not knowing how to begin
asking John about her flashes. She felt his hand under her chin, gently
easing her face up to look at him, “John, you are so sweet to me.” she
smiled and leaned down and kissed the palm of his hand.
John sucked in a breath, just the feeling of her lips on his hand was
enough to drive him crazy.
“John, I’ve been having the flashes. I’m not sure if it’s from the past.
You and me. Or if I’m dreaming, making this stuff up. I need your help
to find out if I’m actually getting my memory back or if this . . . . .” she
started crying. What if it wasn’t real?
“Doc, take it easy. Just start at the begining and we’ll go from there. I
want you to take this slow, I’ll be right here with you as long as it
takes.” he looked at her, trying to get her feel his love, “Now please tell
me about one of your flashes?”
“OK. Well, I’ve been having different feelings, some of them aren’t so
much as a visual image as a feeling. Last week a song came on the
radio and I had the strangest reaction.. . . . . .I was um . . . I . . .um . . .
.well, “her eyes dropped again, looking at the floor, “I kept tasting
strawberries and cream. . . . .isn’t that crazy? How can a song make
me actually taste something? I was craving them so badly afterwards
that I had to go to the market. That’s what I had for dinner that night.
And I kept thinking of you the entire time, wishing you were there to
share them.”
She looked up and saw John sitting there with a goofy grin on his
face, “what was the song Doc?”
“Why are you smiling like that?”
“No Doc, don’t change the subject, what was the song?”
“I don’t know the name of it, but it was about being caught up in the
rapture of love. It was a very sensual song.”
She watched John closed his eyes and lean his head back, he
seemed very satisfied, “John, that means something to you doesn’t it?
Tell me.”
“Yes Doc, that means something to US, something very special to US.
In the past, we made love to that song.”
“But why does that. .?”
John put his fingers to her lips, “let me finish. Now I want you to close
your eyes and I’ll give you all the details of that night.” seeing the
doubt in her eyes, “come on Doc, you have to trust me.” Marlena
nodded her head and closed her eyes.
“Now imaging a darkened room, lit only by candles and a fire. We
were lying in front of the fire. We are both naked, lying on a silk
blanket, hands feeling each other, mouths tasting each other. We
were both very passionate about our relationship Doc, both very
sexual.” he saw her breathing harder, and she was blusing, “And then
you had a surprise for me. Just as I went in to deepen a kiss, you
stopped me and asked me to wait. You dipped a stawberry into the
cream and put it to my lips. I took a bite and then you licked the juice
from my face.” his voice was dropping to a whisper, “We never
finished those stawberries Doc.”
John was so turned on by the memory that he had to stop and take a
minute. He had to calm down. Marlena opened her eyes and looked
directly into his lust filled eyes, “So that was a memory. That really did
happen.” she smiled, “I’m so glad.”
He had to know, “Glad about what Doc? Glad that your getting your
memory back? Or glad that we were lovers?”
Marlena blushed more and leaned in close, whispering in his ear,
“Both”
~~~
John kissed Marlena lightly on the lips and pulled back, “What else do
you remember Doc?”
Marlena smiled at him, enjoying this closeness with John, shaking her
head, trying to remember what else she was going to ask him. Her
thoughts rushed back to this morning, sitting on the bed looking thru
her jewelry, “Did you give me a charm bracelet?”
“Yes I did Doc. Do you remember that?”, his face lit up, hoping for
another breakthrough.
She hated to disappoint him, he seemed so happy, “No, I’m sorry
John. I don’t remember. I found a beautiful charm bracelet in my
jewelry box this morning and had an overwhelming feeling of you as I
looked at the charms. Did you pick them out, or did I?” Marlena was
excited to hear bits and pieces of her past, even though she couldn’t
put the events in order, she was sure she was actually having
memories.
John reached for her hand, holding it tightly in his, “I picked those out
for you Doc. It was a sad time for us, we weren’t together, but we
wanted to be. I gave you those charms after a terrifying event, hoping
you would keep the faith and stay strong in our love. I wanted to keep
you safe and happy, even if I couldn’t be with you.” he was sad
remembering that time, when they were so in love and weren’t free to
express their love.
Marlena was puzzled, “Why weren’t were together John? If our love is
as strong as you’ve told me all along, what was keeping us apart?”
“Doc, there is so much that has happened with us. Stephano has
played with our hearts, our lives so much in the past, it’s amazing that
we are still together.” a flash of pain crossed John’s face at
remembering that they weren’t currently together, not with her
amnesia and Alex, they were once again separated, “well, . . .I mean
that it’s amazing that we still have feelings for each other.” and he
dropped his head. He couldn’t get his hopes up again over a few
memory flashes from her. She could break his heart again and still go
back to Alex.
Marlena stood and began pacing the small office. Her thoughts and
feeling were overwhelming her, “John, I would love for us to go away
somewhere. Anywhere as long as we could be together. I want to hear
from you each and every moment that has taken place. I want all the
details of our incredible journey together.” she had dropped to her
knees in front of him, “I want to remember my past with you John. Will
you help me?”
John was speechless, this was more than he could ever hope for,
“Yes! Doc, let’s go away.” he grabbed her and pulled her close, his
hands holding her tight, “Let’s leave tonight, we’ll go away and I’ll tell
you everything. I’ll help you remember your family” he kissed her
cheeck, “your children” he kissed the tip of her nose, “me” he kissed
her lips.
They sat holding each other, her head on his shoulder, his hands
rubbing her back, each lost in the fantasy of running away from their
problems here in Salem. Finally, reality broke through the dream filled
state and Marlena sat back on her heels, “John, I would love nothing
more than to go away with you, but”
John stopped her, “but what Doc? But Alex? I don’t want to hear about
Alex or his feelings. I don’t give a shit about him.” he stood and
stepped around her, “I want to keep you safe. I want to help you
remember our love.”
Marlena sat back down on the couch and motioned for him to sit back
with her, “John, I would love to go away with you. But right now I’m
suspicious of Alex. I don’t trust him. I want to stay here and find out
what he’s up to before he hurts our family.” she could see John was
getting upset again, she finished quickly, “I was hoping you would stay
with me and help me, would you do that John?”
