The sun outside warmed the town of Salem, bringing in a fresh new beginning, almost as if it was the start of something new. Oddly enough, today was the day Marlena would arrive back home, after being absent for months from her family and friends. She was seen last at the Memorial Day family gathering, her first appearance since her memory returned, her first appearance with her husband in months. Shortly after, it was announced that Marlena would be heading out of town, at first with her husband and then the remainder of the trip, without him. Of course there was shock, and then curiosity, and finally hopes and prayers that all was ok. However no one missed her presence more then her husband himself, counting every second that passed till she returned to his arms once again.
John hung up his cell as he glanced at his watch, counting the minutes till she walked through the front door. Her plane had just touched down and a car was waiting to bring her home. When John had spoken with her earlier, he had insisted that he would pick her up but she refused, telling him she would be fine. After many hours of debating she finally had agreed for him to send his jet and car, leaving a very happy husband in return. But from the minute he had hung up….he knew something was wrong. She wasn’t herself, but he brushed it off assuming she had been through an ordeal and to simply give her some time until she arrived back home so they can talk. John grabbed the paper and glanced at it before tossing it on the desk and clapping his hands together, wondering what to do till she gets home. Giving up on the idea of waiting patiently, he decided to keep himself busy and to go fix something for her to eat when she gets in. Glancing at his watch again quickly, he takes a deep breath and runs for the kitchen.
Meanwhile, a long slender leg steps into the awaiting car as the driver slowly releases her hand from his grip. “Welcome home Mrs. Black….Its good to have you here again.” She looks up at him and smiles, thanking him before removing her slender black Gucci sunglasses and placing them on top of her neatly fluffed and layered hair.
“Thank you Mark….its good to be home.” With that she turns her head as Mark closes the car door and runs to the driver side. Slowly the black Mercedes pulls away as Marlena glances out the window at the surroundings. She begins to wonder how much could possibly change in the couple months she has been gone, before taking a deep breath and closing her eyes. Most of all…she had some really important news to share with John….news that could not wait a moment later. Her eyes traveled to the brand new Marquis cut Diamond ring on her fourth finger of her left hand. Her mind traveled back to the memory of when she received this….right before she left on her trip.
“Hey Hey Hey…Where do you think you are running off to so quickly?” John smiled as he grabbed her by her waist and pulled her body to him, kissing the back of her head. She laughed as she placed her black designer bag down and reached for his hands that were intertwined on her stomach. She slightly turned her head to the side, trying to catch a glimpse of her husbands face.
“We’re going to be late…come on…why am I the one rushing you out of the house….its always the opposite.” She laughed as John kissed the side of her face, before turning her around to face him.
“I know but I am in no hurry to rush off, especially at a special moment like this.” He smiled as Marlena gave him a suspicious look.
“A special moment? What do you mean…you lost me? What’s going on?” She smiled softly as she asked while tilting her head to the side to make eye contact. He smiled beautifully while tilting his head a little more and grabbing her mouth with his in a sweet kiss before back up and looking at her, her eyes still closed, and her body still dealing with the sensations he just sent through her. When she finally open them, hazel mixed with blue, creating a deep fire within their souls…the passion, the lust, the desire still burning massively, both trying to fight the temptation for one another. Both agreed that Making Love would only confuse things at this moment and even though it would be tough…they decided to hold of until the moment was right. Now was no different and Marlena swallowed hard as she took a deep breath and stepped back, allowing some space in between them…space to cool off this rush of heat. “So, are you planning on telling me?”
“I am…but before I do I need you to grab my cell phone right behind you on the table.” He smiled as he pointed right behind her at the corner of the table. She gave him a look as if silently telling him ‘is it necessary’ before turning and grabbing the cell. As she turned back she jumped up slightly as she came face to face with a small velvet box.
“What’s this?” She smiled as John told her to open it. She slowly took the box from his hands and opened the lid gently, revealing a platinum 4ct Marquis diamond. Her mouth dropped open as tears immediately blinded her eyes, her emotions going in overdrive and getting the best of her. Her hands slightly shook as she tried to find her voice and speak her question. “Oh honey, what is this for?”
