“Dr. Evans?” Marlena answered as she took a deep breath, desperately holding back her tears.
“Sorry to bother you Dr. Evans but you have a phone call….. supposedly very urgent.” Cynthia answered quietly.
“Fine put it through….” Marlena said as she hung up slowly.
Her phone rang once more as she lifted up the phone to her ear. “Dr. Evans speaking.”
“Marlena….. Its John.” She took a deep breath as she put her head in her hand.
“John I told you to stop calling me. Please is that so much to ask of you?”
“Hey, well if you knew how to call people back when they leave endless messages for you…..I wouldn’t have to hunt you down. Care to tell me why my lawyer stopped by today and left me with a few papers?” John asked angrily.
“Oh you got them…good….now do me a favor and sign them…so you can run off and marry that whore, Katherine.” Marlena said sarcastically, as she hit her hand on her desk.
“How many times do I have to tell you? I don’t want her…you are my wife….you.” John’s tone cracked as he whispered the last few words.
“Well pretty soon…that won’t be true anymore. Look I’ll make this really simple for you. I cheated on you too.” Marlena said carelessly, realizing too late what she had said.
“What did you say?”
Marlena’s tears slipped down her face as she let the truth slip out of her mouth, for the first time.
“I said I was unfaithful to you. The whole time I knew you were with Kate….I allowed myself to give in to Roman. I slept with him.”
John felt like he had been stabbed in the chest, as he heard her pour her heart out.
“You fucking did what? You let him fuck you?” John said angrily as he stood up and paced the room. Luckily for him, therapy had helped him immensely, for if he couldn’t walk, he might of suffered a heart attack from all the blood that began to boil.
“It wasn’t like that….It doesn’t even matter…” Marlena cried as she placed her face in her hand.
“Like hell it doesn’t. How dare you play the innocent party when you knew fucking all along that you had been unfaithful. Well tell me Marlena, did you like it? Did you like the way he thrusted into you, the way he fondled your breasts. Or did you like it when he turned you over and used you in his own sick way.”
“Stop John…” Marlena cried, as she pleaded desperately for him to stop.
“Where are you?” John asked somewhat calmly, noticing that she was crying.
“Work….”
“I want to meet with you….in one hour at the penthouse.”
“No John.” Marlena said firmly.
“Either you meet me…or I find you…We need to talk and I will talk with you before this night is through. So penthouse in one hour.”
“John please…No …” Marlena said quietly.
“I am not going to do anything stupid… I am not going to hurt you, but I do need to speak with you. So weād better get this out of the way now. See you in one hour.” John said as he hung up the phone and left his office.
Marlena slowly put the phone down, as she reached over her desk and got a piece of tissue. She slowly looked up and said a silent prayer.
“Please God……don’t let anything happen tonight. I know I don’t deserve your help, but all I’m asking you is for the tiniest bit of strength to fight off the love I have for him…please.” She whispered as she placed her head in her hands.
A hour and a half passed by, as Marlena sat in her car staring at the wedding ring that clung to her slender finger. As she got lost in the glimmer of the diamonds, her mind travelled to a place that she never wanted to return to again. She closed her eyes as the pain of that evening burned a hole in her heart. The moans of John and Kate having sex, forever tormented her mind and soul. Then suddenly Roman on top of her, pushing himself back and forth into her, flashed through her mind. She tried to shake off the image, but it only came back to haunt her even more than before. She shut her eyes as she could almost feel his hands roughly grab her breasts and suck them, leaving an undesirable feeling in her soul. He had pumped her body almost as if she were his own personal pillow. She remembered his moans, his sweat, his unsatisfying thrusts. Her skin began to crawl as she thought how little that night actually meant to her. In fact she only went through with it because she had known that John and Kate were doing the exact same thing. How she regretted that night and how it made her feel even lower than she would have ever allowed herself to get. Her cell phone tore the silence, as the blaring ring pulled her from her nightmare. She leaned over to get her cell phone from the purse, glancing at the caller ID, and quickly noticing it was John. She didn’t want to answer it, knowing that he was probably already pissed off that she had broken the news of two bad situations already&… and now she was a half hour late on top of that. She ignored it, letting her voicemail take over. She slowly exited her car, as she made her way to the elevator that was waiting to take her on up to her unwanted and dreaded destination. The ride up was slowly agonizing as she fidgeted with her ring on her hand. The ding sound snapped her out of her trance as she realized that she was on her floor. She walked out and baby-stepped her way to the door, placing her key into the slot. Before she could turn it, the door flew open, as John asked where she had been. She stared at John with an angry look, as she walked past him and placed her purse down on the desk. John turned around and glanced at her as she ignored him.
