She always loved the first day of school. She loved to see all the new faces, so eager to learn, some more then others. She must have been getting prepared for this day since early August. She had gotten all the new supplies, from the new mead binders to even those new laser locker openers. This was going be her third year at Marc Garneau High School. She was so happy at her job, although it was not what she first picked to be her career, her first option was a psychiatrist. After getting her medical degree she soon after decided teaching was what she really wanted to in her life right now. It wasn’t all that difficult to switch careers it would only be an extra six months in university, she had her doctorate and that was more then enough to become a High school teacher, or any type of teacher for that matter. She decided on high school because of the fact that the children her at that perfect age of child and adult. Still uncorrupted by society, but yet still able to formed their own opinions. As she got out of her Jeep, she saw one of the other teachers pull up right in the school’s parking lot, it was only 7:30 in the morning she was hoping to be alone for al little while so she could get comfort able in her homeroom, it was sort of a tradition for her on the first day of school. She would always come early set up the room just the way she liked it, try to learn some of the names off the attendance list, and get the photocopier and print off the necessary sheets before a subsequent paper jam or ink shortage happened and she wouldn’t be able to print for days. As she looked harder as to who it was in the little Mini-Cooper, she saw that it was one of the newer teachers Mr. Black. She had meet him the Friday before, at the pre-opening teacher’s meeting when all the teacher would discus the new subjects and changes that were going to be happening. For the newbies, they would get a tour of the school and were shown where their new classes would be. Mr. Black was replacing ,Mr. Harper, would had retired the year before. He would now be teaching the psychology classes and even gym last period. She could tell he would be the teacher all the girls would have a crush on. There was always that teacher, that all the girls would be “in love” with. He would have to be one part good looking and other part intelligent, and finally charming with a smile that could melt your heart. She had to admit when she first found out she would be working with him she was more then a little happy. She was so used to the older stiff men of the social sciences department, it was nice to see and fresh interesting face. And boy was his face interesting with and smile that could kill. She was sure that he must have caught her starring at him when she gave him the tour of the school. There was something about him, he was so funny every little comment he made was so cleaver and witty . But under that humour, one noticed right away that he was also an intelligent man. But what stood out most was the way he looked, there weren’t words to described it, or maybe there were, tall, dark and handsome. The chiselled features, those amazing watery blue eyes, and the height on him was a good six feet or more . She had always been a sucker for men with a little bit of height. The day of the meeting he had been wearing a muscle shirt, a simple white t that relieved the strength of his arms, the power of his chest, and even the ripples of what must be a solid six pack. Part of her hoped the air conditioner would break down forcing him to take off his shirt. It seemed that the air conditioner would never work when it was hot outside, but for some reason that damn thirty year old piece of junk kept on working, she figured it did so just to spite her. She never dream she would see the day she didn’t want the air conditioner to work. He soon after parked his car a few spaces down from where she had parked and stepped out.
