Marlena was getting dressed, she was going to see Belle and Claire.
She knew she hadn’t been there for her daughter and granddaughter
as she should have been, it was hard when she couldn’t remember
them, but she was determined to try harder for her children. She
wanted to remember her family so badly, it hurt not to remember her
past, it was so hard on her. Tomorrow was Valentines Day so she had
picked out the cutest little teddy bear for Claire and some chocolates
for Belle. She went down the stairs and saw Alex on the phone, he
had been so secretive the last few days, always whispering on the
phone. And when she asked what was wrong, he always told her the
same thing, nothing for her to worry about. She was getting tired of his
behaviour. She picked up her coat and waited until he was off the
phone, “I’m going out”
“Where are you going Marlena?”
“I’m going to see Belle and Claire. I told you I was taking their
Valentine presents to them today.” she was also getting tired of his
relentless questions, always wanting to know where she was, how
long she would be gone.
“Ok, be careful honey” he kissed her cheek.
“I will” she left the penthouse quickly, needing to be away from him.
She was in the elevator when she had a funny feeling in the pit of her
stomach. She always got this feeling when she had a memory of
John, of her past with him.
She shook it off and went out the lobby, heading to her car. Just as
she reached for handle, she felt a hand close around her arm, making
her scream and jump.
“It’s ok Doc, it’s just me.”
She turned to see John standing there, a huge bouquet of roses in his
hand. ‘Oh my he is so handsome’ she thought, trying to recover from
the scare he had just given her.
“I’m sorry Doc. I didn’t mean to scare you.” he smiled at her, making
her go weak in the knees, “I was just bringing you some flowers. It’s
Valentines Day tomorrow and I always used to bring you flowers”
“Thank you John, there lovely” she reached for the roses. They were
so beautiful and smelled delicious.
“Not as lovely as you are. You look wonderful today, as always” he
was always complimenting her. Had he always been so thoughtful and
considerate in the past?
“Thank you. We must think alike, I was just on my way to see Belle
and Claire, I had bought them both a Valentines gift.”
“So was I. Do you want to ride with me Doc? I’m going there right now,
so it would be nice if we went together. Please?”
She wanted to go with him, she wanted him to whisk her away and
help her remember her past. She wanted him to make love to her.
That’s all she wanted.
She was so lost in her thoughts of him that she had forgotten what he
asked her. “Marlena, are you ok? Where are you right now?”
“I’m sorry John. What did you ask me.”
“I asked if you wanted to ride with me to Belle’s? I’m going over there
too and it would be nice if we could ride together.”
“That would be great John. Yes, I would like that.” she smiled at him,
wishing he could read her thoughts. Wishing he could see how much
she needed him right now. She picked up the bag she had dropped
and turned back to him, “Shall we?”
John helped her to the car and opened the door for her. As he drove,
she kept looking over him, willing him to just keep driving.
“What’s wrong Doc? You are acting like something’s on your mind. I
can help you if you would just talk to me. I want to help you, please
just talk to me.”
“I . . . .I want . . .. well, I would love it if . . . . .” she was nervous, how
could she tell him that she wanted him. She had been pushing him
away all this time, what if he refused her? She couldn’t take it if he
didn’t want her anymore.
“What Doc? I’ll give you anything you want, just tell me”
Tears were falling from her eyes, “John will you pull over for a
minute?” she wanted to see his face as she told him. She was going
to do it, she had to tell him her feelings and see how he responded.
John quickly pulled into the park, stopping the car by the edge of the
water, “What is to Doc? I promise to help you in any way that I can. I
love you so much and you are really worrying me here, please tell me
what’s wrong.”
The tears were falling harder now, she hated seeing him like this, she
could see the pain in his eyes and knew she was the cause. “John, I
need your help. I want to remember my past and I can’t do that without
you. I want you to . . . . take me away, . . . . .away from Salem, . . . .
.away from Alex. I want . . . to be alone with you.” she was crying so
hard now, it was hard to talk, “I want . . . .you. I want you . . . to make
love to me. . . . . I want to be with . . . .you, to remember being . . . with
you. Please, will you do that for me? Will you help me?” she looked at
the floor, afraid to see the rejection in his eyes.
~~~
John couldn’t believe this was happening, he had stopped by the
penthouse in hopes he could give Marlena the roses without her
throwing them at him. He just wanted to see her for a few mintues and
now here they were, sitting in his car, the love of his life was asking
him to be with her, to help her regain her memory, asking him to make
love to her.
He watched the tears run down her cheeks, her lip was quivering and
she was still looking down. John leaned over and touched her chin,
bringing her face up to look at his, his thumb wiped the tears from her
face. “Doc, I love you. I want to help you, I want nothing more than to
be with you.” he pulled her in, hugging her tightly, afraid to let go in
case she changed her mind.
He inhaled deeply, breathing in the scent of her, relishing the feel of
her in his arms, this is where she belonged, with him.
“Doc, let’s go.” he leaned her back so he could look at her, “Call Belle
and tell her that we will see her in a few days, she was expecting me
to stop by and see the baby. Tell her that you are with me and we are
going away together. Tell her to keep this quite, and only call if it’s an
emergency.”
“Where will we go?”
He could see the confusion in her eyes, he wasn’t going to give her a
chance to change her mind. “Just call Belle. I’ll take care of the rest.”
he kissed her lips quickly.
He watched her smile and lean down for her phone. He put the car in
reverse and picked up his phone, calling his pilot, telling him to have
the plane ready as soon as possible. He was taking his wife away and
he was on top of the world. He knew the perfect place to take her.
They both made their calls and sat in silence, sneaking glances at
each other and smiling. Their hands were entertwined, holding on to
each other for dear life.
Marlena turned to him, “Honey, where are we going?”
“I’m taking you somewhere special Doc. Somewhere where no one
can bother us. It’s a perfect romantic destination.”
“John, please tell me. I don’t think I like surprises.” she pouted, “Do I?”
“No Doc, you’ve always hated surprises. And I always love making
you wait.” he grinned and began laughing, “Always before, I wouldn’t
tell you, make you guess. And you would always try to get it out of
me.”
She joined in his laughter, “How would I do that?”
“You had your ways” he smiled, his eyebrow arching up, “You would
usually begin kissing me, whispering sweet words in my ear, your
hands trying to seduce the secret out of me.”