“For you…you deserve something so beautiful, so unique, so expensive. I came to realize that I never gave you your ring back when you came back to me…and then shortly after you had gotten amnesia and didn’t want anything to do with me. Now that I have you back, I want to give you this…something new, something precious…just like you are to me. I still have the other one if you choose to wear that…but I thought I might update it. I want you to marry me again Marlena…be my wife…continue to share your life with me. Will you acccept this baby? Be mine until the end of time?” With no words and tears in her eyes, she nodded and threw her arms around his neck, pulling his mouth to hers in a deep kiss.
“Oh yes…I will always share my life with you…And I am yours…till the end of time.” She smiled before feeling John’s fingers slip on her new ring and laying a gentle kiss on her hand.
And now that time seemed so far away…a time where she wasn’t so confused. She watched as it sparkled in the dim light that shone through the tinted glass, such a beautiful ring, a diamond that a woman would kill for….and here she has it…not even treasuring it like she should. She dropped her hand in her lap and closed her eyes for a moment, thinking about what to do or how to deal with what she felt. She felt a tear slide down her face and quickly swiped at it before realizing the car had come to a stop. She composed herself and placed her sunglasses back over her eyes, before opening the car door and slowly stepping out into the bright sun. She glanced up the building and stared at her floor…before adjusting her form fitting white button down blouse and adjusting her purse on her shoulder. Mark quickly joined her side as she smiled at him.
“I got it Mark….You don’t have to carry this upstairs.”
“No I insist Mrs. Black…please.” Mark smiled as she shook her head and softly smiled.
“I honestly have it…please…it’s a simple bag and a luggage…it has wheels….plus the doormen are inside in case I can’t do it. Thank you though Mark…I really appreciate it.” Marlena smiled as she placed a $100 dollar bill in his hand and grabbed her bags.
“Thank you Mrs. Black.” He smiled as she turned around and smiled back.
“You deserve it….see you around.” And with that, she disappeared into the building and made her way to the elevators. As she hit the button, she waited patiently preparing herself for what was about to come. She had no choice…she had to tell John how she felt…he deserved that much. The ding from the elevator sounded as the doors opened, waiting for her to enter. She took a deep breath and closed her eyes, hitting the button to her floor and watched as the elevator doors closed.
The ring blared loudly through the elevator as Marlena watched the doors open and her private lobby, appear in front of her. She bit her lip as she slowly took a step forward and exited the cart, pulling her luggage with her and adjusting the bags on her shoulder. She fumbled for her keys in her bag, her hand searching blindly for the cool metal, hoping to find them sometime soon, but also silently thanking for the delay. After finally finding them, she walked up to the door and placed her key into the slot, turning it slowly and pushing down on the handle. The smell of the penthouse filled her senses; the familiarity of it all, scented candles, flowers, even her smell was present….she was home….but as she looked around….it didn’t feel like home. It was a house, a house they lived in, a house they shared things within, a house John shared with another woman while Marlena watched in desperation. This wasn’t their home or even her home….it was nothing to her at this very moment, and that’s what scared her to death. She slowly placed down her bags and keys, adjusting her shirt once more before looking around for John.
John was in the kitchen when he thought he had heard a noise, but quickly dismissed it when he took a quick glance at the clock, realizing it was still a bit early. He continued to finish his task when he remembered something he forgot. He was suppose to light some candles so when she got home, it would be warm and welcoming. Gently putting down the knife, he wiped his hands on a dish rag and walked out of the kitchen. As soon as reached the doorway, he felt her presence, her smell…he knew she was home. He hurriedly made his way into the living room and saw her standing there. She was about to walk to the kitchen as well when they both stopped dead in their tracks as Marlena smiled widely, as John ran up to her and pulled her into his arms.
“Oh baby….you’re home. Oh God I have missed you so much.” John said longingly as he brought her body closer then before, while Marlena slowly batted at the tears that fell down from her eyes.
“I missed you too honey.”