He was so nervous not only was it the first day at teaching, which was more then enough to make any sane person nervous but there was this amazing teacher he had met last week that he had an instant crush on. Ms Evans, she was one of the younger teachers he would be working with. She was more than just beauty she was also had a very high intellect, which impress him even more. Beauty was not built to last, and are a dime a dozen, but beauty and brains that’s just a whole other story. He had met her when he came to the meetings before school started, and he was fortunate enough to get his tour of the school from her. Throughout the whole tour his glaze was securely fit on her, he felt he must have made a bad impression on her, she probably caught him staring at her at least half a dozen times. And every time she did he would curse himself, “Damn it John, she’s going to think you are some sort of weirdo, stop looking at her,” is what he said to himself every time their eyes meet up. Even though it would only be a quick moment before he would look away in a embarrassment, he still notice the beautiful breath taking hazel colour of her eyes. He opted to come a little early this morning because of the fact that he had paid no attention the actual “tour” part of the tour. He didn’t even know what floor it was again that his first period class was on, or even what wing for that matter and he also need to figure out where the teacher’s lockers were. All weekend his thoughts were of her. She was a good 5’6 or 5’7 with golden locks of blonde hair that must have been shoulder length or more, he couldn’t really tell since she had had it up in a neat ponytail when they have met. He could even remember what it was that he had eaten for breakfast but ask him with she was wearing when they meet and he could give you every minuscule detail: she was wearing a cute sweater vest with a blouse underneath and a simple knee length shirt, and top it off a pair of high heels, she looked very classy, elegant. On the other hand he felt like he must have looked like a slob, wearing only a old white T and a pair of blue jeans. Not the way to impress a lady, just being around her just made him feel like he was off his game. Usually he is so calm and collected, but with her he couldn’t stop making silly jokes. “She must have only been forcefully laughing there was no way that was funny, or may be she likes me. I hope she does. She doesn’t like you she thinks your weird for starring and she was laughing because she was being polite. But some of my jokes were funny, no they weren’t they were stupid and lame.” These were typical thoughts of this last weekend when he thought back and reflected back on what he had said to her. He dissected their conversation bit by bit, trying to see if perhaps there was even the slightest chances she might have liked him back. He felt so dumb after all that he forgot to ask her first name. She was defiantly the hot teacher at this school or any school for that matter, he could tell that the guys in any of her classes would have had a perfect attendance, there was no way any, straight, red blooded male, would be missing a moment to spend with her even if it meant that they may learn something in the process, the only way they would miss that class was if they were six feet under. As he pulled into the school drive way he quickly noticed he was not alone, Ms Evans was there unloading what seemed to be binders from the back of her Jeep. He quickly parked a few spaces away from her just so she didn’t think he was invading her space by parking too close since he still didn’t know how she felt about him. He looked into his rear-view mirror just to check that there wasn’t some piece of breakfast still laying in the crevices of his teeth. After the quick glance and everything was clear, he turn off the car took the keys out of the ignition, got his messenger bag off the front passenger sent and took in one deep breath and open the car door. There was no stopping now. His legs were like jelly and he had nothing but knots in his stomach as he walked closer and closer to Ms. Evans.
“Ohh my gosh it’s Mr Black, and his walking here.” she thought to herself not even thinking about what she was doing she made a quick glance to check that she was looking her very best through the driver side mirror. “ Ohh my gosh I can’t believe you just did that. I hope he didn’t see that, his going to think your in love with yourself. He wouldn‘t think that, his an adult his got better things to do” she thought now getting more and more nervous with every step she could feel him taking towards her.
“ Ok Marlena act cool…” she said to herself in only a volume she could, as she close her eyes and felt his presence behind her. His intoxicating musky cologne fill the air, as she took in a whiff of it.
“Ok John act cool…” he said to himself in only a volume he could hear, he took in a breathe of her sweet perfume, and tapped her lightly on the shoulder.
“Hey there, Ms Evans, do you want me to help you with that?” John said referring to the mounds of binders she was taking out of the back of her car.
Marlena turned around to face him and said “ Mr Black, I wasn’t expecting anyone here so early.”
“ It’s just John, please I hate being called Mr. Black, it makes me sound like some harsh dictator. And as for being here early, I figured it was my first day and it would be good to impress some people,” John said know all too clearly that the “some people” he was trying so hard to impress was actually only her.
She chuckled a little, “ Alright Just John, how about you call me Marlena ? And as for impressing “some people,” I’m sure you’ve done that already.” Marlena said flashing John a smile.
“Ok great she gave me her name, sweet, I didn’t have to look like a fool asking for it so late after I had first met her. Marlena, Marlena damn that’s a pretty name. Something I’m defiantly not going to forget. And she smiled too, this day is getting better and better by each moment.” John thought to himself.
“So now, Marlena, how about I help you out with those binders, books and whatever else you may have lurking in there?” John said so eager to use her name for the first time.
“You know what that would help me out a lot, thanks; I was worried I was going to have to make two rounds to get it all.” She said grateful for his help.
“ Ok cool I just get them out if you don’t mind?”
“No, go right ahead.”
John fumbled around in the back got out what was necessary and found some way to carried all in both hands. Marlena peered into the back seat to see if there was anything left, there wasn’t, some how John had managed to get every thing out.