“Did that work in the past?” she whispered, if it did then she would
begin the seduction. She would love trying to get the secret out of him.
“Sometimes. Usually I wouldn’t tell you, but it was always fun for you
to try” he looked over at her, his eyes full of passion.
He watched her smile and unbuckle her seat belt, she leaned over
and began kissing his ear, her hands rubbing his arms, his chest.
He groaned, he shouldn’t have told her that, he had never been good
at resisting her seductions in the past and he knew he wouldn’t last
long now. It had been so long since he felt her lips on his, felt her
hands on his body, he would explode if she didn’t stop.
“Ok Doc. Look, I’ll be honest with you. I’ve never been really good at
resisting your charms. And it’s been so long since we’ve been together
that I know I won’t be able to resist you at all right now. Please stop or
we will never make it to the airport.” he was begging her.
He watched her smile, “The airport. Where will this plane be taking
us?” her tongue touched his neck, sliding around toward the front of
his shirt.
“Doc . . . ..please” he moaned.
“Please what? Please stop? Do you really want me to stop John? It’s
been so long since I’ve done this, and I’m having so much fun. Aren’t
you enjoying this?” she teased him, her hand dropping dangerously
low.
“Doc, I want you right now. If you don’t stop right now, we’ll never
reach the airport, I’ll have to pull over and make love to you on the
side of the road. If you promise to quit until we reach the plane, I’ll tell
you where we are going. Please?”
“Where? That’s all I want to know baby” she whispered, her hand
rubbing his growing bulge.
“Hawaii!” he yelled, his hand grabbing her arm and pushing it away.
“We are going to Hawaii, the same hotel we spent our honeymoon.
Now please sit back, wait until we get to the plane. Then I’m going to
pay you back for this, you just wait!” he was smiling.
“Good!” she grinned at him, “I can’t wait. I’m excited to see where we
spent our honeymoon.” and her voice dropped, “And I’m even more
excited to get to the plane. I want to finish this seduction. This is so
much fun” she laughed.
He laced his fingers through hers again, pulling her hand to his mouth,
kissing her palm, “You will have to finish the seduction. And if you are
going to do this each time I try to surprise you, then baby you can
count on getting surprises every day for the rest of your life.”
~~~
Marlena sat beside of him, her fingers entwined with his, “How did you
get a plane on such short notice?”
“We own this plane. It’s ours, we can use it whenever we want.”
“We have a plane? How on earth did we just happen to buy a plane?
Do we fly a lot?
“I bought this plane for sentimental reasons” he leaned and placed a
quick kiss on her lips, “In the past, there was a time we couldn’t be
together. Fate brought us here and we reconnected, our love was
uncovered, stronger than ever. Since that night, I just had to buy it. I
couldn’t imagine anyone else owning this part of our history.”
She smiled at him, her eyes full of love, “You are the sweetest man. I
just love you so.”
“I love you too Doc. I’ve got to tell you that I’m still in shock over what’s
happened. I was expecting to try to convince you to accept my flowers
without throwing them at me, and now here I am. I have you in my
arms again and we are on our way to Hawaii, to try and recreate our
honeymoon.”
“John, I’m sorry for the way that I’ve treated you in the past few
months. I didn’t mean to cause you so much pain, I was just confused.
I’m still confused” she looked at him again, her eyes staring into his,
willing him to see her love, “I just know that when I’m with you, things
make more sense. I feel like I’m where I belong. You make me feel so
safe and loved.”
“Please don’t apologize to me Doc, we’ve both been through so much
in the past. And I promise to always make you feel safe and loved. I
want to help you remember. We can take things slowly and work at
your pace. I just want to help you in anyway I can Doc.”
“John, can I ask you something?”
“Doc, you can ask me anything. What is it baby?”
“Well, I’m having some flashbacks, some memory flashes. They are
very quick and don’t seem to be in any order. I was hoping to ask you
about them and maybe you could help me fill in the details, will you
help me?”
“I’ll always help you. I think that’s a great idea, let’s get to work.”
“Well, in all of my memories, they are all of me and you. And, well .. .in
most of them . . .. .actually in all of them . . . .well . . .. .uhhh” she
couldn’t believe she was getting ready to tell him this, to bear her
feelings to him. She had to trust him, to put her faith in him. She loved
him.
John could see her confusion, he could tell she was scared, “It’s ok
Doc. I’m right here with you, each step of the way, I’ll be right beside
you. You can tell me anything. Just trust in me Doc. Trust in US.”
She looked up at his eyes, tears watering hers and started talking,
“Well, in all of my memories of us, they are all so intimate.” she
dropped her head again, her cheeks blushing.
John smiled and winked at her, “You don’t have to be embarressed
Doc. I can explain the events if you’ll tell me more information. I want
you to know that we are a very loving couple. Very passionate. We
both love so deeply and love sharing that connection. I can tell you
that we had a lot of ‘intimate’ moments. Some of those moments were
sweet and loving, romantic nights with flowers and candles.” he kissed
her lips lightly, “and some of those moments were very lustful,
passionate, desperate. They were demanding and raw.” He deepend
the kiss, his hands pulling her to him, holding her flush against him.
Marlena moaned in the back of her throat, her hands lacing through
his hair.
John pulled back, he wanted to finish talking with her first. He needed
to help her, answer her questions. He would wait until they talked and
then make love to her.
“So your saying we were very intimate often?” she grinned at him,
mishief shining in her eyes.
“You could say that. Most definately say that” he laughed, “Doc, there
were times we would make love for hours. There were time we mad
love in places we really shouldn’t have. We could be sweet or sexy.
Loving or risky. We both had a very healty appetite and weren’t afraid
of taking chances.”
“What do you mean, places we shouldn’t have? Like where?”
“Well, to name a few, this plane, a conference room, on the roof, in the
ocean, my office, your office . . . .you name it, and we’ve either been
there or thought about doing it there!”
Marlena was laughing with him and still blushing, “In one of my
memories, I was lying on a bed, you were over me feeding me
pineapples. It was very erotic, so erotic I almost called you at 3:00 one
morning to ask you about that. Where were we? When did that
happen?”
“Well, that was on our honeymoon in Hawaii”
“So do you think we might could try to recreate that memory once we
reach our hotel?” she ran her hand up Johns thigh, “Please?”
“Ohh I think that can be arranged. Most definately.” he picked up her
hand and kissed her palm.