~~~
John smiled at his love, “Yes. I’ve told you from the beginning that I
didn’t trust him. I want to find out why he’s lying to you. I want to know
what he’s up to.”
“Thank you John. We can do this if we work together.”
“But you have to promise me one thing Doc.”
“What?”
“After we uncover the truth about Alex, I want us to go away together.
Just the two of us. I want to help you recover your memory. I want to
help you remember our love. I want you to remember me, Doc. I love
you and I just want you to remember how much I love you. I miss my
wife.”
Marlena wiped the tears from her eyes, “I promise. There is nothing I
would love more than to spend some time alone with you. No Kate. No
Roman. No Alex. Just the two of us. I do feel a very strong connection
to you John. I want to find out more. I want to remember our love,. . . I
want to remember you.”
John was crying too now, “I love you Doc. I promise that I will move
slowly, I won’t push you or rush your feelings. But I know that once
your alone with me, you will remember. Our love is too strong.”
Marlena dreaded bringing the next subject up to him, she was
enjoying sitting with him, his arms wrapped around her, she felt so
safe with him, so loved. “John, I know what I’m getting ready to say is
going to upset you, but you have to promise to listen to me and not get
mad, ok?”
John was nervous, this wasn’t sounding good, “What is it Doc?”
“No John, you have to promise to listen to me. No yelling or getting
upset, promise?”
“OK Doc, I’ll listen to you.”
“John”
“Damn, ok Doc, I’ll listen to you and will not get upset. Now what is it?”
“Well, I’ve been thinking about how to find out the truth about Alex.
The only way to keep him trusting me is to not let him know that I’m
having memories. I’m afraid if he finds out that I’m remember our past,
it will put us all in jeopardy. We can’t let him know.”
“I agree with you Doc. We can’t tell him the truth. There’s more to this,
you knew that wasn’t going to make me mad, what else?”
“That means I’m going to have to continue living at the penthouse.
With Alex.” she paused, waiting on the explosion she knew he would
have.
“WHAT? No way Doc. There is no way in hell I’m letting you stay there
along with him. Forget it.” he couldn’t believe she wanted to stay with
Alex.
“John, please listen to me.”
“No Marlena, I’m not letting you live with that bastard. If you make one
mistake and he finds out about you remembering your past, there is
no telling what he’s capable of doing to you. I can’t risk it Doc.”
“John, you promised to listen to me. That’s the only way to keep him
trusting me. If I ask him to leave now, he will know somethings up. We
have to keep him off guard.”
“I understand that Doc, but it is too dangerous for you. I can’t let you
do that, not along. Do you understand that?”
Marlena shook her head, “Well what do you suggest?”
John was frantically searching for an answer. He had to find an
alternative living situation.
“John, what if you moved back in the penthouse? You could move
back in Brady’s room. We could tell Alex you are demanding to move
back in and if we don’t let you that you will call the cops. Would that
work?”
John turned to look at her, “Yeah Doc, that just might work. I can
come in demanding to stay with both of you. You can act like you are
accepting to keep from causing trouble between us. If we play it that
way, Alex might go for it. He likes playing the hero to you.”
“How should I act around you? Around him?”
“This is going to be the hard part. Around me, you have to act
disgusted with my demands, like it is such a hardship to have me
around, but your doing it just to make things easier on him. And
around Alex, you have to be careful Doc. You have to keep acting like
you have the past few weeks, you adore him, he’s your hero, your
knight in shining armour.”
“I can do it John. I’ll be disgusted by you and enamoured by him.
Thank you John, I would fee safer if you were in the house with me I
can’t be alone with him, not now.”
“Then we’ll go with that. I’ll move in tonight. I will not let you stay there
with him.”
Marlena laughed, “were you always so protective of me? Were you
like this before?” she was smiling up at him.
John’s heart stopped, she was the most beautiful creature on earth
and he loved to hear her laugh, then he started smiling at her
question, “Yes. I have always been protective of you. I’ve always
wanted to keep you safe” then he started laughing.
“What?”
“I was just thinking back to when we first met. You used to call me a
pest” he was now laughing harder, “You told me one time that you
were looking for pest spary to get rid of me! You were so mad at me
that you stormed off and wouldn’t talk to me for days.”
Marlena was laughing at his story, suddenly she could see them
together in a cave, it was cold and dark and there was such tension.
John was building a fire and she was trying to find a way to escapre.
All the laughter and warmth faded from her face. John’s heart jumped,
“Doc, what’s wrong? What is it baby?”, a chill ran up his spine at the
look she gave him.
“John, why were you holding me hostage in cave? Why wouldn’t you
let me go?”
~~~
Marlena was laughing at his story, suddenly she could see them
together in a cave, it was cold and dark and there was such tension.
John was building a fire and she was trying to find a way to escapre.
All the laughter and warmth faded from her face. John’s heart jumped,
“Doc, what’s wrong? What is it baby?”, a chill ran up his spine at the
look she gave him.
“John, why were you holding me hostage in cave? Why wouldn’t you
let me go?”
John’s mouth dropped open, ‘why in the hell couldn’t she remember
the good stuff first – why did she have to start with some of the hardest
stuff for him to explain – damn!’.
“John! Answer me! Why were you holding me captive in a cave? What
were you doing?”
“Marlena, look. . . calm down. I can explain everything to you. I was
just hoping you would have your memories come back in order, not
jumping around from time to time, it would make it a lot easier for me
to explain. We were in a cave in West Virginia. We were running for
our lives, it was dark that night, cold, and we didn’t know who was out
there. We had just watched a helicopter crash and you thought it was
someone coming to rescue us. I wouldn’t let you run out there
because I was afraid it was the bad guys coming to get us. That’s all.”
Marlena smiled at him, “I could feel so much sexual tension. I felt like I
wanted to jump your body and make love to you and never stop.”
His breath caught, he didn’t know she felt like that about him then. He
thought he was the only one who felt like attacking her, making love to
her.