“Geeze, I guess that’s it. You make it look so easy, are you sure your ok with all that?” Marlena commented looking rather shocked at how John managed it all without breaking a sweat.
“It’s nothing, I mean what good is a man for if he doesn’t have a little bit of upper body strength?” John joked as they made their way in to the school. She walked slightly in front of him because he still didn’t know his way around. He found himself looking at her again instead of making mental notes on where everything was. “Ohh well I’m going to be here for at least the next year so I have plenty of time to learn where everything is.” John thought to himself.
“Geeze this man looks good in just about anything” Marlena thought to herself, referring to the semi formal blue shirt that seemed to bring out the brightness of his eyes even more which she thought was not even possible up until now. As they made their way down the corridor, they both remained somewhat silence trying finding something, anything to say to break the still. “Should I talk about the weather or the drive down here or maybe even?… ahh I don’t know. Please just say something it’s killing me” Each thought as they finally came to the social science department.
“Ok here we go.” Marlena said as she finally got the lock to the door open. “ Thanks for carrying all that, you know you really didn’t have too.” Marlena said leading John to her work station.
“Wait a second I didn’t have to? Well geeze you could have told me that before I carried the ton of binders, books, and bags all the way over here. Just kidding it was a pleasure, besides I needed the early morning work out. ” John said jokingly
Marlena gave off a slight laugh and said “Again a hundred thank yous. So since you’ll be replacing Mr Harper I guess it would be safe to say you’ll be getting his work station, which means you’ll be sitting next to yours truly, me. So if you want to get settle in you new desk feel at ease, while I go the photocopier.” She began to grab the sheets she needed and was about leave the room when John spoke up.
“Well, if you wouldn’t mind could you show me to the photocopier again, this darn building is big , I don’t think I’ll ever find my way around.” John said as he grabbed his messenger bag and walk up to Marlena.
“Okay sure it’s just a little down the hall on the left. Don’t worry everyone gets lost their first time here. Whenever I get a grade nine class in first semester, they are always late coming in.” Marlena said as she walk down the hall to the photocopier room. “Well here we are.”
“Ladies first,” John said implying the order in which they would be using the copier. Marlena pulled out the sheet she would be copying first, and as soon as she lay the paper face down on the glass copying surface there was a beeping sound.
“ Ahh, what do you mean there is no ink? There has to be ink, no ones used you yet ahh…” Marlena said in pure frustration, pressing any button to make that annoying beeping to stop.
“ Hey, why don’t you let me take a crack at it?” John said trying to relieve her frustration. John fiddled with the button. He reached down to where the ink cartridge must have been stored, and open it’s lid and quick shot of black ink spit out at him, all over his shirt. Marlena let out a giggle and quickly covered her mouth.
“Are you right?” was all that Marlena could get out between quick spurts of laughter. John looked down at his shirt and laughed, “ You know I always thought I would look good in toner.”
“Yes, yes it does suit you. I read in Cosmo it’s a new fall fad you’ll be styling it. No but seriously do you have something else to wear? Because I don‘t think that ink is leaving that shirt any time soon.”
“Yeah, I do have something to wear, it’s in my bag. It’s behind you by the door, do you mind getting it for me?”
“ Sure, no problem.” Marlena turned around and scanned the room behind and quickly located the bag. She picked it up and put it on the desk by the copier. She saw John moving out of the corner of her eye, she figure she would take a quick glimpse to see what it was he was doing. What was meant to be a quick glimpse didn’t turn out that way at all. She saw John untucking his shirt from his pants, and then starting unbuttoning top button first. Marlena jaw drop lower and lower with every button that had just come undone. Totally oblivious to Marlena’s stares, John finally un did the button and in one shift motion took the shirt off.
“Ohh my god! His so built… Stop STARRING Marlena. Haven’t you ever since a guy with his shirt off? Geeze you not in the tenth grade any more. Ok I’ll stop looking…noooo… I can’t help it I have to look.” Marlena thought to herself, now blushing more then ever before. She could feel her cheeks getting hot, she bit her bottom lip, and gave out a silent sigh. He look even better then she had thought he would underneath, that white shirt clearly didn’t do the man any justice.