“Did you hear me?… answer me dammit!” John yelled, causing Marlena to turn around and yell back.
“I don’t have to respond to you… you don’t own me… you never did and you never will!” Marlena snapped as she grabbed his keys and threw them at him. “Get out of my house…NOW!” She screamed angrily.
“I’m not going anywhere, honey, Ā until you explain to me exactly what happened… word for word!” John said, as got in her face. Marlena backed up just a little and she put her head down.
“You don’t want to know the truth John… it will only hurt more,” she said softly as her eyes once again began to fill with tears.
John grabbed her wrist as he pulled her close to him. “I want to know everything!”
“Let go of me! Get your hands off me.” She said with aggravation .
“That’s what you should have said to Roman. Tell me… did you say that? While he put his dick inside you…did you tell him to stop&… did you tell him you belonged to someone else?” John’s words were wild, as his anger got the best of him. He pinned Marlena to the nearby wall, as he put his hand under her suit coat and grabbed her pussy.
“Stop John…” Marlena yelled as she tried to push his hands away, only for him to pin her again. He grabbed her roughly as he whispered in her ear.
“Tell me Marlena, did you say I love you.. fuck me? Did he ride this all night long? Did you like it? This and you&… belong to me! I own your body, your breasts, your pussy, your ass… I own it all!” John spat as he ripped open her suit coat and grabbed her breasts roughly. Marlena managed to get one free hand and she slapped him across his face.
“Get the fuck off me… get out John…” Marlena cried as she attempted to try to cover herself up with her torn jacket.
John came to his senses, as he held his face and he backed up a bit. He looked at her softly, whispering that he was sorry. He slowly walked over to her and he laid a gentle hand on her jacket. She quickly swatted him away, but again he placed his hand on her coat and tried to cover her up.
“I had no right. I’m sorry. I don’t want to hurt you… I love you, God knows I do,” John said, as tears fell from his eyes. He watched his wife cry her heart out.
“I want the divorce John. We can’t go on like this&… I don’t think we can ever be the same again,” she said as she turned her head away.
“Then maybe this might help…” he said, as he dropped his suit coat on the floor and began unbuttoning his shirt.
“What are you doing?” Marlena asked surprisedly, as she wiped the tears from her cheeks.
“I want to show you something. Something that you will never forget… something to prove to you how much I still love you,” John said, as he walked towards her.
Marlena put her hand out and she stopped him in his tracks. “Don’t come any closer….put your jacket on and please get out. I don’t want you near me… I don’t want you touching me.” She knew that what she was saying couldn’t be farther from the truth, but she had pride and she needed to show it.
“Baby….I’m sorry, I really am… now please…?”
“NO….GET OUT!!!!…” she screamed as she pushed him backwards and ran upstairs, with John quickly on her heels. As she made her way down the hallway, John caught up to her and pulled her into what used to be their bedroom. She shoved him and slapped his arms as he pulled her onto the bed. He crawled on top of her, as he pleaded with her.
“You know you want this, Marlena. Don’t fight it! Let me show you how much I miss you… I need you… and I love you. Now I want to hear you say it…; SAY IT NOW!” John insisted, as he pinned her hands above her head to stop her from hitting him.
“Get the hell off me… I mean it, John…; this is rape,” she yelled, as John leaned down and captured her lips in a heavily passionate kiss. She felt herself losing control but she continued to squirm beneath him, as he pressed down on her body with his own, his massive hard-on begging her to give in.
He backed up from the kiss, as he whispered to her. “Its not rape when you love someone as much as I love you. It’s passion and that’s what I intend to show you.” With that he took her mouth in a fiery kiss and he plunged his tongue inside her mouth. She slowly let the anger go as she gave her mouth to him. He leaned down and sucked her neck gently, leaving tiny bruises in the process. His hands travelled down her body as he pushed aside the torn material from earlier, and caressed her breasts through the lace that covered them. His mouth moved to the material as his teeth yanked on the fabric, causing it to move aside. Marlena arched her head back into the pillows, as she felt the pleasure seep into her skin. She suddenly opened her eyes as she thought of Roman doing the exact same thing. While she looked down, she noticed that the image of Roman faded to John and she was no longer his wife, but Kate instead. She quickly jumped up, and sat up quickly, pushing John back with her hand.
“We can’t do this John… not anymore…; not ever again.”
“What…Why?” John asked with irritation, while he ran a hand through his short hair.
“I want a divorce… and this is not in the package. You have Kate…” She explained but was quickly cut off by John.