“John, would you hold me? Please?” she whispered to him, her
memories and feelings were so tumbled up, she knew there was more
to this story than he was telling her, but she really didn’t want to hear
anymore right now, she just wanted to feel his arms wrapped around
her, holding her.
John opened his eyes and reached for his wife, pulling her slowly to
him, holding her tightly, “Doc, there is so much I need to tell you, so
many years of events that have happened. I need you to promise me
to talk to me about each memory. Don’t get upset about something
you remember, you may not be remembering it as it actually
happened, it may be out of context with the way it was. Does that
make sense?”
“Yes John, it does. I know there are so many things that I don’t know. I
just know that if you are with me, it will make them easier to handle.”
she snggled back into his arms, tucking her head beneath his chin.
“I want to help you. I want to be here with you Doc. I love you so
much.” he whispered in her ear, kissing the top of her head.
“John, did we make love in the cave?”
John leaned back and closed his eyes, “No Doc, we didn’t. We both
wanted to, but it wasn’t the right place, the right time.”
“When did we make love for the first time?”
John exhaled sharply, “Doc, you are killing me with these questions.
All I’ve wanted to do for months is make love to you and you kept
pushing me away. Now here you are, in my arms, asking me
questions like this and it’s getting very hard for me to answer these.”
“I’m sorry John” she whispered, pulling back looking into his eyes,
“Now, your not holding me, so when did we make love? What was it
like?” she winked at him, a smile pulling her lip up, challenging him.
John could take, but he was going to make her realize not to tease
him, “It was perfect. We were always perfect when we were together
Doc.” he pulled her back to him, his hand tracing down her back in
slow circles, brushing her breast. His lips were so close to her ear,
breathing in her scent, blowing softly on her neck, “our first time was
magical. I slowly removed your clothes. Our hands moving, touching
every spot on our bodies. Our lips, kissing, licking. . .. . . .always on
each other, Doc you taste so good.” he licked his tongue to her ear,
and pulled back to see what effect he was having on her.
Marlena was trembling, she could feel his body moving against hers,
she could feel the silk sheets wrapped around them, his mouth on her.
. . . he was such an attentive lover, always thinking about her pleasure
first.
“I can feel it John.” she whispered.
“Tell me Doc, tell me what you see. tell me what you are feeling right
now.” he pleaded.
“I can see us together in bed, red silk sheets wrapped around us. The
windows are open, blowing in the warm air and the soft music.” she
stopped, she could actually feel everything she was telling him, she
could feel this memory she was having.
John smiled, she was remembering New Orleans, the night he
proposed to her and gave her the engagement ring back, that was a
perfect night.
“What else Doc, what else is happening?”
“We are making love. It’s so good John. I feel so in love with you, you
are my soul mate, you make me complete.” she opened her eyes and
looked at him, “Why do you look so sad John?”
“Doc, I said something to you that night that was wrong. I shouldn’t
have said it because it wasn’t true.”
“What happened, please tell me.”
“Your right, we were in New Orleans in your memory. The place was
perfect, I had just asked you to marry me and we had made love,
several times.” he winked at her, “and it was wonderful Doc. We were
dancing to the music coming thru the window. You told me that you
loved me, that I made you complete” tears were running down his
face, he couldn’t believe he had told her this all those years ago, “I told
you that I wasn’t a complete man because I didn’t remember my past.
But I was wrong Doc!” he wrapped his hands around her shoulders,
pulling her close to him, “I was wrong. I AM a complete man. You
MAKE me complete man. I’ve realized that when I don’t have you, I
don’t feel whole. I don’t feel like I have a purpose in life. You are my
other half Doc. I need you. I love you.” he kissed her, his lips barely
touching hers, “Tell me you feel the same way Doc, please”
“Yes John, I do. I need you.” her mouth attacked his, her tongue
dueling his for control, “I love you” she mumbled around his mouth.
~~~
“Yes John, I do. I need you.” her mouth attacked his, her tongue
dueling his for control, “I love you” she mumbled around his mouth.
John grabbed her blonde hair and pulled her in closer, her body laying
across his, letting Marlena take control of the kisses. He didn’t want to
push this, but he was damned well going to let her take what she
wanted.
He tasted so good, how could she have forgotten this man, their
bodies fit together so perfectly, “Oh John, . . . .I want you, please I
need to touch you.” she was begging, her hands were trembling as
they tried to unbutton his shirt. She wanted to touch his skin and her
fingers were shaking so much she couldn’t do this, “John, please I
need you. Please help me baby.” she looked up at him, pleading with
him to help her.
John couldn’t take this, he could see the passion in her eyes, “Marlena
are you sure?” she was driving him crazy!
“YES!” she screamed and ripped open his shirt, sending buttons flying
across the room, “Yes, please baby I need you to make love to me.
Right here, right now.” she reached down and pulled her sweater over
her head, watching him, trying to entice him into action, “John, do you
still want me?”
John couldn’t answer, he was gazing on her flesh as if he had never
seen her before. His fingers reached for her skin, sliding down her
chest to her bra, he had the garment unfastened and thrown over her
head before she knew it, his lips fastened around her nipple, sucking
as if his life depended on it.
Marlena threw her head back, her mind was reeling from the
sensations he was creating within her, her body was awakening to her
lover. At once she realized that this was the man she was made for,
this was the man she belonged with forever.
“John, I love you” she cried out, her hands pulling his head closer to
her body, trying to make them one being.
John stopped his mouth and laid her back on the sofa, his eyes never
leaving hers as he finished undressing her. “I love you Doc, always
have, always will” she closed her eyes at the feeling of his hands
sliding down her legs, “Open your eyes Doc, I need to know your with
me” he pleaded, he had to know she was with him all the way.
“Oh I’m with you baby, now stop talking and finish what you started”
she grinned up at him, winking, “I need to have you in me right now”.