“ Do you mind going into my bag and getting my gym T? It is in the front pouch,” John said still oblivious to Marlena’s glaze upon him. John’s words quickly snapped Marlena back into reality. Marlena quickly put her back to face him as she tried to cover her bright red face. She found the T and turn again to face John who was waiting patiently. She took a few steps toward him and place the shirt in his hand. Their hands touched, both of them look down to their hands and neither took theirs away, they could feel something. It was as if they had been put under some sort of spell. They both took a step towards the other, neither caring that they just had dropped the shirt, both knowing clearly what was about to happen. Marlena went up on her toes a bit, till her and John’s lips were at the same height, he bend down a little to ensure the same thing. He cupped her face gently with both of his hands, and Marlena place both of her arms around the back of neck. They both could feel the nervous breaths the other was taking by the brushing of their chests. They look into each others eyes, she glazed into his blue eyes and he did the same with her hazel eyes. They both close their eyes and moved ever so softly in for the kiss. They both felt their lips brush… And just before the kissed could commence there was a loud knocking at the door. Before either could say anything the interrupter walked in. Both quickly moved to face the door and who ever it was who rudely walk in on what was about to happen. Marlena gasped, it was none other than, Principal Maggie Horton.
Their eyes close, their lips touched after a few short seconds of deep focus into each other eyes. It was like a flash, a flash in time, the time was immeasurable when their lips touched. Like the time between here and now, it ceased to exist. Ask them how long or how short the kiss was and neither could tell you. This was not because they didn’t know, it was because the measure of didn’t exist, nothing existed. It was just them and this was their moment. He could taste her sweetness, the moistness of her tender lips. It must have been the fruity strawberry lip balm, because even before he could open his eyes after the kiss, he licked his lips. He enjoyed the taste of her, so much so his lips quivered for more.
She was the best thing he had ever come against. Her genuine goodness was ever noticeable through the gentle kiss they just shared. So much could be told by the way a person kissed. They pulled away from each other, just to make sure this was real. He could feel himself quickly getting lost in her hazel watch. He couldn’t believe this was happening. From the very first second he had meet her he know she was special . He defiantly had strong feelings towards, and those feeling were just reiterated every moment he was with her. Never had he felt every one of his five sense so clearly. He could hear both of their softly panting breaths. Could feel the softness of her skin on his hand, which still cupped her face. Seeing her beauty, not just on the outside (which would be plenty enough for any man) but on the inside too. The beauty that made her presence one of morals, values, virtue: the goodness that everyone strived for but very few reached. Her taste still lingering on his lips. The aroma, that well balanced mixed of the smell of spring garden’s bouquet (her perfume) and the under lying pheromones that both of they must have been emitting . Never had John felt so at ease and so work up all at the same time. It boggled John’s mind
“How can it be? I feel as if she knows me more then I know myself. How can I feel so calm and yet so filled with passion all at the same time. There is something about this woman. Not woman, she is not of mankind, she is too good for mankind, she is a being, a being that can’t be described not by any word that mere humans used. Something built by the touch heavens could only be describe by the word of the heavens. John, know that you are the luckiest man in the world that you got to be here in this moment. This moment of calmness and passion, this paradoxical moment.” John thought to himself. Just as the thought ended she kissed him, this time just ever so lightly on the spot where the ear and jaw line meet. That sensitive spot that drove John wild with desire, her touch was intoxicating. He and whatever useable brain power he had left decide that it was not right to leave her hanging he would take control of the situation. He captured her lips and then her tongue with his mouth. The intensity of the kiss was, put simply, mind blowing. Their shared few more of these passionate kisses, wild untamed kisses. She planted a few angel drop kisses on his bare chest, he tilted back his head out of instinct. As she worked her way back up his neck he made sure his lips would meet hers again. Still kissing her, he picked her up by the back of her thighs and gently place her on the desk. Still sitting up right, she bent over to kiss him even more.
“We have to stop.” John said realizing how far things were going.
“What? Why?” Marlena said stunned at John’s quick 180.
