“Honey, wake up.” With a smile Marlena opens her eyes. But when she sees her mother in front of her face she’s totally and completely awake. She can’t see that I had an erotic dream,can she? Apparently not because a second later she can hear her mom yell to her dad. “Frank get out of the shower! You still have to walk the dog.” Phew, that’s good. Marlena would be so embarrassed if her parents knew that in her dreams she and John have sex. Immediately her thoughts drift back to the perfect body of JB, as she calls him in her diary. Those broad shoulders, that yummy butt and his sexy lips… Everything about him turns Marlena on. Her hands slide down, over her breasts, her tummy and then her fingers disappear between her legs. When she feels how excited her dream made her she wants to finish it. But she can’t, she has to hurry. If she gets to school early she can still see John come up in his car. The perfect beginning to her school day.
Marlena has been in love with John since the first day of this school year. Unfortunately for Marlena, she wasn’t the only one that had noticed John. In fact, all the girls talked about him. She didn’t like it and pretended as if she thought he was a jerk. “That jerk?” she said when her friends Hope and Lexie asked her if she thought John was a hunk. In the following months Marlena tried to get John out of her head. She didn’t want to be in love with a person that was unreachable. But it didn’t work. Every time she saw John, the little butterflies raced at high speed through her tummy.
Just like today. Marlena is, like every morning, sitting on a bench in front of the school waiting for her friends. Her heart jumps when she sees John. His bag hanging nonchalantly over his shoulders, he nods to everyone he sees. Will he see me today? Marlena is asking herself. Even though he ignores her every morning, she’s still hoping that one day he’ll sit next to her. But as always, he looks right through her. Am I really a nobody to him? she thinks. When she looks at him, she sees how Kristen kisses him. Just when she’s wondering why he’s dating the slut of the school, Hope and Lexie walk up to her. “Are you excited about tonight?” asks Lexie enthusiasticly. “Tonight? Ooh right the school party, I totally forgot about it,” Marlena says.
During lunch break, Hope and Lexie are still talking about the school party. “I hope Bo comes too,” Hope says. “I so wanna kiss him.” Lexie also has a mission. “Tonight I’m gonna tell Abe I want him back. I hope he’s still in love with me.” Now Marlena really doesn’t want to go. If Lexie is gonna take off with Abe, she’s stuck with his annoying friend, Shawn-D. “So Marlena, who are you gonna seduce tonight?” Oh shit, what am I supposed to say now? she thinks. “Uh no-one. All the cute guys are taken.” When her best friend’s walk away, she hears Lexie telling Hope, “What’s up with Marlena? I think she’s silently in love. Her face turned beet red.”
During math, Marlena has a hard time concentrating. She keeps thinking about what Lexie and Hope were talking about. Is it so obvious that she’s in love? If so, why hasn’t John seen it? All of a sudden she feels really sad. I don’t want to be in love with someone I’ll never have, she thinks.
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She can’t control her tears anymore and flees to the toilet. When she closes the toilet door and wants to cry her eyes out, she hears two females walking in. Marlena recognizes the voices immediately, it’s Kristen and her kiss-ass buddy, Isabella. They’re talking about John. “Really Izzy, he’s so boring. He looks tough with his greasy hair and fancy car, but that’s just an image. No-one knows he loves to read books in his free time. He’s such a loser.” Of course Isabella agrees with her friend. “Oh Krissy, I’m so sorry for you. What are you gonna do about it?” The answer to that question shocked Marlena. “I’m gonna dump him. Not just like that, because I’ve got a reputation to uphold. Tonight in the middle of the dance floor, I’m gonna cheat on him with Tony. That’ll teach him!”
When Marlena got home she was pretty restless. Should she call Lexie and tell what she had heard? No, that wasn’t such a good idea. She couldn’t keep a secret if her life depended on it. And Marlena wants to use this situation to come in contact with her silent love. Because of her friends comment and the conversation she overheard in the toilet, she had got a different look on her situation. I can stay in love with JB in silence, and be miserable for the rest of the school year she wrote in her diary. Or I can take the chance and tell him how I feel. After all he’s gonna be single tonight. She tries to suppress the insecure feeling that’s beginning to come to the surface. What’s the use in thinking she’s not good enough for John? That’s not gonna help her. By the way, what does she have to lose?