John threw off his boots and jeans, sliding his underwear and socks
off all in one fluid motion. He slid his body on top of hers, resting
between her legs, “Doc, I love it when your legs are wrapped around
me, urging me on.” he slid up closer to her, his hardness resting
against her wetness, “Tell me when your ready Doc, tell me when you
want to me to fuck you.”
Marlena gasped, she wanted this man so badly she couldn’t think, “I’m
ready baby, please fuck me.” she cooed at him, pulling his face down
to hers, “Kiss me when you take me, I need to feel you everywhere”
her tongue licked his lips, sucking on his bottom lip.
John couldn’t take anymore, he attacked her mouth and slowly slid in
her, they both moaned at the intense pressure of their joining bodies.
They stilled and watched each other, both slowly increasing the
pressure and movement, until they were both in a frenzy.
Marlena could feel him pumping in her, his body reaching her very
core, her fingers leaving trails down his back, “Oh John” she
screamed in the air.
John could feel her wetness around him, her walls would clench him
and her legs were tightning around him, he wasn’t going to last much
longer, “Doc baby, I’m almost there. Cum with me baby”
Marlena could feel her body begin to crash, she was drowning in her
lover, “John!”
John pounded into her, he wanted to be right with her, he could feel
her body begin to shake and he exploded deep within her. Their
bodies continued to rock, their movements slowing, their breathing still
short.
“John, don’t leave me, please stay in me” she begged, pulling him
down on her, “I need you on me, in me.” her hands rubbing his neck,
smoothing his sweaty hair.
“I’m not going anywhere Doc, I promise.” he rolled to one side, sliding
her around where she was on top, “I love you Doc. You made all my
fantasies come true just then, well almost all of them.” he leered at
her.
“Mr. Black, are you telling me that what we just experienced didn’t live
up to your fantasies?” she looked upset, ready to choke him.
“Mrs. Black, if you could remember our past, you would know that
making love to my wife just once in a night, was never enough for
either of us. We could spend the entire night lying naked together. Our
bodies entwined, making love until we were both exhausted.” he
kissed her on the tip of her nose, “Now why don’t you lie back and get
some rest, get ready for the next round baby.”
“John I love you.” she smiled, her hazel eyes full of love for this man,
“I’ll take you up on that offer” she kissed him deeply, her tongue
teasing his again, “and you better be the one who gets some rest,
because I’m not thru with you. I plan on taking all you have to give
tonight.”
John laughed and pulled his wife down to him, snuggling up to her, he
had missed this side of their relationship so much in past few months.
He was beyond thrilled that she was back in his arms, it would be
better if she remembered their love, but he would take what he could
get right now.
As if sensing his thoughts, Marlena sat back up and looked deep in his
blue eyes, “John, the only thing that would make this night better
would be for me to remember our past. But I don’t want to dwell on the
things I can’t remember, I want to concentrate on you, on my feelings
for you. I’m hoping if we take this one step at a time, that all of my
memories will come back to me. Please promise me that you’ll be with
me all the way. Promise me that you won’t get upset that I can’t
remember everything at once. I’m going to need your support and your
love to make it.” tears were falling from her eyes, landing on his
cheeks.
John reached up with his thumbs and wiped her tears, he leaned and
placed a gentle kiss on her lips, “Doc, I’m grateful that you are with
- I’m grateful for your love. I promise to be with you each step of
this journey, just as I’ve been with you in the past. I want to be with
you for each memory you uncover. I want to be the one who holds you
when you need to cry, to love you when you need to be loved. I just
want you with me. You are my soulmate” he kissed her again, “I love
you completely”
“I love you so.” she cried out, her head nestling in his neck.
“I love you too Doc.” he pulled her tighter into him, he couldn’t get
close enough. She wrapped her arms around him and snuggled up
closer. They were content to be with each other. They were back in
their true loves arms.
~~~
Marlena lay in his arms, she could feel his heart beating, his warm
breath on her hair, she couldn’t remember her past with him, but she
knew she loved him. She wanted to stretch her arm, but was afraid of
waking him, she slowly started to turn in his arms and he tightened his
grip on her, not letting her move an inch.
She smiled up at him, and then a flash in her head, she slammed her
eyes shut and tried to go with the memory. John was grabbing her
arms, pulling her to him, attacking her mouth. She could feel him as
he jerked her pink coat off and threw her down on a leather couch, he
fell down on her and began making love to her, his mouth was
roaming her body, marking it as his. His hands were removing his
clothes, her clothes, he was making her so wet. She could hear
thunder in the background. She could feel the hunger for him, the love
for him. And then she felt nothing but guilt. She watched them both
crying, she was leaving him.
John woke up as Marlena jumped up from the sofa, he could see the
confusion on her face, feel the tension back in the room, “What is it
Doc? What did you remember?”
Marlena turned around to him, her hazel eyes dark, tears running
down her cheeks, “Why? Why was it wrong for us to make love? Why
did I feel so guilty?”
“Doc, honey you need to sit down and explain the entire memory for
- That’s the only way I’m going to be able to help you. Please, trust
me Doc.”
“I do trust you John. I just can’t stand this! It’s killing me, these
memory flashes make no sense to me.” she was desparate to
remember.
“That’s why I’m here baby” his arms were wrapped around her,
helping her sit down by his side, “I’m here to help you Doc. Now what
do you remember?”
She leaned against him, her back aganist his chest, she was afraid to
look at him, the feelings were so confusing, “We were making love.
There was so much passion. It was intense. The lust was
overwhelming. You were so forceful, so demanding.”
“Where were we Doc?”
“I don’t know. I remember the feel of leather on my skin. I could hear
thunder in the background. I can still feel your hands on me . . . . your
lips on mine . . . .” she was getting turned on from the thoughts
flooding her mind, “it feels like the most sexual lovemaking we’ve ever
had. And then it’s over. The love was there but all I can feel is guilt. I’m
crying, telling you this was the last time, I couldn’t do this to him
anymore” she turned in his arms, her eyes drilling into his, “I loved you
so much at that moment that my heart was breaking, I can still feel the
pain. Why would I lie to you? John, I’m so sorry, I do love you” she
threw her arms around him.
