I would die for you
I would die for you
I’ve been dying just to feel you by my side
To know that you’re mine
Smith Island… 1995…
I gave in. Her body was there… She was there…
She wanted me.
He wanted me.
I am confused now as to how this actually happened.
I remember the events.
Not the reason my brain let go of itself.
Who am I kidding… No Collar , No Brain has been my mantra.
And I wanted to fuck her.
My body craved it.
The Devil knew it.
The Devil won.
He moved my hand to her breasts. He used her. He manipulated her.
I kissed her, I moved my lips down her neck, I marked her. My tongue lapped at that area just below her ear…
I lost myself.
I let my tongue touch her nipple.
I licked, I sucked. I was at home.
I fingered the curls at the apex of her thighs.
It felt wrong.
Why was it wrong?
It felt so right….
I licked my fingers…
Those fingers wrapped around my member…
I teased her…
I aroused her…
He felt it.
This was not right…
This was wrong…
I am now one.
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