“Because…” John paused as he tried to find words to described this delicate situation “Because Marlena, if we don’t, if I don’t stop now, I won’t ever be able to stop. I don’t want to put you in any situation you don’t want to in. Believe me, I would love to stay in this moment, but I also would completely understand if you didn’t share the same feelings as I do.”
“No John, it’s not like that. I feel the exact way you do, I want you to make love to me. Right here right now, in this moment. I don‘t want to wait a second longer I want to feel you. I want to feel you inside me. Make love to me, John. ” After the word escaped Marlena’s lips, she stood still and looked into his eyes. He could only do much of the same. They both saw some child like innocents and purity in each other’s eyes. In this instant it dawn upon them both what was about to happen, they, their bodies their souls would be meshed as one, forever unified by this moment. John wasting not a second more, knowing all too well that they were still in the school’s photocopier room, he kissed Marlena on the lips. He felt himself expanding in anticipation, he started to unbutton her white blouse and in every spot where a button had once been he place a kiss. It wasn’t long until her top was off. He unhooked the white French lace bra she wore and that too was now undone. He cupped her breasts, then gently sucked upon them each of they giving both equal attention. He took her one of her feet, that was dangling off the side of the desk. He made his way up to the top of the zipper of her black leather boots and pulled the zipper down, he did the same for the other. Now that the boots were off it made way for the most strategically important article of clothing to come off. His gaze never left her eyes as he unbuttoned and unzipped the fly to her black pin stripe pants. Pulling them and her matching white French lace thong off in one swift action. She was completely naked, he revelled in her beauty. Taking a pause, that made it seem as if he had forgot what it was that can next, which of course wasn’t at all true. He began to kiss her body again. Her could hear her moans as he began to kiss upon her most sensitive area. He press his tongue hard against her clit, causing her to call out in pleasure. She began to take action, she was on the edge, she need him now. She un did the buckle of his pants, totally able to feel his ever growing organ. As soon as the buckle was undone the pants went to the ground. She grabbed the hemline of his boxers and coasted them on to the floor. Now Marlena took her time to marvel in his strength, his vigour, his toned and defined body. John put his hand on the back of Marlena‘s head, his hand acting like a cushion as he gently lay Marlena down on the table. He started to thrust himself into Marlena’s body. Delicately at first but by every thrust their tempo would just get stronger and faster. They were just moments away from the breaking point. John could feel quivers while in Marlena, indicating that she was about to come cum. Giving out a few last thrust, John came. Giving out hot spurts of liquid, at the very same moment he heard Marlena scream out his name in pleasure, she had just came. John tilted his head back in ecstasy. Suddenly there was a bright light that fill the room. So bright John closed his eyes in pain. He opened them again to see his alarm clock beeping, and flashing the time 6:30.
“Dammit, just another dream.” John mumbled as he realized the effect the dream had had on his now swollen organ. John quickly got up and took yet another, Marlena induced, cold shower.
She walked down the hall during her last period spare back from the photocopier, running some sheets needed for the period three grade 12 class she had. She hadn’t seen John since their little tryst in the photocopier room. Which was very hard to do seeing that they did share the same work space. Since than she wondered what would of have happened had Maggie not walked in when she did, the question still remained unanswered. Marlena tried to explain what had happened between her and John in the photocopier room that day to Maggie.And luckily, Maggie, was understanding and neither of them were in any trouble. It was just when they did come across Maggie in the halls their faces would become a bright rosy red. Maggie explained to Marlena that the school board did not have any official policy on teacher relations in the school but that kissing a shirtless man in the school’s photocopier room was in no way appropriate. Both of them understood how seeing John shirtless and them in what was about to be a kiss could be taken the wrong way. So without words they both went along with the unspoken rule that perhaps it was a better idea not to do much interacting with each other. Marlena did want to apologize , she did want to speak to him again, maybe there was a way that they could be friends. Deep down inside she knew that when you have such strong emotions it’s either for a lover or an enemy, in no way could these feeling be reserved for just a “friend.”
She notice to girls walking down the hallway, she never paid much attention to who was in the hall or the usual teenage banter. But when this girls started talking their voices seemed to jump out at her.