John held her closely, her sobs were shaking her body, he tried his
best to calm her and finally decided that she needed to get this out.
He let her finish crying, holding her, caressing her, whispering words
of love into her ear.
“Can you ever forgive me?” she whispered.
John pulled her head off his shoulder, and she looked down. “Doc,
please look at me,” he put his hand under her chin and forced her to
face him, “You can’t apologize for things that happened. You don’t
remember what really took place, your only getting a glimpse of “
She stopped him, “But John, I remember lying to you. I remember
telling you that I didn’t love you. That I couldn’t love you anymore.
That’s not true. I do love you. I know that, I feel that deep down in my
heart.”
John was amazed at this women, here she was trying to convince him
of her feelings for him, and he was supposed to be comforting her.
“Doc I know you love me. There has never been any question of your
feelings for me. Never. Just as I love you. Our love is pure, unending. I
love you Doc.”
Marlena smiled, “I love you. One day, I want you to tell me what
happened. I want to know every detail. But not right now.” she winked
at him, moving her body closer to his.
“What do you want right now?” he could see her eyes darken with
desire. He wanted her so badly at this moment.
“Right now, I would love nothing more than to experience that
passion” she began kissing his neck “that love that I remember” her
mouth moving slowly up to his ear, “I want to feel you take me,
demand the passion from me as you did that night” she blew in his
ear, leaning back looking directly into his eyes, they were full of lust,
full of passion, she could see the love shining thru, “Please make love
to me again John. Let’s go back to that moment in time, nothing before
or after matters. I want you to show me how much you wanted me at
that exact moment.”
His lips covered hers, his tongue sliding in her mouth, exploring every
inch. The moans coming from the back of her throat were making him
lose control. He drew back quickly, forcing her to look at him again, “I
love you Doc. Always remember that. Right now I’m going to show you
exactly how much.” he whispered.
She shivered at his words, he was so intense. Her body melted, “I love
you so” was all she could say before he cut her words off, his mouth
was over hers again, demanding control.
His hands were pulling her to him, tightly. He wanted to make her feel
that passion they had shared that night. He buried his face in her
neck, slowly sliding them both to the floor, his body covering hers, his
legs sliding in between hers. His hands covered her breasts,
kneading, pulling, owning her.
She could feel his mouth on hers, then on her neck, moving all over
her body. When he reached her belly button he slowed down, he
explored every inch of skin and then begin his descent, moving her
lips open with his fingers, his tongue sliding between, tasting her
wetness. ‘Oh she tasted so damed sweet’ he was devouring every
inch of her.
Marlena’s hands were clawing at the carpet, trying to grab something
and hold on, trying to keep her body from floating away, trying to keep
her mind focused on his mouth, his hands, he was driving her mad
and she loved it. She could feel her body begining to lose control, her
insides were melting down “John . . . .I’m going to cum . . . . . .John”
and she screamed. . . and screamed. Her body exploded into a million
pieces. She had never felt anything so pleasurable. Her body was on
fire.
John licked her juices, she was flowing around him, melting. Her
hands grabbed his ears and pulled him to her, she tasted herself on
him, licking every drop. “John. .. . .I love you” she kept kissing him, “I
love you” her hands pulling him closer, her arms and legs wrapped
around him, “I love you” she watched him as he pulled back slightly,
his hardness was waiting to slide into her.
John could see hers eyes light up, she could feel how ready he was,
how much he wanted her, she nodded her head and arched her back,
she was ready for him. John slammed into her, and they both
screamed.
He was plunging into her with all his might and Marlena was meeting
each stroke and matching it, her body rocking against him. . . riding
with him.
She could feel him tighten inside her, his body was ready to explode.
She began riding him harder, urging him on, “cum for me baby, please
cum for me” she was milking him, squeezing his hardness. She
wanted to feel his release, she wanted to be his release.
“DOC!” he screamed as he exploded, his body shaking from the
orgasm. He fell down on her, his heart beating rapidly. He could feel
her still moving, she was wrapped all around him, making him feel
every inch of his body, of her body, it was as if they were one.
“I love you” she whispered as her tongue traced his ear, “I love you
so” her hands were slowly rubbing him, trying to calm his body.
“I love you too Doc. Always baby” he leaned up and looked at his love,
amazed by her beauty. “You are the most beautiful women.”
“And you are the most handsome man in the world. And your mine.”
she grinned up at him, “Aren’t you John? Tell me that you are mine.”
“I’m yours Doc. You are mine. We belong together. No one or nothing
can change that Doc. Our love is too strong to be denied.”
They snuggled closely, arms wrapped tightly, legs entertwined.
Marlena waited a moment and then something popped in her mind,
“John, when we made love before, in the past, was it always like this?”
she whispered.
“Like what?”
“This emotional. This intense, . . . . .this hot .. . . .this good?” she
laughed for she couldn’t come up with a better word.
He joined her laughter, “Yes. It’s always been this GOOD” he rolled
her over and let her rest her head on his chest, “we have always had a
very active sex life Doc. Sometimes we made love” he gently kissed
her, his lips barely touching hers, “and sometimes we fucked” his
tongue plunged into hers, sucking her mouth into his. His hands
roamed her body. Then he stopped and pulled back, looking at her.
“Which did we do more often?” she questioned, she loved the way he
was answering her.
“Both!” he grinned and began tickling her.
“JOHN!” she screamed, trying to escape the torture of his fingers,
“Please stop! Please!”
John quit tickling her and pulled her closer, “I love you Doc.”
“I love you too John” and she snuggled back down in his arms, feeling
loved, safe and happey.
The lovers feel asleep in each others arms, unaware of someone
watching them thru the door.
~~~
Marlena woke up alone, she reached for John but couldn’t find him.
She jumped, worried about where he was. “John” she called, where
could he be?
“Doc, it’s ok, I’m right here” he walked back in the office, carrying two
cups of coffee, “I thought you may need coffee, I know I sure do!” he
grinned and leaned down to kiss his wife, “how are you feeling?”
