Marlena opened the door to the penthouse. She was excited. Would John be home by now or would he still be at Basic Black?Soon she would find out. She went upstairs but the sound of the dripping water stopped her. Well, she thought. That’s a good way to reunite with my husband after all this time… we can definitely use a bath together.She was about to take off her clothes, when the sound of the hair dryer stopped her. Why would John be using a hair dryer? He never used a hair dryer after showering,Marlena thought. She peeked in to the bathroom to see who was using it…
Marlena was shocked by who she saw. NO, that can’t be her… Kate?? Oh my god – things have changed since Tony kidnapped Roman and her, but she was home now, wasn’t she? So where was John?Marlena left without Kate seeing her. She knew that she had to find John to let him know that she wass alive and well.
John was in his office, in a boring, financial meeting, having thoughts of what it would be like to feel in love again… to live again. If only… no, love was not for him anymore! He was past it now! At least he could say that he had been lucky… he had felt it.
Marlena walked in to find everyone staring at her in disbelief. John was looking at the annual income report but the sounds snapped him to reality… he couldn’t believe his eyes. What the …No that’s not,that can’t be…
“Doc, Doc is that you? No, oh No, Yes, oh Yes. My god… baby is it you, sweetheart? You came back to me? Oh god. Thank you, thank you…”
Marlena wanted to rush into John’s arms and tell him how much she had missed him, how much she had longed for him every night she was away. She wanted to feel his torso caressing her breasts, but something held her back… or rather, someone.”Will you gentlemen excuse us please?” John asked, mumbling… not sure if the words were even right.
The second they left John rushed to his the wife whom he had thought was long dead. Marlena couldn’t stop herself from letting all her emotions spill out. She had loved this man for so many years, and she still loved him so deeply. She wanted him right here, right now… Nothing else mattered for that one moment.
This isn’t right. No, not like this,she thought.
“John, we have to talk”
“Yes, we do Doc, but let me… just let me once again hold you for few minutes. Oh baby, how I dreamed, longed, willed for this to happen.” John lifted Marlena’s chin. He was after her lips… his mouth was yearning for hers… his tongue was searching for hers. They met. What a feeling!Desire conquered them both… the desk on which all the passion was expressed many years before, invited them once again. “I want you baby, oh god… how I need you…John whispered. Marlena felt it – his manhood screamed it….and there they were consummating their love again, love that had no end. N matter how far they were from one another, they just would never be able to get enough of each other.
Chapter 2
As things were warming up John, never letting Marlena’s lips out of his grasp, was starting to unbutton her silky shirt, caressing her breast. “Oh honey, you feel so good.” Marlena was fighting a battle inside. She knew that she couldn’t go through with this, while not knowing what had happened while she was away. But then again… his touch, oh his masculine body… his scent… how I have missed that, she thought.
“Don’t be lost in that Marlena,”she was telling herself”Jo… Jo-hn.” She was barely able to pronounce his name. “I… I… can’t… do this… please… stop.” Tears were building in her eyes. “Just stop… please…” John barely heard her, not even grasping what she was saying until he felt his face moist… the tears, her tears… “My god Marlena… what is wrong? Did I hurt you? Oh god, did I do something wrong here? Please tell me honey… I couldn’t bear it if I caused you pain. I am sorry… so sorry baby, I got carried away with the feel of you. It felt… feels… so damn good to hold you again, to be able to kiss you, touch you… love you again… I am so sorry…”
Marlena calming down little by little was finally able to speak. “No, no. I am thrilled to be in your arms again… you have no idea how I have fantasized to be with you… to feel your lips on mine… to feel your chest close to mine. That is heaven for me… but, but…” Now tears were all over her face. “I can’t ignore the thought that you went on with your life after, well after that awful ordeal with Tony… when i was gone. I know that Kate is in your life now and in our home, and I don’t want to cause you any… no, I have said that wrong. I don’t want to come between you. I just think that…” John cut her off.
“Okay! Now you listen to me! There is nothing, absolutelynothinggoing on between Kate and me. What you and I shared, and what we have can never be for me with anyone else. No matter how I try, it’s just not happening for me with any other woman, not now and not ever! I have told you many times before that my life started the day I met you. It actually stopped the day I lost you in that sea. God, how I have wanted to give my life for you and save you… I can’t tell you that i haven’t been trying to find solace, but not for a second would I ever find it with Kate – not her – not after the talk you and I had. I saw how much you were hurt by even thinking that something was going on between me and her, so the thought of you made me never let her get close, even though you told me to go on with my life… and that she was a good person. Baby, you were the only one for me, always have been and always will be… you know that don’t you? And regarding you seeing her in the penthouse… I have let her stay there because I am not staying there. I am staying at the Salem Inn, and she had no place to go. I offered her the penthouse until she was able to find somewhere else. I surely couldn’t be there by myself with all the memories I have with you. Oh sweetheart, I’m still overwhelmed that you are back…” John, now holding Marlena as close as he could said. “And I’m never letting you out of my sight. You are my soul… I can feel my heart beat again…” He laughed.
“I haven’t felt that for so long…”
The Jarlena Journal 