“I have an idea John. What if I tell you of each memory I have of us
making love, then we could recreate each one, how does that sound
baby?”
John’s breath caught in his throat, “Doc you are amazing. You always
have” he brushed the hair off of her neck, “the best” leaning her head
back, “ideas” he attacked her neck, kissing, biting, sucking each spot
of skin, leaving nothing untouched.
~~~
“I have an idea John. What if I tell you of each memory I have of us
making love, then we could recreate each one, how does that sound
baby?”
John’s breath caught in his throat, “Doc you are amazing. You always
have” he brushed the hair off of her neck, “the best” leaning her head
back, “ideas” he attacked her neck, kissing, biting, sucking each spot
of skin, leaving nothing untouched.
Marlena’s head was spinning, her memories were flashing through her
mind quickly and her love was here beside of her, holding her, kissing
her . . . . .she was losing touch with reality, she couldn’t tell if she was
dreaming, remembering the past or here in the present.
“John, please . . . .wait a minute. . . . ” she moaned, his tongue was
teasing her neck, sliding around her ear, “I need to ask you
something”.
John stopped his advances, “What’s wrong Doc, am I moving too fast?
I’m sorry baby, I’m just so excited to have you back in my arms” he
stopped kissing her and leaned back.
“No John, that isn’t it. I’m just a little dizzy right now. I’m having these
memories, at least I think their memories . . . . and I’m. . . . well, I don’t
know . . . . ” she started crying, this was so frustrating.
“Shhh, Doc it’s ok. Let’s just calm down and you explain to me what
your feeing. Tell me what your seeing in your memories and I’ll try to
help you.” he held her closely, he wanted to help her, he wanted her to
remember every moment with him. He wanted her to remember all of
her love for him.
Marlena stood up and began pacing the plane, “It’s raining outside . . .
.there is thunder and lightning all around. I’m crying, my heart is
breaking. . . . .I’m losing you” she burst into tears, her body shaking.
John stood up and went to her, placing his arms around her, pulling
her into him tightly, he helped her sit down. “Remember I told you that
I bought this plane for sentimental reasons? That was the night that
made me buy the plane. Do you want me to tell you what happened,
or would you rather tell me what you remember?”
“Both. Let me tell you what I see and feel . . .and then you help me fill
in the blanks. I can’t see the whole thing, just pieces” she reached up
to him, placing her hands on his face, “I love you so. I need you to
help me.”
“Baby I’ll help you. I’ll be with you through this entire thing, I’m not
leaving you for a minute. I love you Doc. I’m going to help you.”
She smiled at him, “I’m so glad your here, holding me.” she placed a
gentle kiss on his lips, “Now where was I? Oh yeah, I can feel the rain
on me, I’m trying to get to you. . . . I’m so sad that your leaving me. . . .
I want to make you see how much I love you . .. . how much I need
you” she breaks down again, “John, please hold me, don’t let go”
John crushes her to him, his hands rubbing her back, trying to soothe
her, quite her sobs, “Baby you did make me see how much you loved
- You showed me how much I loved you, how much we belong
together. You stopped me from leaving. You saved me once again
with your love.”
They were both crying, tears running down their faces, holding on to
one another. Marlena was the first to speak, “John, we made love that
night didn’t we?”
John smiled from the memory, that was such a passionate night, so
much love and hunger, “Yes we did. That was possibly the most
intense love we’ve ever made.” he whispered, his eyes full of longing
for his wife.
Marlena watched the emotions play over his face, she could see the
hunger for her in his eyes, “John, will you make love to me, make love
to me like you did that night? Please, I need to feel your body against
mine. I need you.”
John looked at her flushed cheeks, her eyes shining with love, her full
lips parted, her body was screaming for his, “I love you Doc”
~~~
Marlena watched the emotions play over his face, she could see the
hunger for her in his eyes, “John, will you make love to me, make love
to me like you did that night? Please, I need to feel your body against
mine. I need you.”
John looked at her flushed cheeks, her eyes shining with love, her full
lips parted, her body was screaming for his, “I love you Doc”
Marlena closed her eyes as she felt his hands begin to undo the
buttons on her shirt, his fingers brushing against her breast, her
nipples begging for his touch.
“Open your eyes Doc. I want to watch you as I make love to you.” he
whispered, his breath hot against her skin, his tongue touched her
nipple through the lacy material of her bra.
“Ooooh John” she moaned, her body was on fire. She leaned her neck
back, arching her body further into him.
John latched onto the nipple, sucking and biting her lightly, he loved to
hear her moans of approval. He felt her hand brush against his waist,
pulling his shirt out of his jeans and trying to get it off over his head.
He stopped his exploration of her body and helped her rip his shirt off,
breathing deeply when he felt her hands on his chest, she was
amazing.
Clothes were being ripped and thrown around the plane. John
grabbed her and pulled her body flush against him, relishing the feel of
her against him. He smiled at her, “Doc, I’m going to show you how we
were together that night on the plane. The time you remember. I want
to show you the passion we felt, the longing, the love.” he pushed her
back against the leather sofa.
She gasped when she felt the leather on her back, memories of that
night flashing through her mind as she watched John lying down on
her. It was hard to tell fact from fantasy. She could hear the sound
from the night long ago. She could feel his body creeping up hers, his
hands exploring every inch. She could hear the storm raging outside
in the past. She could feel his mouth tasting her, teasing her. She
exploded into a million pieces, the orgasm shattering her body.
John held her tightly as her body shook, he kissed her neck and
whispered, “I love you Doc.”
“John. . . I love you.” she grabbed his head and pulled him down to
her, “I love you” and licked his lips, her tongue plunging into his
mouth.
He could feel her hands on his back, urging him to make love to her,
her mouth was sucking his tongue in, taking control. He placed his
hands on her thighs and slipped between her legs and groaned when
he felt her legs wrap around him.
“John, make love to me” she whispered, “Please” moaning as she felt
him enter her. He slid in slowly and his eyes slammed shut at the
feeling of her tight wetness enveloping him. She felt so good wrapped
around him.
John started kissing her, this time he was taking control, his hips
started rotating, slowly sliding in deeper and deeper. He wouldn’t last
long, the feeling of being in her was overwhelming. “Harder John, go
deeper” she begged. He pulled back, almost pulling out completely
and plunged back in her, bucking harder against her.