John slightly let go of her body as he pulled back just enough to look into her eyes. “Why didn’t you say you were home?” Marlena smiled as she gave a small shrug before pulling at his hands, trying to release his grip a bit more.
“I thought maybe surprising you would be better. What were you doing back there?” She smiled as John reached for her again, pulling her close enough to kiss her. As he got close she turned her head a bit so that his lips grazed her cheek, while she smiled as moved away. He stood shocked for a moment, staring at the carpet beneath them before turning around slowly and following her movement to the piano. She picked up a photo as she stared at it, looking at the happy family they once were. John, Brady, Belle, & her….what had happened to them? She placed it down and looked at John, who still seemed somewhat shocked at her lack of affection.
He bit his lip and shook his head for a second before placing his hands in front of him and cracking his knuckles. “You look really good?” He smiled as he noticed her outfit, her form fitting black pants that hugged her body like you wouldn’t believe. Out of all the years he had known her, Marlena never dressed as good as she did now….she was always in suits…very professional…but now she was more casual and boy did she look good? His eyes traveled up her low rise black pants, her black belt….her white button down top tucked into her pants…she had the first few buttons unbuttoned and just enough to drive him insane. Her blonde hair was a bit longer, but layered and styled beautifully…her make-up, flawless. She was thin….since she had caught her amnesia, she had lost weight but now…she was thinner then he had ever seen her. He wanted her….he needed her. She had to be about 115 pounds…maybe 120….but definitely no more then that. And with her tall slender frame….she was the perfect woman. She smiled at him as she walked a bit closer to him.
“Thank you….I feel kind of sloppy right now actually.” She giggled as John shook his head.
“You definitely don’t look it. How was the trip?” He asked as she gave a nod and crossed her arms in front of her.
“Not too bad….work…relaxed….got my mind together….Which leads me to….” Marlena began to speak when a sound went off in the kitchen. She turned her head towards the sound and then back at John who held up one finger.
“Oh hold that thought….I will be right back.” John smiled as he took off towards the kitchen, while Marlena sighed and dropped her head for a moment. She needed to tell him….now was the time…but she wrestled with the idea of hurting him. After moments of fighting with her thoughts….she sucked it up and walked off to the kitchen.
“John!” She called out as she reached the kitchen and noticed all the work he had done. Dishes were covered in food, glasses of wine, candles on the table…everything was prepared. Her mouth dropped in astonishment, she quickly burst into tears…hiding her face in her hands. John walked up to her and pulled her body to his, holding her close as he let her continue on with her tears. “Ohh John…you didn’t have to.”
“I wanted to….I wanted my baby to eat….and she must eat only the best.” He smiled as he leaned down and took her lips in a kiss, this time succeeding without her turning away. She let him kiss her; truth is she wanted his kiss just as bad. The kiss became deeper as John probed his tongue past her lips and into her mouth as a moan escaped from her. Slowly they backed into the counter as John’s hands began to roam her body…slowly, longingly, passionately. She felt his hands run down her waist and her mind became clouded with lust, want, desire….she couldn’t think straight. Within moments, the kiss had ended as Marlena pulled away, slowly turning away from him. A tremendous guilt crept over her body as she fought with notion of losing him….words that she was about to tell him.
John took a deep breath as his hands ran through his short dark hair, while he gave a tired sigh. “Marlena, help me out here….Tell me what’s wrong? Was it something I said? Did I do something to upset you? If I did I am sorry….look I know we agreed on waiting till it was right for us to make love…and trust me I am not trying to pressure you….but what was ever wrong with a little kiss here and there.” John asked as she slowly turned and looked at him.
“It’s not that John. It’s not your fault…its mine…all mine. You are the most perfect man I know…I don’t deserve you….I really don’t. When you kissed me….I wanted you…just as bad as you want me…but we can’t.” She whispered as John walked over to her.
“Why sweetie?” He asked as he reached for her face, holding her to him.
“Because…making love will only complicate things…and right now….its kind of complicated.” She cried as she tried to hide her face and remove it from his grip.