Marlena smiled at him, “I’m feeling wonderful. Thank you for the
coffee.” she reached up for the cup, and slid over, making room for
him to sit beside of her.
John sat down and pulled her in closer, “I love you Doc. I’m so glad we
had this breakthrough, I’ve missed you so much.”
“Me too.” she leaned up and kissed his cheek, “What do we do now
John? I don’t want to go back to the penthouse alone. I can’t stand
being there with Alex by myself, not now.”
“Doc, the way I see it, we have two choices. WE can go back to the
penthouse, I can make up some lame excuse as to why I’m moving
back in and Alex and deal with it or not, I don’t really care right now.”
he laughed and smiled at her, he was still amazed that she was with
him, that he had his wife back, he would do anything to keep her safe
and by his side forever.
“John, that’s only one choice, you said we had two” she playfully
punched him in his side, “earth to John!” she laughed at him.
“I’m sorry Doc, I was thinking, where were we?. . . .oh yeah, our other
option is to leave Salem”
“Leave? We can’t leave Salem. What are you talking about John?”
she stood and started walking around the office, “what option is that?
We’ll never find out anything about Alex if we leave?”
“Marlena. Come back over here please and let me explain.” he
watched her consider his offer, “Please Doc, you said you would trust
me and accept my help.” he tried to coax her back to his side.
“I do trust you John. I’m sorry, I’m just a little nervous about this.” she
immediately sat back beside of her husband, “I do trust you. I can’t do
this without you John.” she melted at the look in his eyes, “I love you”.
“I love you too Doc. We could make Alex think that I kidnapped you.
We’ll make it look like I took you from the penthouse and while he’s
busy looking for us and trying to rescue you, we can find out what he’s
up to. I can get Abe, Roman and the ISA to help us.” he raised his
eyebrow at her, “and while we are hiding from Alex, that would also
give us a great opportunity for some more time to be alone together.”
Marlena sat her cup down and put her arms around his neck, “John
Black, are you always full of such wonderful ideas?” she placed her
lips to his, kissing him softly.
John deepened the kiss, pulling her close to him, “Yes I am Doc,
always trying to find ways to keep you all to myself. Now shut up and
kiss me.” he growled and nipped at her neck.
Marlena froze, he could see John picking her up and throwing her
over his shoulder. She was beating his back, trying to get free of him.
John could feel her tense up, “Marlena what is it?” he could see the
look in her eyes, she was remembering something, “talk me through
this Doc, tell me each detail as you are remembering them” he hoped
he could help her with her memory flashes.
“You are carrying me over your shoulder. I’m hitting your back, yelling
at you, trying to make you put me down. You walk up the stairs and
throw me on the bed. I’m fighting with you, I don’t like the way you are
treating me. I tell you to leave me alone and let me go. You fall on the
bed, your body is trapping me and you start kissing me, rubbing my
body” she quit talking, she was feeling each kiss he made, each touch
to her skin. Her body was reacting to the memory, she could feel
herself getting wet.
“Don’t stop Doc, tell me what else you remember.” he knew exactly
what she was talking about. He was also remembering each detail of
their lovemaking, he had been rough with her, but it had worked, she
had let him stay and didn’t leave him.
“You began making love to me. It was wonderful. We were so in love,
our passion was so intense, so hot.” she grinned up at him, “I guess
you were right before when you told me that we were both very
passionate people” she hugged him closely, “I can feel our love, our
lust in a lot of the memories I’m having.”
“Doc, it has always been like that for us, from our first meeting, the
sexual tension has always been there. It was like fireworks.” he held
her closely, “So what it’s going to be Doc? Do you want to stay and
take on Alex head first? Or do you want to take a mini-vacation with
me first? We could just take a few days, it would be romantic Doc, it
would be like another honeymoon” he was trying hard to convince her
to go away with him, he felt better if she would get away from Alex for
a while.
“You said that to me once before John. I remember you telling me to
go somewhere with you. You were telling me how romantic it would
- How the lights would be reflecting on the water. You said it would
be more romantic than New Orleans, if that were possible.” her eyes lit
up, “Did that happen too John? Is that another memory?” she was
excited, when she was with him her memories seemed to come back
to her.
He smiled, “Yes. We did have that conversation. That time you said
no, you couldn’t leave Salem and the kids, not then. You did join me a
few weeks later.” he pulled her face up to his, forcing her to look him
in the eyes, “Please give me a different answer this time Doc, please
tell me you’ll go away with me. I have the perfect place for us to go. A
place I think will be romantic and may help bring back more memories
for you. So what do you say Doc? Come away with me, please?”
She smiled at him, she could see the love in his eyes, he was begging
her to go and to be honest, she couldn’t think of a better idea, “I’ll go
with you on one condition John” she teased him.
“Anything. I’ll do anything if you’ll go with me.”
“Tell me where you are taking me? I can’t think of anything better than
to be ‘kidnapped’ by you, be held captive by my loving husband. But I
won’t go if you don’t tell me where we are going first.” she smiled, she
could see the relief in his eyes.
“Then it’s a deal? You are going to let me kidnap you? Right? Is that
what you are saying?”
“Where, John? You haven’t told me where.”
“West Virginia!” he seemed so happy with his choice, and yet she was
so confused.
“West Virginia? Why in the world would we go to West Virginia? I
thought you were rich and were going to whisk me away on an
adventerous journey to a romantic destination. And all I get is West
Virginia?” she seemed totally perplexed with his choice.
“Trust me Doc. It’s a place that holds special meaning for us” he
leaned down and placed a stirring kiss to her lips, “and I promise you
all the romance you’ve ever dreamed of” he pulled her to him, he
couldn’t believe she was going with him. This turned out to be the best
day of his life.
“I do trust you John. I love you.” she leaned back to look up at him,
“And I’ll go anywhere as long as you are there with me” she kissed
him again, “so when do we leave?”
John thought for a minute and jumped up, pulling her up with him,
“Right now!” he picked her up and threw her over his shoulder. If he
was going to make this kidnapping thing believable, might as well start
now.