Marlena was so close, moaning her approval, “Oh yes baby, oh John”,
her fingers clawing down his back, urging him harder.
John was ready to explode, he wanted her to cum with him, he
reached between her legs and found her swollen nub, rubbing it
between his palm, “Cum with me Doc” his mouth latched on her neck,
sucking, biting, claiming her as his own.
She could feel her body tightning around him, could tell by the urgency
of his movements that he was close, “That’s it baby . . . Oh John!” she
screamed through their orgasm.
John fell on her, his body covered in sweat, “Doc I love you” he
whispered between his labored breathing.
Marlena was crying, she was so happy being here with him like this, “I
love you too. Please hold me, don’t let go”
John rolled to his side, pulling her to rest on him, “I’m never letting you
go again Doc. Never.”
She rested her head on his chest, her hands rubbing through the hair
on his chest. “John, that was amazing” she leaned up on her arm,
winking at him, “You were amazing” she grinned and placed a quick
kiss on his lips.
“Doc, we were amazing. We’ve always been amazing together, no one
can make me feel the way you can. I love you Doc. I’ve missed you so
much”, he closed his eyes, not wanting her to see the sadness, the
pain the last few months had caused him.
She watched the tears escape his eyes and reached up to dry them,
“John I’m so sorry I’ve been unable to remember. It breaks my heart to
know how much pain I’ve caused. . . .”
John stopped her by putting his hand over her mouth, “Stop it Doc. I
don’t want to hear you apologize over something you had no control
over. This is not something you wanted to happen, it’s not your fault
you can’t remember the past.”
“I know, it’s just. . . .I should have remembered you. I can’t believe that
I just took everything that Alex said as fact and didn’t question him. I
wish I had asked you earlier about my memories. I’m so sorry”
“Doc, it’s over. I know you still don’t remember everything, but you
remember your love for me. You know you love me and that I love
you. That’s all that matters.” he winked, trying to lighten the mood,
“And don’t get too upset. I do believe you promised to recreate a lot of
memories once we get to our romantic destination. I want you to forget
all about the last few months and concentrate on us and our love” he
brushed his lips over hers, “Because I do love you Doc” he licked her
lips, “always have” he bit her bottom lip, “always will” and began to
make love to her mouth.
He took her breath away. Just feeling his lips on hers, his hands
holding her tightly, she felt so loved, so connected to this man. She
would do everything in her power to regain her memories or at least
make new memories with him. She wouldn’t lose him again.
John leaned back and looked into her beautiful hazel eyes, “Doc, will
you please just lay here with me, let me hold you in my arms. I’ve
missed holding you so much”
Marlena smiled up at her love, his blue eyes shining, “I would love to
let you hold me. I never want you to stop holding me” she kissed him
quickly and settled back down in his arms.
John pulled the blanket down over them and snuggled with his wife,
content to feel her next to him. The lovers feel asleep together, arms
wrapped tightly with smiles on their faces as they slept, dreaming of
their future together.
~~~
John opened his eyes, he had just had the most delicious dream.
Marlena had come back to him, she still loved him. “If that had only
happened, I wish she still loved me.” he said aloud.
“Who do you want to love you now? Isn’t your wife enough?” she
whispered and licked his cheek.
“Marlena!” he screamed and sat straight up in bed, his eyes staring at
her as if she was a ghost.
“Yes baby, it’s me. What’s wrong, did you think last night was just a
dream?” she whispered and coaxed him backwards, lying him on the
bed and covering his body with her own, “Were you afraid this didn’t
really happen?” she grinned and began sucking on his nipple.
John signed, “Your real, I was afraid you were still with him” he pulled
her up to look into her eyes and saw the love and desire shining at
him, “You do love me don’t you?”
“I do. I’m so sorry that I gave you cause to doubt my love for you. I’m
so sorry for the things that I said and the way I treated you. I can’t
belive that I just trusted everything that Alex told me.” she leaned in to
him, her face almost touching his, “I love you with my whole heart
John. I still don’t remember everything in my past, but what I do
remember is of you, of the love we shared.” her tears were falling
freely now, her hands shaking as she held his face, “I can only hope
that you’ll let me make it up to you. That you’ll let me show you how
much I love you.” her lips brushed his, “That you’ll let me show you
how much you mean to me” she nibbled his lips, moving down his
neck, “You are the only man I need. The only man I want to be with for
the rest of my life” she was biting his neck, sucking hard, leaving her
mark on him as he always did to her, “Please let me love you. I can’t
stand the thought of not being with you John, you make me complete.”
John signed deeply remember a time in their past that she had told
him that, only then he had been so wrapped in finding his past that he
hadn’t responded the way he should have, he wouldn’t make the same
mistake again. “Marlena you complete me! You make me feel like a
whole man. You make me feel loved and wanted. I’ll never need
anyone else in my life the way I need you” he placed a gentle kiss to
her lips and hugged her tightly.
Marlena was remembering the same time that John was, when they
were in New Orleans, “That’s not what you said. You said you could
never be whole.” she leaned back and stared into his eyes, “Did you
say that? I remember feeling hurt that you didn’t feel complete with
me, but you just said that you did feel the same as I do, completed.”
she felt dizzy, “I don’t know what to think. How can I tell if the things I
see in my head are true? How can I tell what’s really a memory or
what’s been fabricated by Alex?” she tried to move away from his
arms, from his body. Her memories made her feel unbalanced and
she hated not being in control of her emotions.
John grabbed her and wouldn’t let her go, “I did say that before. I was
stupid. I was wrong. YOU MAKE ME COMPLETE! Only you. It’s
always been only you” he whispered to her, “I love you Doc. I never
want to be without you, NEVER!” he attacked her mouth, trying to
make her see what he was feeling inside.
Marlena was confused, but she couldn’t think with his lips claiming
hers, his hands branding her with their warmth, “John” she murmured
against his mouth, trying to gain her thoughts, “I love you too. Please
just hold me, never let me go” she threw her arms around his neck
and held tight.
He held her close and tried to soothe her, rocking her lightly and
rubbing her back, “I’ll never let you go again Doc. I’ll always keep you
safe.”
“I do feel safe. I feel like nothing can harm me as long as I’m in your
arms” she tried to get even closer to him, wanting no part of her to be
separated from him.