“ Ohhh my god, have you seen that new teacher, I think his name is Mr. Black , well who cares what the hell his name is his hot. I’m not like teacher hot like Mr Gordon, but like hot, like really hot. His just….. Damn. Oh my god you have to see him. His teaching the boys gym class this period there out on the field, Elle you have to come and see this man. His so freaking fine”
“ Yeah I heard Ash was telling me about her new psych teacher she said he was really cute.”
“ Really cute is an understatement. Do you think it would be weird if I asked him to the fall semi- formal?”
They both laughed
“ The guy is going to think you’re a prev, but you should still, I want be there when he says no”
“Bitch”
“WHAT!?!”
Marlena let her presence be know just before the conversation got any more heated, she coughed letting them know there was a teacher around.
“ Ohh hi Ms Evans, uhhhh we weren’t fighting.”
“ No we weren’t we were just talking about this new teacher Mr. Black”
“Yes well just try to use more school appropriate language next time girls.”
“Yes Ms Evans.”
“Yah sorry”
Marlena forgave the students and made her way down the hall again, hearing the two talk about John made her miss him even more. Taking there advance on where John was now she tried desperately to come up with a reason to make it down to the football field. “I’ll start to walk the track and if he asks I’ll tell him I was stressed from doing way too much marking and I decide to take a walk last period, I feel like I‘m in the tenth grade again.” Marlena thought to herself. Marlena saw John coaching as she made her way to the field. She could tell John had some strong leadership qualities, which just made her more attracted to him. But just as she was about to make it on the field the bell rang signalling the end of the day. Right after there was an announcement over the PA system
“ To all teachers there will be a brief meeting in the teacher’s lounge in ten minutes please be on time.”
Marlena turn right around and back into the building making sure she wouldn’t be late. Not thinking John had even noticed her coming out to the field
“Alright everyone meet up, we have to go over some of the game plans….” it was then when John looked up and saw Marlena. He was at a lost for words, just like he was every time he thought about her. He still hadn’t come up with a way to say sorry after what had happened in the photocopier room. He wasn’t sure if she felt the same way he did about her. He prayed she did, “If only Maggie hadn’t of walked” John thought to himself during most waking hours. Feeling perhaps than maybe they would have both back off so much if they hadn‘t been completely embarrassed, so to, to the point where they hadn’t seen each other let alone utter a few words in passing. Her beauty was stunning he was lost in a trance as his glaze was stead fast upon her.
“UHHH coach, you were saying” one of the boys said trying to get John to break the long silence.
“Yeah, ummm the plays I want to go over them again before the end of the week-” The bell rang before John could finish what he was saying. Then he heard “To all teachers there will be a brief meeting in the teacher’s lounge in ten minutes please be on time” over the PA system
“Okay you guys you heard the announcement I have to go, so get changed and let yourselves out.” John said out loud so the students heard. He notice Marlena walk back in doors, he wish she had come over so they could finally break the vow of silence between the two of them. He quickly gathered his things and made his way to the teacher’s lounge.
“Okay as you all know there is going to be a semi–formal this Friday which is only two days away and like always we are going to need a few chaperones. Now before you all find some lame excuse to get out of it I want you to realize that this year will be unlike other years. Meaning that everyone will have to chaperone at least once this year. So to make it fair I decide to pull out names from a hat to see who’s doing it this week. Okay we’re going to have 3 teams of two, a date in a way, and each will be on rotational, 2 teams in the gym and one outside making sure everything is okay, every team will take turns on being outside and inside too. So I have all your name written in here and I’ll start to draw. So for the first team we have is …. Mr Weiss and Mrs Hunts. Team two will be…Mr Owen and Mrs Sault and finally the last team , team three will be….. Oh….ummm Mr. Black and Ms. Evans. “
Maggie said looking rather surprised that she picked both John and Marlena’s name. John was at the opposite side of the room from Marlena they both instantly smiled at the fact that fate had worked to their favour. “ Okay so to those who got picked we’ll need you here by 7:00 pm sharp to open the doors, that’s all I have to say your all free to leave.” Maggie finished off. Both John Marlena head towards their office, Marlena arriving a minute or two before John. John walked in to see Marlena alone getting her things organized John could feel that this was his chance to finally speak to her. He took a deep breath in and began to speak.