“How is it complicated? Baby, if you don’t want to make love…that is fine….but how long do you want to wait? Another week…a month….hmmmm? We have to talk about this?” John asked softly as he tried to move in to kiss her but she backed away.
“There is nothing to talk about when it comes to that issue because….God…How can I tell you this….” Marlena said quietly as she pulled away from his grip and backed up to the counter.
“What? Tell me what? Is everything okay?”
She dropped her head as she mumbled out. “No it’s not,” She took a deep breath and looked up into his face. “I want a separation. I think I need some time to myself for a while. I’m sorry….the last thing I want to do is hurt you….but I can’t live like this? I’m sorry John ….” She cried as she took off running out the kitchen, leaving a stunned John behind.
John stood quietly in the kitchen, staring at the ground and trying to comprehend what had just happened. They were fine from what he could tell….everything seemed to be getting back to normal with them…for the first time in a long time….there was hope again…and then there is this. He bit his lower lip as he took off after her and left the kitchen, quickly running into the living room. He noticed as she began to run up the stairs and quickly ran after her, calling her name as she picked up the pace while sobbing harder.
“I am so sorry John…please try and understand.” She cried as she continued to hop the stairs. John finally got a hold of her as she reached the top and grabbed her by her arm, pinning her against the wall and forcing her to look at him.
“What the hell is going on? Why would you want this?” He demanded, desperate to find out her answer for this chaotic decision she made. She knew this was not going to be taken lightly but she didn’t expect him to be so aggressive either. She tried to move her arm from his grip but he pressed harder and forced her back into the wall.
“John…you’re hurting me….please let go.” She cried as she tried to push him off once more.
“Not until you explain what the hell is going on here.” John pleaded as he slightly released his tight grip on her arm, but not releasing her just yet.
“Fine….Just let go of me for a minute…please….” She begged as John finally released his grip, causing Marlena to give a sigh in relief. She dropped her gaze to her arm and rubbed it lightly before turning her gaze to her husbands face. “John, honey….I still love you so very much…you know I do. I want nothing more then to live my life with you.”
“BUT!!!! SEPERATION, isn’t really the key to a long lasting marriage MARLENA!” John shouted as he cut her off. She closed her eyes for a moment, trapping the tears in her eyes before continuing on with her reasoning.
“John…I know….please just let me finish. I am not doing this to hurt you….I swear I am not.”
“NO YOU’RE JUST TRYING TO CHEER ME UP RIGHT!” John shouted again as Marlena flinched back, unable to handle this anymore.
“John….please….I love you….I have always loved you…I still am so very much in love with you. You have to believe me when I tell you that.” She cried as she tried to reach for him but he stepped back.
He turned his face, breathing heavily as he tried to control his rage. He wanted to strangle her, for the stupidity that was running through her mind, that caused her to do this…think this. “You know Marlena….I have done everything for you….been fair to you…treated you well….gave you everything could possibly think of…”
“I know you have John….” Marlena cried harder as she tried to go by him but he pushed her hands away.
“And this is how you repay me….by not wanting to be with me. If you didn’t want anything to do with me then why would you continue to live this life with me….lead me to believe that there is nothing wrong with this marriage? I know that the amnesia was not your fault….It was mine…and for that I am so sorry! But how could you be thinking this….if you don’t need me or don’t want me…why didn’t you just say so after Alex!” John debated as he felt the tears fall from his eyes. He turned away, preparing to go back downstairs when she reached for his arm and pulled him back.
“John wait…please! Don’t do this…don’t leave like this….you didn’t even let me explain….please.” She begged as he yanked his arm away from her grasp.
“You didn’t feel the need to explain when you broke the news in the kitchen and took off running. You go ahead and do what the hell you want to do…Obviously I mean shit to you and you couldn’t care less about what I think anyway.” John spat as he took off down the stairs. Marlena placed her hand over her eyes as if trying to stop the tears from falling as the sobs poured out of her. After a minute, she ran down the stairs and after him and she once again reached out and grabbed him.