“Let me tell you about your memory Doc, let me try to fill in the blanks.
Can I do that for you?” he wanted to help her regain her memory.
“Please” she whispered and pulled away, turning slightly and leaning
her back against his chest, wrapping his arms around her, “Hold me
and tell me about our past”
He kissed the top of her head, “We were in New Orleans. I kept you
guessing the entire trip as to where we were going, I wanted to
surprise you.”
“Did you?”
“Yes, you couldn’t get it out of me, but that didn’t stop you from trying”
he laughed, remembering her attempts to get their destination from
him. “I made you wear a blindfold up to our hotel room and took it off
once we were there. I had candle lit all over the room, their was a dixie
land jazz band playing beneath our window, it was so romantic.”
“It sounds dreamy” she replied softly, getting lost in his memories.
“It was. We had a nice little dinner, very romantic. I proposed to you
that night and you said yes. Then we made love” he groaned,
remembering the passionate night they had, “Oh man did we make
love”
Marlena giggled, “That good?”
“Oh baby, that was one of our best nights ever! We were finally back
together and free to love each other. We couldn’t wait to get married.
We made love all night and each time was wonderful.” he signed
softly, nuzzling her ear, “You were wonderful. We were dancing at
midnight, drinking wine and laughing. That’s when you told me that I
completed you. You said I made you feel complete and loved. And
then I made one of the biggest mistakes in my life, I told you that I
couldn’t be a complete man until I remember my past. And you were
unselfish as always” he stopped and kissed her neck, “And you told
me that you would help me find out everything in my past and you
would always be by myside”
“Did I help you?” she turned to him, getting lost at the love pouring out
of his beautiful blue eyes.
“You always helped me Doc. You helped me each time something
new was uncovered about my past, you were always there for me.
Always” he hugged her tight, “I don’t think I can make it without you. I
need you so much Doc. I love you so much”
“I’m glad I helped you. I’m sure you’ve helped me through the years.
Your helping me right now. I have my own night in shining armour”
she laughed and then was dizzy again. She remember saying that to
him in the past.
“You’ve called me that before you know?” he hoped to help her
remember details from their past together.
“I do remember that.” she looked up at him, shock evident in both their
faces, “We were in a tub. There were bubbles all around us, candles
and flowers everywhere. We were so close to each other then, our
bodies touching in everyway possible. I remember telling you that I
was free and you were my knight in shining armour.” she smiled at
him, “And you called me your pretty lady” she laughed, “and then we
made love” she was so excited. “That really did happen, didn’t it
John?”
~~~
“Did I help you?” she turned to him, getting lost in his eyes.
“You always helped me Doc. You helped me each time something
new was uncovered about my past, you were always there for me.
Always” he hugged her tight, “I don’t think I can make it without you. I
need you so much Doc. I love you so much”
“I’m glad I helped you. I’m sure you’ve helped me through the years.
Your helping me right now. I have my own night in shining armour”
she laughed and then was dizzy again. She remember saying that to
him in the past.
“You’ve called me that before you know?” he hoped to help her
remember details from their past together.
“I do remember that.” she looked up at him, shock evident in both their
faces, “We were in a tub. There were bubbles all around us, candles
and flowers everywhere. We were so close to each other then, our
bodies touching in everyway possible. I remember telling you that I
was free and you were my knight in shining armour.” she smiled at
him, “And you called me your pretty lady” she laughed, “and then we
made love” she was so excited. “That really did happen, didn’t it
John?”
“Yes baby, that really did happen. And there were a few other times
too! And if my memory serves me correctly, we made love then too!”
he laughed and pulled her into a searing kiss. He loved this woman so
much, she could still take his breath away after all these years
together . . . .and the time apart. It saddened him as to all the times
they had been separated, a love like theirs should be spent together
for eternity, not having all of these outside sources constantly trying to
keep them apart.
Marlena could sense his feelings, “John, what’s wrong?” she sat back,
peering curiosly into the blue heaven of his eyes, her hands running
up his cheek to cup his face and bring him face to face with her,
“Baby, what is it? I can see the sadness in your eyes, talk to me baby”
she pleaded with him, “This is our fresh start, let’s not start with
secrets this time, please?”
John smiled, “You always know how to get me to talk don’t you Doc?
You pout a little bit and then you add a sweet little ‘please baby’ and I
always succomb to your charms.” he kisssed the tip of her nose, “I
was just thinking of how much time we’ve spent apart, it always
saddens me to know that we’ve been torn apart in the past by too
many outside influences. All that time wasted. . . .missed chances that
we can never have back!”
Marlena smiled, “Don’t think of that John. You need to concentrate on
all the great times we had together in the past. You need to think of all
of the wonderful moments we are going to create in the future. I don’t
care if I never gain all of memories, I know I want you in my life. I need
you in my life. I love you John, even with amnesia my heart knows we
belong together. The things my mind doesn’t remember, my love
makes up for” she wiped the tears from her eyes and then gently
kissed the tears falling down John’s cheeks, “We belong together
John, forever and always my love” she whispered into his ear, softly
blowing over the trail of kisses, making his body coming alive.
“I love you Doc. You are so good for me. Everytime in the past that I
would get down, you always lifted my spirits” he laughed.
Marlena’s eyes glazed over, she could see John handing her a cup
piled high with whip cream. He was acting goofy, telling her that her
smile always brought him to the top and then he placed a sizzling kiss
on her lips and asked her to join him on the couch for a little huggin, a
little kissin, a little etc, etc. She told him things were perfect and he
had said things would be more perfect, if that were possible, if they
were to get married, that the only thing missing was a ring on her
finger. They had agreed to get married very soon and began kissing.
John could tell she was having a memory, and smiled as he watched
the blush rise up to her cheeks, her breathing increased and her eyes
glazed with passion. He was trying to figure out what she was
remembering, what had sparked this memory, “Marlena, tell me what
your remembering.”
Marlena was still re-living the memory, “You had just given me some
hot cocoa with whip cream. We are on the couch begining to make
love. Well, your are talking about getting married and I’m trying to
undress you. I want you so bad. I need to feel your body against mine,
your lips on me, your hands on me. Oh JOhn I want you so much” she
snapped out of the memory and moaned, “That was a very hot
moment, wasn’t it John?” she smiled and licked her lips.