“ Hi Marlena-”
“Oh hi John.”
“So how have you been? I haven’t really seen you since….” both of their faces turned red. They both knew when the last official time they had seen each other was and that was in the photocopier room. “ Well it doesn’t matter when I last saw you. Look Marlena I understand if you may feel a little uncomfortable with us both being team mates for this whole chaperoning thin and I’ll speak to Maggie to see if I can get team up with some one else, because in no way would I want to put you into a position that you were uncomfortable in.”
“ No John it’s not that way at all, I would really enjoy being your team mate chaperone. I was worried you may be uncomfortable seeing as… well you know. Look, I just want you to know that I have no ill feeling toward you and I would really like to get to know you better. “
“Really you mean that ?” John said with a smile across his face, looking like a kid at Christmas.
“Really.” said Marlena smiling back.
“ Okay then it’s a date,…. I mean it’s not a date….. well you know…. I’ll meet you here at the school at 7:00 on Friday” John said excited and frustrated at his slip of the tongue.
“ Alright, sounds great” Marlena said blushing at the fact that John said the word date, using them in the context. “Well I’m finished here so I’ll see you later.”
“Can I walk you to your car?… I mean it looks like you have a lot of books to carry I wouldn’t want you to make two trips.” John said with boyish charm.
Marlena smiled and said” Sure that’s very thoughtful of you. I would like that very much.”
He walked her to her car. He didn’t even let her carry one of the many thick psychology texts books she was taking home that night. Much of it was to do with the fact that some primal part of him wanted to show off that fact that he was strong and could get the job done. Sure the books were very heavy but John made it look like they were as light as a feather to impress Marlena.
After waiting and waiting the time finally arrive it was 7pm and it was finally Friday night, John kept pacing back and forth, in his brand new designer suit which he had bought for this occasion, his first date Marlena, maybe it wasn’t what most people would call a date but John didn’t care what most people thought anyways. He paced some more waiting and wanting for Marlena to arrive. And she did. He was pacing some more in the front of the school outside when he noticed her Jeep pull up He felt butterflies in his stomach, his legs couldn’t move he just watch in a trance as she stepped out of her car. She was glowing, so beautiful. His jaw dropped as he noticed what she was wearing, a little black dress. The dress was nothing too over the top, but just enough that it his heart beat a little faster, which seemed to be impossible seeing as it was already going a million miles a minute. She walked towards him and magically his legs began in her direction. Never had any woman had had this sort of hold on him. He finally meet up with her and kissed her ever so slightly on the cheek not meaning it in a sexual way but in the way you would greet friend. Although John knew he wanted to be more then just buddies with her.
“ Marlena you look breath taking”
“ Thank you John. You look rather dashing yourself if I might add” Marlena said smiling and noticing the obviously expensive suit which just added to his handsome good looks.
“May I please have the honour of walking you into the dance with me?”
“You sure may.” Marlena said chuckling at the format of his proposal.
John linked his arm with hers and walked her into the school.
John and Marlena didn’t get to see much of each other when they were in the gym because their services were needed, but finally it came their time to be on duty outside. John found Marlena and they both walked out together.
“It’s so peaceful out here” Marlena said as they got outside.
“ Yeah it was a little chaotic in there, it’s nice to be out here…” They both pause to enjoy the tranquility of it all. when from inside the gym slow song blared. John finally feeling like his opportunity had come, and took advantage of the situation. “ You know Marlena I never really did get to dance with my date, would mind if I had this dance?” Marlena thought to herself “Finally you ask, I thought I was going to have to ask you!” but she opted for the more polite way to respond and said yes. They both held each other in a close embrace and shifted back and forth to the music. Which was muffled, leaving both of them unable to here what the song was that they were having their first dance to. But it didn’t matter to them it was just splendid to be in others arms. It was so comforting to them both, like second nature. Both knowing that this was their moment they look into each other eyes and leaned in for a kiss. But just before the kiss could start there was a ringing , it was John’s cell phone
“Dammit” John uttered under his breath knowing that this had spoiled the moment they were about to have.