“Please….let me explain why? Don’t do this to me John….please let me explain to you.” She sobbed as John pushed her hands away once more, holding his hands up, silently telling her to keep her distance from him. She gave a simple nod as she wiped the tears from her eyes and sat down slowly on the couch, wrapping her arms around her waist and rocking slowly. John took a deep breath as he turned back and walked to the balcony windows…glancing out at the bright city.
“Explain why?” He whispered as she sniffed back some tears and gave a nod. She opened her mouth to speak and couldn’t find any words to say. Dropping her head into her hands, she cried silently before mumbling out a few words.
“Only God knows how much I love you….and this is the last thing I want. But…lately I have been so confused…not about my love for you…I could never be confused about that. But about the way I was treated by Alex….how I let myself fall under his power. I was never that type of woman….I never could have been and that is what scares me. I allowed myself to get mistreated, and I had no power over that. I just need some space to understand what is going on with me John….not for our marriage…for me.” She spoke quietly as John closed his eyes and let his head fall onto the glass.
“Is it my turn to talk now?” He asked as she cleared her throat a bit.
“No….I am not done…I still want you….I still need you…I still depend on you. You are the reason I am here today…you are my whole life baby….without you I can not possibly be the woman I am today.” She whispered as she stood up and walked over to him slowly. Carefully, as if testing a bath water that was too hot, she placed her hands on his back and leaned in by his ear. “I am so in love with you….I never want to be apart from you. This separation is just for me to clear my mind….not because I want out of this marriage…this relationship. I need you just as much as you need me. Please try and understand that I would never push you away. Can you understand what I am saying?” She asked as she leaned her head against the stiff muscles in his back.
Slowly he turned around as he held her back and looked into her eyes. “Are you finished?” He asked as she gave a light nod and dropped her gaze to her hands in front of her. “Good…cause now its my turn to talk.”
Her eyes stood focused on her slender hands as they were pressed tightly together. Nervously she moved her fingers back and forth, causing the sunlight to hit the diamond on her finger and sending thousands of shimmers along the wall. John caught the glimmer as his eyes traveled to the rock on her hand, admiring it, wondering about it. His hand reached for her hands as he untangled them from each other, and slowly brought her left hand to him. Her gaze slowly rose as she watched carefully as he studied the ring before meeting her gaze.
“I’m glad to see you still have this on.” He smiled as she gave a weak smile before wondering what to say, how could she even say anything after what she just asked of him.
“Of course…why wouldn’t I?” She said nervously, knowing very well it was the wrong thing to say the moment it slipped past her lips.
“Well because you asked me for a separation…you would think it should be off.”
“You want me to take it off….you want it back….fine, you can have it then….” She said with venom in her voice, her attitude now present in what was a nervous conversation. She yanked her hand back as she prepared to fling off the ring but John quickly grabbed her hand back, refusing for her to continue the task.
“No I don’t want it….its yours…and it will always be yours.” He simply stated as she tried to bring her hand back.
“No you obviously want it or you wouldn’t have mentioned anything….well in that case I’ll let you hold it for the remainder of our separation….just to put your mind at ease….if it makes you feel any better.” She spat as she shoved on John’s chest, trying desperately to get him to release her hand. Tears began to well up in her eyes as she was unable to hold in anymore emotion. After minutes of trying to get her hand free, she finally broke down in hysterical tears as she pushed John back as hard as she could. He grabbed her quickly and pulled her to him, cradling her face to his chest as she broke down, slightly hitting on his muscular arms as she repeated over and over how much she hated him. “God How I hate you….I hate you so much.” She cried as John closed his eyes in pain.
“No you don’t….you love me just as much as I love you….and you know that you can’t fight it….you couldn’t before…and you can’t now.” John whispered as she continued to cry, letting his hands hold her closely. She felt his hands skim along her shoulders and then up her neck as they began to cradle her face, forcing her to look up at him. She closed her eyes as she let the tears run down her cheeks, feeling his thumbs wiping them away. “Open your eyes and look at me….” He whispered as she slowly opened them, seeing his pure blue eyes staring back at her. “That ring belongs to you and only you…when I gave it you…there were no circumstances then and there are none now. You hold on to it till you’re ready to come back to me.” His voice was gentle and unhurriedly, as if he were trying to persuade her that everything was okay.