“Well I won’t give you the divorce so give it up now… you’ll lose Marlena. And what the hell are you talking about? I want you…; only you…; on your back, your legs open to me, while I thrust uncontrollably into you. And I know that you want that too, Marlena. You’d be lying if you said you didn’t. We haven’t done this since… God a year ago… I’m dying here baby.”
“THEN GO FUCK KATE… I AM NOT YOUR WHORE!” She yelled as she tried to get off the bed.
“NO, YOU’RE JUST ROMANS RIGHT?” John screamed, as he realized what he said a little too late. Marlena’s eyes widened as she pushed him off the bed.
“Get out, and if you don’t…; I will do whatever I have to do to get you out of here.”
“I’m sorry… I didn’t mean what I said.”
“Yes you did or you wouldn’t have said it,” Marlena shouted, as she tried to button her torn jacket.
John ran to her and he picked her up once more, putting her back onto the bed. This time he was going to do what they both needed, and he was not going to give up. He kissed her hard as he ripped the jacket once more, this time for good. He grabbed her bra and tore it from her body, leaving her bare and nervous. He kissed her lips tenderly as his hands went to her pants and unbuttoned them, placing a warm hand inside. She fought him, hitting and pushing, but losing the battle way to soon. Her yells soon turned into moans, as John smiled softly, taking her mouth once more.
“I love you and I know you love me…” He said softly as she gave him a lustful look.
“No I don’t… not anymore. It’s over.” She breathed heavily, as her breath threatened to take over her body.
“Then why do your eyes say something else? You can’t lie to me, because your eyes will always tell me the truth. You do love me and I am going to show you why…; tonight. Tonight will be the night that chooses our fate… so relax, close your eyes and let it take its course,” he said as he pulled her pants down her long slender legs. He licked his lips as he sensually caressed her thighs with his hands. She closed her eyes as moans escaped her lips, feeling his fingers come seriously too close to the point of no return. He unbuttoned his pants and slowly pulled them down, leaving him in a pair of tight black boxer briefs, his hard-on massively protruding through the fabric, trying to break free.
“Tonight Marlena, my wife, my lover and the love of my life… I will prove to you that you are mine and only mine,” John said, as he crawled on top of her, leaving Marlena nervous and anxious all at once.
Marlena felt Johns body press into her as she fought the urge to just take him and love him. He moved his hips in between her legs as he began to grind into her roughly, letting his moans be heard. Her slender leg draped along the back of his thigh while the other rubbed against his outer hip. She felt her juices boiling as his tip poked the wet fabric, driving her wilder by the second. She turned her face as she tried to focus on something other than what was about to happen. As she stared out the window, John’s lips attached to hers and he sucked them passionately. Her eyes closed suddenly as she felt his tongue erotically dance with hers, while his hands kneaded her breasts with a desperate urge. His fingertips rolled around her nipples, causing them to pucker up. His tongue rolled across her skin and made its way to her breast where he licked them softly. His tongue worshipped her nipple as it took it in… nibbled it and caressed it wildly. Malena arched her back and neck, as she felt the explosion in her body set off, and the raging heat rush through her whole body, leaving her shivering in the end. John looked up at his beautiful wife and he gave a teasing smile.
“Awww so soon? That’s okay… I’ll make sure you get another one!” He smiled as he kissed her once more.
“Johnnn… mmmm…” Marlena tried to debate but was quickly thrown off when she felt John’s fingers rub her clit. Her heart almost jumped out of her body as she moved her hips up, causing his finger to slip inside. Her moans filled the room, as John moved them in and out slowly, wiggling them back and forth inside her, caressing each wall. “Stop John… we… have to… mmm… stop…!” She cried as she felt another finger slip in.
“Shhh,” John hushed as he continued to move his hand back and forth. He stopped suddenly, as he placed his hands on the delicate fabric of her panties. He removed them quickly and opened her legs to him. He pulled down his boxers letting his cock jump free. She unconsciously licked her lips as she noticed the way John jerked off his cock somewhat, making it solid rock hard, pre-cum glazing down its tip. He moved in between her legs, as she tried to sit up, quickly being pushed back down.
“No, John…; I can’t go through with this…” Marlena tried to talk her way out of it, never noticing the black color in John’s eyes.
“You got yours and I am going to get mine… shhhhhh… lay down… don’t make me fight you down…” He breathed heavily as he pushed her shoulders down.
“No… please stop… get off… I can’t do this…”
“Hey I’ll tell you what… I’ll put the tip in, and if you decide that you still don’t want it… I will stop. You have my word…” John whispered in her ear.
“I said No…” She said as she tried to push him up.