John moved closer, running his hands up her arms, touching her neck
and lightly pulled her closer to him, “It was Doc. It was Valentine’s Day
I think. You told me that I always knew how to make you feel better
and I explained that you do the same thing. We were talking about
getting married. And your right, I was doing all the talking and you
were doing all the seducing.” he nibbled on her ear, “I love it when you
take control Doc. It’s so hot” he nipped her ear, making her moan
deep in her throat.
Marlena leaned her head back giving him access to her neck, “Oh
baby, why don’t you take control now. . . .your doing such a good job
at it” she reached up, lacing her hands through his hair and holding his
head to her neck, urging him to love her.
~~~
Marlena leaned her head back giving him access to her neck, “Oh
baby, why don’t you take control now. . . .your doing such a good job
at it” she reached up, lacing her hands through his hair and holding his
head to her neck, urging him to love her.
John’s mouth was slowly exploring every inch of her beautiful neck,
she had the sweetest taste and he couldn’t get enough of her. His lips
were kissing, licking and sucking his way down, slowly between her
breast, careful not to touch either one, and eased down her belly,
stopping only to kiss her belly button.
Marlena was moaning and twisting into him, urging John to make love
to her and stop this exquisite torture of her body, “John . . . . .Please!”
John smiled, raising his head to watch her plead with him, “Please
what Doc? Do you want me to stop?”
“NO! Oh John please baby, your killing me. Please”
John started licking downward, “I’m not killing you baby.” he spread
her legs and eased down to lie between them, his mouth almost
touching her, “I’m lovin you” and his tongue barely touched the
wetness on her lips.
Marlena bucked her hips, “John please baby, please make love to me”
she was begging for him now. She had to have him stop this
tormenting her and make love to her.
He raised up to stare into her hazel eyes, now darkened with desire,
his blue eyes staring into her soul, “Doc, I’m going to make love to you
like no one has ever made love to you before.” and with that he moved
back down and dove into her, his lips licking every inch of her he could
find, his tongue lapping up the sweetness, his hands holding her
tightly to him.
“John!” she screamed out, “I”m cumming” her body was tighting up,
she could feel it building inside her. “Please” she wanted him inside
her when she came, “Please John”
John increased his efforts, he wanted to taste her release. He wanted
to feel her tighten around his mouth, her hands in his hair guiding him.
He loved to hear her begging for him, it turned him on so badly. He
slid his hands up under her and raised her closer to his mouth and
dove into her again, he knew she was almost there, he could feel her
body quiver, so he sucked harder, licked her more and tasted the
sweetness of her release.
Marlena came all over his face, she could feel herself exploding,
“JOHN!” was all she could say. She could feel him taking it all in, he
was tasting her and holding her through her orgasm, she loved him
- Her body was calming down, the shaking had almost stopped
when she reached for him, “John, please come to me” she looked
down at him and whispered, “I need you”.
That was all he needed to hear and he immediately scramble up the
bed and pulled her over into his arms, her head resting on his chest.
Marlena smiled and slid her legs over, tangling them in his. Her hands
were rubbing every incho of his arms, his chest, “I love you John. You
make me feel like the sexiest most loved woman in the world. I feel
like no one else has someone who loves them as much as you love
- I feel so blessed to have you here with me after all I’ve put you
through the last years”
John put his finger over her lips, “Stop it Doc. That’s enough of that. I
don’t want to talk about what we’ve both done in the past to screw
things up, ok? I want to concentrate on our love for each other. I want
to focus on our future together. I want to help you regain your
memories of our life together.” he moved his finger and replaced it
with his lips, softly tasting her mouth, “I want to be with you Doc, only
you. Forever and Always. Til Death do us Part. I have never loved
another woman the same way I love you and I never will. I was made
for you. I needed your love to make me complete. We are soulmates,
we belong together forever” his fingers wiped the tears from her face,
kissing her nose, “I love you”
Marlena was in tears, happy tears, “I am the luckiest woman, I have
you in my life. I have the gift of your love, that is all that I’ll ever need
from you. As long as you love me, then I know I can deal with any
obstacle that comes our way. I love you so” she started crying again,
and threw her arms around his neck, holding him tightly.
John held her close, stroking her hair and back, whispering sweet
words in her ear. He was so thrilled that she still wanted him, that she
was getting some of her memory back and he would help her get the
rest.
Marlena eased back, “John I want to ask you something, and if you
don’t want to you can just say that and I’ll udnerstand”
John smiled, “Doc, don’t be nervous, just ask me”
Marlena smiled back at him, he could always calm her down. “Well
John, I was just thinking, we are still married right? We actually didn’t
get divorced did we?”
“No. I refused to sign the papers. I threw away every copy that Alex
sent me. I told him he would have to kill me before I every signed
those damned things”
“I’m sorry John. I can’t believe. . .”
“Stop it Doc. It’s over. The main thing is that we are still married.
That’s what counts”
“Good. Then I was wondering if maybe, well, maybe to see if you
wanted to that we could maybe . . . . .renew our wedding vows” her
head was down and she whispered the last part quickly. She wanted
to feel that he still wanted her, but deep down, there was some small
part that thought maybe he wouldn’t want to remarry her. John hadn’t
said anything and she was afraid to look at him. Then she felt his hand
under her chin, raising her face to face with him.
“Doc, why are you afraid?”
“I’m not! I’m not scared.” how does he know what I’m feeling? she
wondered.
John smiled and reached for her hands which were balled in tight little
fists, “Doc, you are scared of something. Everythime you get scared,
you ball your fists up in these tight little balls.” he smiled at her and
kissed each hand.
Marlena watched him, and opened her hands, reaching out to hold his
hands in hers. The fear was leaving her now, “John, I’m not scared
now. I love you. I want to marry you again.” there she said it!
John grabbed her and pulled her into him, “I love you Doc, I can’t wait
to marry you again.” he kissed her, leaving her breathless.
“I love you John. I can’t wait for us to get married again.” then she
looked confused, “John?”
He looked up at her and could see the look of concern on her face,
“What is it Doc? Are you ok?”
“John, how many times will this be that we will be married. I’m
remembering one wedding, but I’m wearing three different dresses.”
Marlena couldn’t figure this one out, she knew something was wrong
with her memory and hoped John could help her.
John started laughing, “That’s another story Doc, but right now, I want
to make love to my new fiance.” and pulled her back under him, “I love
you doc and I want to finish what I started earlier. I want to make love
to you all day” and he began kissing her mouth, taking her breath
away.