She closed her eyes again and let the tears fall once more, unable to handle them anymore. Her life was spiraling out of control and she couldn’t stop herself from this miserable feeling. Suddenly his hands were no longer cradling her face…and his arms were nowhere near her body. She felt her body drift towards the couch and as quickly as she was brought there, she was seated without a word. She looked up at him as he sat down on the coffee table and reached for her hand, kissing it gently before choosing his words carefully. “Now you are coming back to me right?” He asked as she smiled softly.
“Yes… I am not leaving, leaving you. I want you with me forever….I am so much In love with you….I am just so confused right now and I think maybe having some time to myself, where I am able to think and realize what is going on…might help me. With Alex, Abuse, Miscarriage….I am just drowning in confusion and sorrow right now and maybe time alone can help. But I want you back and here with me after I am done with all that. Just in the meantime….If you can let me have some space…that’s all I’m asking for….but I definitely don’t want a divorce or anything like that.” She said softly as John smiled and dropped his gaze to the floor and nodded.
“Then why don’t you let me help you with this…I can be here for you. This is a marriage…we work together…not apart. What if I had come to you and asked for a separation when all that shit was going with Hope and the baby….what would you have done?” John quietly spoke as he heard her sigh.
“You’re right….I probably would be saying the same thing you are….but I would understand…and as much as it pains me….I would give that to you.”
“Would you?” He looked up and stared into her eyes…the pain so very much evident in his voice and stare.
A simple nod and weak smile is all she gives before muttering two simple words. “I would.”
He bit his lip as he shook his head for a moment and then stood up. “What can I do to change your mind….is there anything?” She stood up and wrapped her hands around her waist as she shook her head.
“No honey…there isn’t.” She turned her body away, unable to his face, refusing to take in his pain as well….after this was just as painful for her.
“Nothing…” A deep whisper in her ear was all she heard as she felt his hands travel around her waist and coming to meet hers, intertwining their fingers with one another. “Are you sure there isn’t?” His lips grazed her ear before tugging on the skin gently, causing a deep moan to escape past Marlena’s lips….her body….her soul….it was betraying her and there was nothing she could do to stop it.
She closed her eyes as she felt him nip at her ear, the slight pain incredibly erotic at this very moment. Her mood suddenly went from spinning to freefalling in just a matter of seconds, and all it took was the touch of his lips. His hands were like magic as they roamed her flat stomach and then to the side of her hips….slightly applying pressure by rubbing her body to him…pulling her close and grinding ever so gently into her. Another moan escaped from her as John’s mouth quickly searched the skin of her neck….moving her hair to the side and attacking her soft skin, sucking and lightly biting.
She tilted her head back onto his shoulder as her hands remained on her stomach, while John’s hands began a journey of their own….all over her body. At first she felt as if she were losing her mind….somehow daydreaming….but then his hands felt too real and his kisses were too irresistible. Within moments her hands joined his as they rested along her sides, slowly tugging on her formfitting shirt. His skillful hands turned her body slowly until their faces were mere inches apart, their eyes now becoming dark and lusty, and their breathing rapid. He grabbed her face with both hands as he pulled her face to him, slowly and carefully. Their eyes closed as their lips met in a sweet kiss that soon became passionately out of control, as both of them began grasping at one another. Marlena had wrapped her arms around his neck as she pulled him closer to her while John’s hand skimmed along her back and through her hair, gently tugging her head back as her mouth became his intended target. Tongues colliding, breathing out of control, hands roaming, constant moaning….both of them were heading down a path to a point of no return…and neither were at a point to stop it.
Before she could even realize what was happening, his mouth had separated from hers as he backed up a bit. Her hands slowly fell from his hair and down his neck before trailing to his chest, while his fingers fell upon her silk buttons of her blouse.