He walked out of the hospital, watching everyone’s amazement over
seeing John Black carrying Dr. Marlena Evans over his shoulder, both
of them laughing hysterically.
~~~
He walked out of the hospital, watching everyone’s amazement over
seeing John Black carrying Dr.
Marlena Evans over his shoulder, both of them laughing hysterically.
They made it to the elevator and John sat her down on her feet, “Doc,
if I’m kidnapping you, we can’t be
laughing about it. Now wipe that smile off your face, remember I’m
taking you against your will, you are
angry, you need to fight me, yell, scream, kick, hit, whatever you need
to do to make this look real.”
he smiled at her and leaned in quickly, kissing her lips, “Now get ready
my love, let’s make this convincing”
Marlena smiled at him, “Ok John, get ready baby, I’m going to fight
you all the way out of here. I love you”
she smiled and then shut her eyes. When she opened her eyes, John
could see tears, she looked scared
and confused, “Where are you taking me?” she yelled. Just then the
doors opened and he grabbed her,
pulling her out of the elevator, “Your coming with me Marlena. Now!”
he yelled back and picked her up again,
running down the hallway out the front door. He could see two security
guards coming down the sidewalk toward
them, so he took off running in the direction of his Jeep. He made it
there before them and threw Marlean in the
passanger side and locked the door. He ran over to his side and
started the car, and backed out, almost running
over one of the guards, he could see the other calling for back up and
pulling a gun. John thought quickly, “Get
down Marlena” he yelled at her and turned the car quickly, jumping the
curb and running through the gate and out
on the road.
Marlena was laughing hysterically. “Doc, care to let me in on what’s so
funny?” he asked her, his eyebrow
raised.
“You almost ran over that guard back there. And then you jumped the
curb and we made it look like you
really kidnapped me. This is fun!”
John smiled, he loved seeing her laughing again, “Ok Doc, I’m going
to call Belle and see if she will let me borrow
her car. I’m sure they will have the police searching for the jeep before
we make it out of town.”
“What about clothes? We can’t wear the same thing forever John. Can
we go back to the penthouse and let me
get some of my things?”
“No, don’t worry about that Doc. We’ll buy everything we need after we
get out of town.”
John picked up the phone and called Belle. Marlena watched him,
amazed that she felt this safe with him, she
knew they shared a past and she could remember bits and pieces of
her life with him. She knew he loved her and
would do anything to keep her safe. She was so comfortable with him,
so relaxed. She leaned over and placed her
head on his shoulder, reaching for his hand and entwining her fingers
tightly with his. she knew she loved him and
she was so glad that he had agreed to help her get her memory back.
John finished talking to Belle, “Doc” he pulled her hand to his lips and
gently kissed her fingers, “We are meeting Belle
down by the pier and trading cars. She was so excited to hear about
what we are doing. I told her she couldn’t tell
anyone, not even Phillip or Sami. This has to be kept secret, we can’t
risk Alex knowing that you went with me
willingly”
“Thank you” she whispered, “Thank you for helping me. Thank you for
loving me. I’m so grateful to you John”
“Doc, you don’t have to thank me, I love you . . . .I’m so grateful to you
for asking for my help. You have no idea how
long I’ve been waiting to hear you talk to me again. I’m the one who
needs to thank you for asking for my help.”
“Alrighty then, I guess we are both thankful, both grateful and both in
love” she smiled up at him, “I do love you
so John”
“I love you too pretty lady” he whispered, pulling her into another hug.
They were in a tub, surrounded by bubbles. Candles were lit around
the room. John was leaned back, with Marlena
resting her back against his chest. She turned slowly into him,
wrapping her legs around his body, You are my knight
in shining armour. And you are my pretty lady. He pulled her into him,
their lips touching, their hands exploring, they
began making love again.
“John, I’m having another memory. We are in a tub, I call you my
knight in shining armour and you called me your
pretty lady. We made love, I told you most of my memories were very
passionate.” she smiled up at him.
“Well I told you before, we were a very passionate couple. When I get
you alone, I’ll share some more memories from
that night. It was a very romantic evening.” he grinned at her, “Look,
there’s Belle. Now Doc, I want you to stay here,
when I come around to your door, I’m going to pull you out and throw
you in the backseat of Belle’s car, just in case
any one is watching. I’m going to briefly explain to Belle what’s going
on and then I’ll be right back. I love you Doc”
“I love you too” she smiled at him and then made her face angry, tears
were falling again.
John stopped the car and got out, locking Marlena in the car. “Belle,
listen, I can’t tell you everything that’s going on
right now, but your Mom is getting her memory back. We don’t want
Alex to know, so we are faking her kidnapping.
I’m going to take her out of Salem and help her regain all of her
memories. If anyone asks, you were just borrowing
my car and you haven’t seen me since yesterday. You can’t tell
anyone about this, promise?”
“Dad, are you kidding? If you can help me get my Mother back, I can
keep this secret from anyone. Now get out
of here and bring back my Mom soon. I don’t guess I can go over to
her now can I? If your kidnapping her, she can’t
be seen hugging her daughter, right?”
“Yes baby girl. But she wanted me to tell you that she loves you and
hopes to be back to you soon. Now blow your
Mom a kiss and we’ll see you soon. I love you” he hugged his
daughter and then went to unlock the door and ‘kidnap’
his wife.
Marlena stepped out of the car and screamed, but winked at Belle and
mouthed “I love you”. Belle smiled and nodded
her head and mouther “I love you too” and then jumped in her Dad’s
jeep and fled away. John threw Marlena in the back
seat and took off in the opposite direction of his daughter, “In a few
minutes you can get up here with me Doc. I’m just
trying to make this look convincing in case anyone saw us.”
Marlena waited until they were out of the city and jumped up front with
her husband, “Now can you please explain to
me how we had a honeymoon in West Virginia? I thought you were
filthy rich, so how did you come up with
West Virginia, was that the most romantic destination you could find?”
she laughed.
“It’s a long story, Doc. Are you ready for this right now? Would you
rather get some rest?”