~~~
“John, how many times will this be that we will be married. I’m
remembering one wedding, but I’m wearing three different dresses.”
Marlena couldn’t figure this one out, she knew something was wrong
with her memory and hoped John could help her.
John started laughing, “That’s another story Doc, but right now, I want
to make love to my new fiance.” and pulled her back under him, “I love
you doc and I want to finish what I started earlier. I want to make love
to you all day” and he began kissing her mouth, taking her breath
away.
Marlena pushed him away, trying to catch her breath, “John, I’m not
your fiance, I’m your wife. I really want to renew our vows, it’s very
important for me to start our lives fresh, be reconnected heart. . . .soul
. . . .and body” and then she attacked his mouth, searching his tongue
and demanding control. She rolled him over on his back and climbed
on top of him, her knees straddling his hips, her mouth moving down
to his neck, sucking and biting him, marking him as her own as he had
done to her earlier, she could hear John’s groan of passion as
continued down his chest, her tongue licking his nipples, making each
one as hard as her own. She couldn’t get enough of this man.
John was amazed at the things this women could to do his body. She
already had his heart, but his body was addicted to hers as well, they
were indeed soulmates. He could feel her slipping lower on his body,
her mouth making a wet trail down his body. “Marlena” he moaned,
lacing his fingers through her blonde locks, guiding her down to his
hardness, anticipating the moment of contact, “I love you Mrs. Black”.
Marlena stopped and gazed up at her husband, “I love you John, now
Mr. Black, please lie back and enjoy what your wife is planning on
doing. I hope it’s to your liking”, and then she swallowed him in her
mouth, her tongue sucking on the hard throbbing cock.
John’s body tensed up, his hands grabbing her hair tighter, pushing
her onto him, guiding her moments, “Doc” was all he could say, she
was so good at this.
Marlena increased her efforts, her mouth keeping up with his hands,
his hips pushing into her, deeper than she had ever taken him in her
mouth, but she kept up with his demands, her hands reaching under
him and coaxing the gentle sensitve skin, urging him to cum in her
mouth, she needed to taste him, to make him hers again.
John knew he was close, he tried pulling her up to him, “Doc, please I
need to be inside you now, please baby”
Marlena sucked him one long time and then raised to her lover, her
hazel eyes dark with passion. She slowly crawled up his body, kissing
each spot she passed, when she reached his mouth she stopped
short, placing her lips to his, whispering into his mouth, “then take me
baby” and slammed her body down on him.
Their moans escaped at the same moment, filling the room with the
sounds of their passion. John grabber her ass and was guiding her
down on him, grinding into her body, increasing the motions, she had
him so hot that he knew he couldn’t last much longer and he wanted
them to cum together. With that thought, he quickly flipped her over on
her back and rammed into her, causing a scream to escape her lips.
Afraid that he was hurting her, he tried to pull back but Marlena locked
her legs around his hips, “Harder John, go deeper, closer” she
moaned, she wanted to feel every inch of his body on hers, feel his
weight on her.
John increased the tempo,slamming into her harder each time, lifting
her body slightly, their sound of their bodies slapping together, her
hands clawing down his back, she was so hot, the best lover he had
ever had, the only lover he wanted in his life forever.
Marlena could feel her body begin to tighten around him, she knew
she was close, “John . . . .baby fuck me hard . . . .cum with me baby”
John almost shot off just hearing her words of passion, he increased
his tempo, grinding his body into hers and he could feel her tighten
around him, he arched back and with more push they both exploded.
Marlena pulled him down flush against her, she loved the feel of him
on her, his weight made her feel safe and loved. Her hands slowly
rubbing his back, smoothing his hair back, whispering “I love you. I
love you. I love you”
John’s body was still coming down, he could feel his wife soothing
him, hear her words of love being whispered in his ear and he started
to cry. He still couldn’t belive he finally had her back in his arms. He
grabbed her and her tightly against him, not wanting to let her go.
Marlena could sense the change in him, “Baby are you ok”
John sniffed and leaned up with that little half smile on his face, his
beautiful blue eyes shining into hers, “Of course I’m ok. I’m in bed with
my wife, the love of my life, we just had the most incredible sex, and
she has agreed to marry me again, how could I not be ok?”
Marlena smiled at him, “I love you John.” She rolled him over and
immediately snuggled against him, her head resting on his shoulder,
his arms wrapped tightly around her, “John, how many times have we
been married?”
John smiled, thinking back over their very dramatic past, “Well, we
had one wedding ceremony when I first came to Salem, when we
thought I was Roman, we “renewed” our vows. Then we were
planning our first marriage as John and Marlena, and that wedding
was stopped, so it never happened. Then a few years later we actually
were married as Mr. and Mrs. Black, finally! After that we had another
small ceremony to reaffirm our love. So technically, we have walked
down the aisle three times, once and Roman and Marlena, and twice
and John and Marlena.”
Marlena laughed, “Yes, we have definatley had a very interesting
history together. The time we were married as John and Marlena, was
that in a church?”
“No, we were married at the Penthouse Grill. When we reaffirmed our
vows, we were at a chapel in Vegas, now that was fun”
Marlena was thinking, “Well, what if this wedding was small, very low
key. I was thinking we could get married with maybe just the kids and
few close friends. Maybe we could get married on the beach, or
somewhere outside, that would be very romantic.”
“Doc, I’ll let you plan your dream wedding. I planned the last one, each
and every detail, but this one is all you. I would love to help you but I
want this to be the most special day of your life.” he tipped her chin
up, kissing her gently on the lips.
Marlena raised up and pulled his face to hers, “This will be the most
special days of our lives John. From this moment on, nothing and no
one can separate us again. Never. We belong together, our love is too
strong to be broken. I never want to be away from you, never.”
John wiped the tears from her cheek, “Don’t cry baby. We are
together, and this time it is forever. Now I don’t know about you, but
I’m starving, I worked up quit an appetite.” he laughed, “What about
you baby, care for a quick snack, we need to keep our energy up”
Marlena smiled and reached for her robe, “You have the best ideas”
and then suddenly started having a memory flashback. She could see
him feeding her marshmallows and licking the sticky from her face and
fingers, “John I’m remembering marshmallows” she smiled as she saw
the passionate look cross his face, “Come with me Doc, we’ll get a
quick snack and I’ll explain our fascination with food and sex!” They
linked their hands and laughed all the way to the kitchen.