John grabbed her arms and pinned them above her head as he moved his hips between her legs. His cock automatically found her opening, as it poked her hole, causing her to shut her eyes in passion.
“Remember one thing…; I love you!” John breathed as he pushed himself in, her juices overflowing around his pounding cock, while her walls closed around him, causing John to scream out. Marlena’s moans overpowered John’s as she dug her nails deeply into her husband’s fingers. John pulled out slowly as he looked down at his wife……
“You still want me stop?” He smirked, while Marlena shook her head from side to side, her hips slowly bucking forward, desperate for contact . “Now I’m going to show you… how much I’ve missed you and how much you belong to me. YOU ARE MINE!”
The evening sun in Salem dropped as dusk began to set in, leaving the penthouse dark and quiet, except for the bedroom which seemed to be heating up by the second. Marlena’s moans filled the room as John leaned down and nibbled her neck, sucking the tender skin until it turned bright red.
“Mmmm… John… stop… uh… don’t.” Marlena moaned as she tried to move her neck away.
“Don’t what baby?” John breathed heavily as he gave her a lustful look, before bending down and nipping at her breast.
“Don’t leave a mark…” Marlena looked up at her husband with heavy eyelids, before shutting them after John attacked her lips with violent kisses.
“Why not? I told you already… I OWN YOU! Remember?” John said with demanding words before he took her lips once more. Marlena’s body clung to Johnr17;s as she felt her soul melt into his body, giving in to him in every sense of the word. John’s arms swarmed underneath her body, as he pulled her closer to him while he sat on his knees, lifting her up to straddle him. Her legs clung tightly to his sides, as she wrapped her arms around his neck, their lips attached to each other, sucking the life out of them. John backed his head up somewhat as he stared into her eyes.
“I love you…” John said softly as Marlena’s became slightly teary.
“I do love you too… but…” Her words were cut off by Johns finger that hushed her lips.
“No buts… no regrets… just love and our determination for our future,” John said as he attacked his wife’s neck, leaving a very dark mark in the process. This time Marlena let John do what he wanted, as she arched her neck to him, granting him the access he deeply needed. As John lifted her a bit to position himself so that he could enter her easily, the phone began to ring endlessly, causing Marlena to lose her concentration. She turned her face towards the phone as John let out a sigh of aggravation, and turned her chin so she would look at him.
“Look at me!” The words were almost a demand instead of a simple plea.
“Aren’t you going to answer that?” Marlena asked quietly.
“No… you are the only thing that is important to me right now… just you.”
Once the phone stopped ringing, John was about to kiss her lips, when his Nextel phone beeped loudly. After the beep, Kate’s voice loudly spoke telling John to pick up his phone and that she needed him desperately. Marlena rolled her eyes, as she moved herself away from John, much to his dismay. He tried to hold her still but she pulled back, and tried to get off the bed. John grabbed her arm, as he reached for his phone and slammed it against the wall, shattering it into hundreds of pieces. He pulled Marlena down as she tried to push his hands away.
“Once again… another reminder of how much she will always be in our lives. You belong with her, just go to her already before you hurt me even more,” Marlena said as the tears made their way down her face. John wiped them away with the pad of his thumb and he held her face and kissed it gently.
“I want you. I belong only to you and to no other woman not now or ever. I won’t hurt you I promise you that for the rest of my life.”
John backed up from his wife as he parted her legs, opening them for himself. He looked over at her as her face flushed with passion and her tears glistened on her cheeks. He licked his lips as he placed his face to her sweet center and licked her lips tenderly. Marlena’s mouth dropped opened as a deep moan flew from her mouth. John thrust his tongue in and out of her hole, as her fingers laced through his short hair. He placed his hands under her ass and lifted her up and closer to his mouth. She screamed out in passion, as John sank his tongue deep inside. Before she could finish, John got up and crawled his way between her legs. He grabbed his throbbing dick and placed it at her opening as he pushed himself inside. Marlena’s hands went to John’s back, as her nails dragged their way across his skin. She arched her back as her hips dipped low, clamping Johns cock inside, causing him to moan passionately.
“Oh God baby!” John said loudly as he pulled out slowly before shoving himself back in. His hips rotated in circles, as he made short and quick thrusts, lifting himself up to hit her wall. Marlena couldn’t take the passion as she tried to pick up the pace, raising her hips higher.
John smiled as he kissed her deeply before pulling away. “You want more baby?”
Marlena nodded as she tried to pull him closer.
“THEN YOU WILL GET MORE!” John said loudly as he picked up her hips and slammed into her hard.