When Marlena goes over to Lexie, she’s full of confidence. She has her plan worked out to the tiniest detail. Now she just has to hope that everything’s gonna go right. When they reach the school, the party has already started. When Marlena walks inside the cafeteria she sees John, but there’s no sign of Kristen. That bitch, how can she be so mean to John? I would never treat him like that, she thinks. In no time Marlena was all alone at the party. Hope is busy wrapping Bo around her finger, and Lexie and Abe are sitting in a corner, very cozy. All of sudden Kristen comes barging into the cafeteria. Without giving John the time of day, Kristen walks up to Tony and pulls him to the dance floor. Time for action, Marlena thinks. First move in the master plan: go outside. In the parking lot, Marlena is looking for John’s car. She stands by the car and waits. And exactly like she planned, John comes out all alone. Shoulders and head down. Obviously hurt by what he saw. Time for the second move: fake crying. Without any trouble, Marlena breaks down in tears, looking for support on the hood of John’s car. Now she is hoping that he takes the bait.
On the moment John walks to her, or actually to his car, pissed off, and Marlena continues her play. According to plan she gets John’s attention for the first time. “What are you doing with my car?” he asks. “Ooh, I’m sorry,” Marlena cries. “My boyfriend just dumped me and I looked for comfort on the hood of your car.” Shit, I hope I don’t sound to desperate, she thinks. “But I won’t bug you any longer,” she says, while she’s looking at him sad, but sexily. Then she turns around and walks away. The seconds that pass seem to last for hours. Please say something, she says to herself. As if he heard her, he says, “Wait a minute. What are you gonna do?” Marlena’s heart jumps. Is she officially having a conversation with John? “I don’t know what I have to do. I’m too sad to think,” she answers faking hiccups from crying. “What are you doing here anyway? Forget something?” she asks to keep the conversation going. Now that she got the conversation going, she won’t back off. “Believe it or not, I’m in the same situation as you are. I just witnessed my girlfriend, or better ex-girlfriend, cheated on me.”
Marlena is so surprised about his honest answer that she’s beginning to feel guilty. But she can’t back out, not now. Especially not when John offers her a ride home. “Pretty ladies like you shouldn’t walk on the streets alone at night.” Wait a minute, did he just say pretty ladies like me? When she gets into John’s car she has to pinch herself. She’s not dreaming now, is she?
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He’s so hot, she thinks when she looks at him. “Where do you live?” he asks when they get out of the parking lot. “Behind the police station. But I don’t want to go home yet,” Marlena says while she puts her hand on his leg. Now that she’s in his car, she’s not gonna give up. She fantasized about him for so long, that it’s time for some action. John responds shyly to Marlena’s touch, but seeing the growing bulge in his pants she knows he likes it. “I… I… I don’t even know you…” he stutters. “That doesn’t matter, I know you pretty well,” Marlena answers with her most sexy voice. “I dream about you every night.” John stops the car, and looks at her surprised. “Huh? But…” Before he could finish his sentence, Marlena had her lips all over him. This is the moment of truth, she thinks. Does he kiss me back or kick me out of his car? For a moment he doesn’t do anything. When she slides her tongue across his lips, he reacts. The moment she’s been waiting for is finally here, his tongue is touching hers. Very gently his tongue is playing with hers. Oh, he’s a good kisser, she thinks. Just like in her dream. To make sure he knows she wants more, she whispers in his ear, “I want you. Do you have a condom?”
While John searches through his dashboard, and gets a condom, Marlena takes off her blouse. When he looks at her hardened nipples, he looks at her hornily. “Let’s move to the back of the car. There’s more room.” Marlena slides to the back of the car in the most sexy way, and John gets rid of her skirt and thong. While kissing, his fingers discover Marlena’s body. Her breasts, her tummy, her thighs and her most sensitive spot. “You’re driving me crazy,” she moans. Just like in her dreams, John knows exactly what to do to make Marlena reach her ultimate climax. “Oh, I’m coming.” In the meantime she got rid of John’s belt and met his penis. He’s bigger than she thought, but he feels so wonderful. She moves her hands up and down his shaft a of couple times. She feels his heart beat quickening. “You’re so hot,” he whispers in her ear. Nervously he puts the condom on, before entering her gently. While he moves up and down, he kisses Marlena passionately. When she looks in his eyes she sees the sweat that has formed on his forehead. With the final thrust he closes his eyes and moans his release. “Hmmmmmmm,” is the only thing he can say. When they both catch their breath, Marlena kisses his mouth. “My name is Marlena.”
On Monday morning Marlena is sitting on the bench in front of the school waiting for Hope and Lexie when John walks by, as usual. But this time he doesn’t ignore her. “I can’t believe I haven’t done this before,” he says as he sits down next to her on the bench. “Don’t worry, this time I won’t ignore you.” And he kisses her.
The Jarlena Journal 