~~~
Marlena smiled and reached for his shirt, “You have the best ideas”
and then
suddenly started having a memory flashback. She could see him
feeding her
marshmallows and licking the sticky from her face and fingers, “John
I’m
remembering marshmallows” she smiled as she saw the passionate
look cross his
face, “Come with me Doc, we’ll get a quick snack and I’ll explain our
fascination
with food and sex!” They linked their hands and laughed all the way to
the kitchen.
John led Marlena into the kitchen area, pulling out a chair, “My dear
Marlena,
please sit down while I hunt us up something to eat”. Marlena turned
toward him,
“I need a kiss first” she smiled up at him, and was amazed at how
much love she
felt for this man, “I love you John”.
“I love you too” he leaned in to her and placed a chaste kiss on her
lips, “Now
please sit so I can feed you” he helped her in the chair and went to the
small
refrigerator and cabinet in the airplane’s small kitchen. He knew there
wasn’t
much to choose from, but he did find some wine, crackers, cheese
and grapes.
His mind went back to all the times they had used food in the past,
maybe he
should show her how seductive a simple grape could be, he smiled
and his
eyebrow raised in the manner that was so John Black. “Doc, I have
an idea. I
need you to shut your eyes and open your mouth”
“What? What are you going to do John?”
“Trust me.” he smiled and winked at her.
“I do trust you John.” and leaned back in the chair, her eyes shut and
licked her
lips before opening her mouth, “I’m ready baby, feed me”. Her mind
raced back
to a day in the penthouse, she was dipping a spoon into whipped
cream and
John was standing before her, his eyes shut saying ‘feed me baby’,
“John, I’m
remembering, ” she whispered.
“What is Doc?” he was fascinted at the process of her memories
returning, “What
do you remember?”
“You were asking me to feed you, your eyes were shut and I was
dipping whipped
cream and instead of feeding it to you, I threw it on you” and she
started
laughing, “then you grabbed the can of whipped cream and covered
me with it”
she opened her beautiful hazel eyes and stared at him, “You were
right, we do
have quite a history with food.”
John laughed with her, “Yeah we do. Now sit back and shut your
eyes, let me
show you some more” he watched her lean back in the chair and
close her eyes
again, her mouth opening slightly, she was the most amazing woman
he had
ever met. John sat down right beside of her, as close as he could, he
leaned
over and licked her lips and then traced the grape over her lips before
sticking in
her mouth, “Now eat” he whispered and then licked her lips again as
they closed.
Marlena moaned in the back of her throat. John traced her lips again
with his
tongue before entering her mouth, tasting the grape and Marlena.
She
deepend the kiss and threw her arms around his neck, holding him to
her. John
pulled back, “Doc we need to eat something before we land, I’m
starving”.
Marlena laughed, “Ok, but I think it’s my turn now” she reached for the
grapes he
was still holding, “Now shut your eyes”, she watched his blue eyes
shut and she
started placing kisses on his cheek, his neck, his nose and then she
attacked his
mouth, dropping the grapes and throwing her chair backwards as she
climbed on
his lap. Her kisses were demanding, her hands were controlling as
she held his
head where she wanted it. Her hips were grinding into him, “you were
right John,
food is very erotic to me, now let’s quit eating”, she began nibbling her
way to his
neck. “I need you” she was tasting his skin, her tongue tracing a path
to his ear, “I
want to feel you in me” she whispered.
John stood with her still on top of him and laid her back on the table,
slowly. He
reached for the bottom of the shirt she was wearing, his hands sliding
over her
belly and up to her breast. “Raise your arms” he asked.
She raised her arms without hesitation as she stared at his eyes which
were turning
from deep blue to black with passion, “Oh” was all she could utter. He
pulled the
shirt over head and kissed her lips, “Lay down Marlena” and watched
as she
gently moved backwards on the hard wood, he could feel his erection
which was
aching and ready to fuck her. He slid his hands into her silk panties
and began
sliding them down her long tan legs, his lips following the trail of her
panties.
Marlena sat up and reached for his boxers, her lips found his nipple
and nipped it.
John lost control as he felt her hands wrap around him, “I love you
Doc”, he
pushed her back down on the table and climbed up on her, his legs
tight against
hers, holding her still. His eyes boring into hers, he wanted her like
never before, “I
want you Doc”.
“You have me” she yelled as she wrapped her legs around his tanned
body, her
hands clawing down his back, “now take me” and bite his shoulder.
John groaned at the feelings she was creating and slammed into her,
her body
immediately clinging to his. He began thrusting into her, hard and
fast, rocking
them both on the small table. His hips were hitting hers, making them
both
scream in pleasure. His lips were tracing her neck, her breast. Her
hands were
clawing into his shoulders
Marlena could feel him, his hardness rubbing her walls, she knew she
couldn’t take
much more of this friction before she exploded, “fuck me . . . .. harder.
. . .. .oh
John” she yelled as he increased his rythym, she arched off the table
and
exploded around him, “John . . . .John . . . .John . . . .”
He felt her walls tighten around him and he rammed into her once
more – hard
before exploding himself, “DOC” he yelled as he came. He fell onto
her and she
wrapped herself around him even tighter, holding him and whispering
sweet words
in his ear as his body slowed down.
“John” she whispered and licked his ear, “I love you so much. I can’t
wait to
marry you again and spend the rest of my life with you. Especially my
nights. . .
.we have the most amazing sex” and then started giggling, “We are
really good
at this” kissing him between laughs.
John leaned back and watched her smiling, he loved to see her this
happy,
“Damned good at this.” his lips brushed her and pulled back.
“The best”, she laughed as she tried to pull his lips back to hers.
“I love you” he said before kissing her.
Before they could deepen this kiss, they heard the pilot over the sound
system,
“Mr. Black, we are close to the airport, please prepare for landing. I
hope you
have enjoyed your flight”
Marlena started laughing harder, “Yes Mr. Black, I hope you have
enjoyed your
flight. I know it has to be one of the most entertaining flights I’ve ever
had” then
she looked at him, “Well, at least that I can remember” this caused
them both to
start laughing hysterically as they tried to dress and get ready to land,
both
eager to see where this trip took their relationship.
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