“Oh God John!” Marlena screamed as John hit her walls hard, shoving himself deep inside. Her leg wrapped around his thigh as she dug the heel of her foot into his leg. John stayed still for a few seconds, before pulling out just a bit and then moving himself back in. He rocked his hips in a wave-like manner, as he rode Marlena’s pelvis erotically. Marlena fought the urge to come right there and then… so she tried to push him off a bit, only to be rejected by him, receiving even more powerful thrusts. John reached down as he placed his hand on her inner thigh, opening her legs a little more, as he shoved himself all the way in.
Marlena moaned uncontrollably as she arched her back, giving him more stimulation every time he entered her. John’s breathing became harsh as he picked up the pace of his thrusts, pushing a little further than before. Marlena wrapped her legs around him as his hips dug into hers, causing her to scream out his name non-stop. John pulled himself from her as he slowly pulled her up, turning her over, and placing her hands on the headboard of the bed. He grabbed his throbbing member as he inserted it in her tight hole, sliding in slowly as Marlena shut her eyes and moaned in pure pleasure.
“Oh John… Mmmmm…” Marlena whispered as she bit her lip, while John thrusted behind her, holding her hips and pulling them to his pelvis. He rocked her ass to him as he began to pound into her. The sound of their skin slapping began to take over the moans that were escaping them. John shut his eyes as he arched his head back, while he made a loud yell, pulling her hips to him violently. The light skin of her ass and hips began to turn bright red from the pressure of John’s hands and the slapping of his hips.
“Ohhh God… MMMMM… Baby…” John moaned as he slid in and out of her with a dangerous speed. Marlena moved her hands from the headboard to the bed, as she tried to balance herself from the wild rocking. She screamed as John dove way inside her, filling her to the max. She rocked her hips back to him hard, causing John to hit her up hard and fast. Her breasts began to hurt from all the hard rocking causing them to move wildly and roughly, but she was somewhat enjoying the erotic game that was being played.
“Ohhh Baby… right… there… John harder honey! Give it to me!” Marlena yelled as she dipped her upper body down on the bed but left her hips up and legs open.
“Oh Yeah… you like that baby? Huh? Who does this belong to baby?” John moaned with passion as he gripped her ass, slapping it slightly with his hand.
“You baby… You,” Marlena breathed as she tugged on the sheets with her teeth, her hands gripping the pillows tightly.
“Yeah… who owns you?…Who does this pussy belong to?” John yelled this time, hitting her ass a little harder.
“You!” Marlena moaned as John pumped her furiously.
“That’s right Marlena… ONLY ME! And this dick belongs to only you… remember that!” John breathed in her ear as he laid against her back, wrapping his arms around her waist, while his hips still rode into her. He fondled her breasts while he leaned on her, and then he laid her whole body down on the bed, her ass still arching up so that he could still penetrate her. His body hung slightly above hers, as drips of sweat fell from John’s face and onto Marlena’s silky back, which was already beginning to fill with perspiration. He stopped thrusting and crawled over Marlena, laying down beside her on his back, and pulling her body to him. Her slender body weakly crawled over John’s and sat atop of his stomach, while her wet liquid began soaking into his pores. He picked her hips up gently with his strong hands and led her a little lower, onto his waiting hard dick. She looked down at her husband as her eyes burned into his. She moved her hips a little lower letting the tip find her soaked hole, but never letting her eyes wander from his eyes. “I love you John!” She whispered, as John slowly repeated her statement as well. She slowly dropped down, his hard shaft sliding in, hitting the sensitive wall, making her moan in passion. She then rocked her hips up, squeezing Johns penis inside, and holding him there. John clamped his eyes shut as he yelled in passion, holding his wife’s hips still. She then slowly moved up and down and in a wave-like rhythm, as she ground herself into her husband, pleasurably trapping him inside each time. John stared into his wife’s eyes as he mouthed ‘I love you’ non-stop. His hands moved to her breasts as he caressed them sensually, causing Marlena to pick up the pace on her thrusts. She began to bounce harder as John’s hands moved to her hips and helped her with the motions. Her fingers tangled in his chest hair as she used that to balance herself every time she slammed down on him. “You want this John?” She screamed as she bounced wildly on her husband.
“God Yes… don’t stop baby!” John screamed as their bed rocked into the wall violently, causing a picture frame to fall to the ground. “Then show me!” Marlena yelled, as she arched her back and leaned backwards, her breast fully exposed and her walls clamping his member tight. John sat up as he held her and lifted his hips as hard as he could.
“Finish me off!” Marlena screamed, as she stared into her husbands eyes.
“With Pleasure…” John moaned and picked her up.
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