“I love you baby….and I need you….” He breathed as she watched his hands with heavy eyes, staring at how his skillful fingers began undoing the buttons….the first one…and then second….soon after the third. She closed her eyes as his head dipped down and kissed the exposed flesh…his lips quickly hovering over the bare skin of her breast and then darting over her lace covered nipple. She couldn’t move…she was frozen with desire, unable to run from this passion that her husband was stirring in her. So many months had passed….so many dreams she had had….what was it like to be with John? She dreamed it…she remembered it….but she forgot what it felt like….what kind of feeling he brought in her. This was all too new to her….she had forgotten what it was like. Had their love always felt this way…been this good?
In a cloud of lust they were lost….decisions, conflicts, anger, promises…had all been forgotten as they both searched for each others mouths…lips dueling with one another. Somehow his shirt had been unbuttoned and forgotten….thrown to the ground in a frenzy, while her mouth traveled along his chest, gentle kisses being placed all along his skin until she reached his neck….where the kiss became ferocious and hostile….her tongue lapping and her teeth biting at his skin. She was dying to get to him….dying to relive this passion she had only dreamt happened…her amnesia completely wiping away the feelings and emotions of what it was like to make love to him. The sharp sting on her shoulder pulled her away from his neck as his head dipped down and took her skin into his mouth…fighting to taste her. Time had been forgotten…it was only them….two lost souls reconnecting with each other….needing to get to know one another….needing to reacquaint with their bodies. For John….each time was new….she always made it feel good….but for Marlena…this was her chance to be reminded of what they once had.
Her body was shivering with anticipation as she heard the cling of her belt hit the floor and her pants become undone. At some point, her blouse had found its way off her body and to the ground without her knowledge. Clad in a white satin and lace bra….her body constantly shivered as it fought for air….desperately gasping for the imaginary oxygen bubbles that float throughout the air. Her eyes closed heavily as his hands grasped at the sides of her black pants and slowly freed them from her hips, sliding them down her smooth, slender, and tanned legs….leaving her standing in only her matching lingerie set in front of her husband. His eyes roamed her body in want….need…anticipation…and sheer desire. That body belonged to him and he was going to have it….he deserved that much….she was his wife….he had waited this long to be with her. It had been so long since he had her….so many nights when he lie awake, thinking he would no longer have her…he envisioned what he would do to her….what he did to her….and now that time had arrived.
Tossing her pants to the side, he placed his mouth to her stomach…placing wet kisses here and there…slowly making his way further down. A sharp intake of breath was heard as John smiled before placing a open kiss over her panties as Marlena shut her eyes tightly, her hands now in fists as she fought to gain some type of control. Her head was spinning, her mind racing with all kinds of thoughts, thousands of images of what was to come. Sweat began to build on her temple, her anticipation now in overdrive….anxious in so many ways. She watched him as he remained on his knees, watching her, unbuckling his belt and undoing his pants. Her eyes were transfixed on the huge bulge that protruded through his black trousers…how could she have forgotten about something so beautiful….so amazing….so incredible….so pleasurable. Once again his mouth found the skin of her belly as he slightly backed her onto the couch….forcing her to sit in front of him. His hands slid down her sides and to her hips as he scooted her to the end of the cushion, kneeling between her long legs. Their mouths found each other again as they continuously kissed while John’s hands unsnapped and removed her bra, throwing it behind them.
Her hands traveled all around him, she simply couldn’t get enough of his body and she wanted more. She felt his erection rub her hard through her panties and she bit her lip in want….she needed this man with all her body and soul. With her hips still on the edge of the couch, John led them back onto the couch, his body now leaning over hers while her leg rose and arched along his torso. Mouths connecting, hips grinding, and constant groaning….signs that these were the moments worth treasuring and everything was about to change in one quick minute. She felt his fingers dance along her, caress her in places she has longed to be touched for so long. His sudden withdraw caused her to open her eyes as she watched as he shoved his trousers and boxer briefs down, letting his erection jump free….standing tall and powerful. Unconsciously she licked her lips as John watched her, smiling. He reached for her hand as he brought it to his erection causing her to gasp…feeling the hard thick muscle in her hand.