“John, I’m fine. I would be much better once you start talking. I need
your help and your love to remember my past.
I can’t do this alone.”
John squeezed her hand in his, “Well, sit back Doc, your in for a
unbelievable story”
~~~
Marlena opened her eyes just as they were crossing the West Virginia
state line. John had explained to her in great detail the significance of
where they were staying. He shared the story of how they first met,
their thinking he was Stephano, him kidnapping her, falling in love and
then finding out he was Roman. It seemed so romantic, she knew that
was why he wanted to take her back there, what a wonderful place for
them to work on getting her memories. She looked over at John, “I’m
still going over that story. Wow, we have had a very exciting life, never
a dull moment huh?”
John laughed, “No, Doc, I can assure you we never had a dull
moment. I just hope this helps. You helped me get some of my
memories, or what we though were my memories here, so I’m hoping
we can do the same for you.”
She reached for his hand and pulled it to her lips, kissing his palm,
“We can. I can do anything as long as I have you with me. I love you
so.”
“I love you too Doc. Now, help me look for the cabins, they should be
up ahead on the right. I hope they are still here after all these years, I
didn’t even think about that before.”
“John, it doesn’t matter. It’s not the room or the building we were in.
It’s that we are here together. Once we get to a room, any room, . . . . .
” she could see them lying in bed, he was asking her if she was up for
a little. . .and she nodded her head and they began to make love. He
was so gentle with her, so loving.
“Doc, are you ok? What’s wrong, are you having another memory?” he
was worried about her sharing all of the memories with him. He didn’t
want her to be confused or scared if she remembered something out
of context again. It had scared her earlier when she remembered the
cave, he was so glad he was there to help her.
“Yes. We were lying in a bed. Both completely clothed. We were
talking about my being scared. Of the danger we were in. You told me
that me and the children were the most important things in your life.
Then you asked me if I was up for a little. .and gave me the sweetest
kiss. I told you I was and you made the sweetest most gentle love to
- It was almost as if I was a fragile doll you were afraid you would
break. Your touches were so tender. Your kisses so soft. You made
me feel precious. You made me feel so loved. It takes my breath away
that you felt that way.”
John pulled the car over on the side of the road and reached for her, “I
still feel that way Doc. I still love you that much. You have always held
my heart in yours, always.” he kissed her lips and wiped the tears from
her eyes, “I love you Doc” and parted her lips with his tongue. He had
to make her feel how much love his heart held for her. Had to show
her how much he needed her. How much he loved her.
Marlena’s head was spinning, the feelings that John was stirring in her
body with his kisses. He was gentle and demanding all at the same
time. Giving and taking of her. She could feel the emotions he was
feeling. Her mind started reeling, one memory after another was
flashing through her mind. They were random memories again. . .
memories of her friends, her family. But mostly of John. Memories of
them laughing and crying. Fighting, making love and playing around
with each other. She pushed him off of her and tried to catch her
breath. Gasping for air.
“Doc! Are you ok?” he was scared. She was pale, her eyes wide and
gasping for breath. “What’s wrong?”
“I’m. . . . . .having . . . . .more memories . . .. . . ..Oh John” she moaned
and shut her eyes tight, grabbing his hands and holding on for dear
life. Watching as her life literally flashed before her eyes.
“Hold on baby, I’ve got you.” he held on to her as tightly as he could in
the confines of the car. “I love you Doc, I’m here to help you. Please
just trust me baby. Tell me what you see. Tell me what you
remember.”
“Everything. I can see me giving birth to the twins. . . . losing Roman. .
. . losing my baby. . . . . being kidnapped by Stephano. . . . I just killed
Maggie. . . . .watching Sami in the gas chamber. . .. . .Oh no John, so
many horrible images. Please help me!” she moaned and fell in his
lap, sobbing uncontrollable.
John tried to soothe away her fears, he rocked her and rubbed her
hair, all the while whispering in her ear, trying to get through to her,
“Baby, that is not all that’s happened. Roman is not dead, neither are
Sami and Maggie. Stephano is gone, he’s no longer a threat to you.
To us. I’m here Doc, please let me help you. Please baby.” he was
crying now, begging her to listen to him.
Some of her memories were horrible, had they really happened that
way? Most of them were wonderful, she remembered John helping
her give birth to Belle, how much they loved her. And Sami was a
Mother now, Will was a terrific Grandson. And John. John was the one
constant in her life. He was in each and every one of her memories.
He was always right by her side. She slowly stopped crying, she was
still scared, but she knew that John would be there to help her, just as
he was there in all of her memories of the past. Marlena raised her
head and looked at him, reaching up to wipe the tears from his eyes, “I
love you John” was all she could say and then she kissed him. She
needed to feel his lips on hers. She needed him.
John accepted her kisses, his hands rubbing her back, holding her
close. He watched her lean back and look at him, her eyes sparkling
from her own tears, “I love you Doc. Are you still with me?”
“Yes my love. I will always be with you. I’m sorry . .”
He cut her off, “Don’t apologize for your memories. I remember how it
is to not remember anything and then to have those memories you do
have to ease in at random moments. You helped me so much then.
You didn’t even know who I was, hell I didn’t know who I was, but you
stuck with me. You were there every step Marlena. You were held at
gunpoint, went with me to West Virginia even though you knew we
were in danger, you risked your life to help me find out who I was, to
help me get my memory back. It’s my turn. I want to help you this time.
I need you to let me help you.”
“I will. I have to have your help John, I couldn’t do this without you. I
love you so” she smiled, “Now can we please get to our room. I’m
really worn out from all of this, I just want to be wrapped in your arms,
I need you so much.” she smiled and straightned herself back in her
seat and buckled her seatbelt, “Let’s go baby.”
John smiled, amazed at how strong she was. How strong she had
always been. Most women would never have been able to keep it
together if they had been through just one kidnapping, and he had lost
count at the number of times she had been kidnapped by every
psycho in the world. He started the car down the road and reached for
her hand, “I love you Doc. We are almost at the room, then I promise
to hold you all night and never let go.ā
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