“This is yours too baby….it belongs to you and only you.” He spoke huskily as she looked into his eyes and smiled seductively. Together they moved their hands up and down his erection as John groaned, closing his eyes and biting his lower lip. No sooner then had that begun, Marlena found herself on her back once more along the couch, her panties now sliding down her thighs, to her calves and then her ankles…finally on the ground. John hovered over her once more, his member in one hand while his other placed securely behind her neck. Her eyes closed as she felt the tip of him dance along her slit….the pleasure running through her whole body…sending tingles and a rush of heat all over. Passion evaded her and she was at his mercy….his prisoner in this battlefield of love….and there was no other place she would rather be. The pressure was tough as he pushed in slowly….and she fought with the concept of her being torn in a million pieces. Her hands roamed down his back as her legs danced along his hips, her feet skimming the back of his calves. Another push in caused her to groan in discomfort….her body tightening, her captivity cramping and her mind racing.
“John….baby….mmmm it hurts.” She whispered as he leaned down and kissed her lips, before pulling out a bit and then pushing in a bit more. His hands roamed down her body, beginning at her breast and then down her sides….the coming to rest at her hips, pinning them while he slowly backed in and out of her. “Ohhhh John….” Was all he heard as they continued to make love….determined to prove that this love was worth keeping?
Not long after, John and Marlena had been finding their way up that peak as groans and moan fell from each other’s mouths. John pulled her from off the couch as he placed her on his lap, while he leaned on the other couch….both on the floor. Her legs hugged him as she slowly rocked her body on him, frantic to get to that point of no return. She felt the heat boiling, her body aching….the butterflies soaring rapidly throughout her stomach…the tingles through her thighs. It was a moment she couldn’t remember…she couldn’t even describe….but it was incredible. It was like the first time…..it was so unexplainable, so undeniable….so unmistakable….and so pleasurable. He worked with her….he held onto her….he moved her….caressed her….molded her…pleased her until she was ready to let go. Carefully watching her face, her reactions, her emotions…..picking the right moment to lay it all on her. He guided her hips onto his shaft…to and fro….up and down….side to side….he had her and he wasn’t going to let her go. This was the moment….the moment of all truth….the moment he had to win her over once and for all.
Lifting her hips up, he took her to the ground as he placed himself between her thighs and pushed in and out. She screamed his name as her body tightened solid around him, while her moans sounded off. Fingers intertwined, legs coiled, and toes curled….the moment had arrived. Her back arched off the ground, her hips pinned to the ground, she orgasmed like never before…..releasing all of the pent up tension she had for months. The moment was unexplainable….and unforgettable. Tears welled in her hazel eyes as she rode out the waves of passion…..her body tingling in the massive heat rush….the tickly feeling from the inside of her thighs down to her toes…this was it. John was right behind her as he screamed her name, releasing himself into her body….filling her up with his seed. Their mouths came together as the kissed their way out of the orgasm….hands gripped tightly and bodies stiff and sweaty.
Temperatures down….bodies relaxed and the twitching and tingling….now gone and over with. John removed his head from her shoulder as he looked into her glassy eyes, asking if she was alright. She smiled as she leaned in and kissed him….thanking him for everything.
“Everything is perfect….thank you…”
“For what?” He asked as he wiped the sweat from her forehead.
“For showing me how much you love me….for giving me what I had forgotten about.” She smiled as slight tears formed once again.
“My Love for you….Anytime….You have that anytime….any day….anyway….everyway….whenever you say….I am yours…at your disposal.” He laughed as she giggled, wrapping her legs tighter around him. “Now Miss Marlena….May I ask you a question?”
“Anything Sweetie….” She mumbled as she nibbled on his neck.
“Will you stay with me? Have I changed your mind?” He asked as she pulled back and looked into his eyes. Their eyes stood still as emotions began to race once again. With one deep breath, the words escaped her mouth as John watched with hope and eagerness…the final words that will change his life forever.
The Jarlena Journal 