“May be you should get that.” Marlena said knowing how guilty John must have felt for letting his cell phone ruin what was about to be.
“ Yeah I guess I should it may be important, sorry “
“It’s alright but pick it up before they hang up” Marlena said as the phone kept on with it’s annoying ringing sound.
“ John Black- Ohhh Isabella, hi how are you?”
Marlena look up at John wondering who was this woman calling John.
“Your WHAT!?!”
Marlena looked up at trying to make something of this odd conversation he was having.
“No way, you can’t be,… your PREGNANT!?! I‘m going to be a dad!?”
She had heard what he had said and that was enough. Not even thinking driving away became an instinct reaction to what she just had endure. Her heart was unsure if she was doing the right thing but her brain didn’t allot her the time or the space to process it. All it would do was send out the signal to keep going faster, trying to run from a broke heart is one of the hardest thing to do. It wasn’t a long chase before the tears started to stream out of glossy glazed eyes, rolling carelessly down her cheeks and committing suicide in their final leap off of her chin. When the tracks of a tear became cold there was another that would take it’s place. She kept on speeding down the highway, her foot never once leaving the accelerator. A large eighteen wheeler truck came in front of her, without even signalling she weaved out from behind it. Braking was not an option. She did the same for any other vehicle that also dared to come into the way of her Jeep. Which was now reaching the 140 kmph mark. Her body was in shock, her mind: numb. Her right foot must have weighed a ton on the gas pedal 145…150… 155… 160 The lights on the highway were becoming a blurred stream of illumination. 165… 170… 175 she was pushing her SUV to the max . She could now hear the roaring of the engine which was being jostled over the edge of it’s maximum capacity. Yet again her brain washed it away unable to process it. It continued to shut down. How could just a few words slipped out from the mouth of a man she hardly even knew push her into this extreme state of unbeing.
She finally got home not even knowing how she accomplished the task of making it there. She stood motionless in the elevator unable to remember anything from the drive over. When she got home she got out of her formal clothes cursing herself for actually doing all this for a man who was married. In no way was she going to allow herself to be the other woman. Now in her pink bathrobe she readied herself for the shower, when there was a knocking at the door. Her brain still unable to process any logical thinking did not tell her that perhaps it was not the best idea to address whoever was behind the door in just her bathrobe. But she did any ways. To her shock it was the person she wanted to see the most and the least standing before her.
“John”
He looked up she was gone. He closed his eyes and winced in the pain of a broken heart. It was as if every time he made some head way with Marlena there was something to push him back the few steps he had taken. He felt a horrible drop in his stomach. He was not ready to be a father. It wasn’t so much that he did not want to be a father, but he did not want to be the father to Isabella’s child. He loved Isabella and at one point in his life felt that he was more than ready to settle down with her and start the family that they had talked about. But he was no longer in love with Isabella. That was the realization he came to when he looked up and saw that Marlena was no longer with him. This woman he had known for such a short period of time had captured his heart. His heart, his being, he now realized belonged to this stranger. He had forgotten that he was still on the line with Isabella when he hear the sound of Marlena’s Jeep’s engine rip around the corner. He finished his conversation with Isabella as quickly as he without being rude to the mother of his unborn child. As soon as that conversation was done he called up one of his contacts, he need to know where Marlena lived. He need to speak to her explain to her once and for all the feelings that he had for her. It hadn’t been more than half a month since they had met, but he felt like owed this woman the rest of his life. His soul already was hers. There were no words to describe the effect she had had on him in the short period of time they had known. What made those feeling stronger was that he knew she felt the same way; “She wouldn’t have left if she wasn’t hurt” he thought to himself. It killed him inside to know that he had hurt but in another way it showed that these unbelievable feelings of overwhelming love he had for her were shared mutually. There was a deep bond that tied them together. He could feel it when they first met and every moment after that. He raced to her apartment which he found with ease, not even telling another teacher that he was leaving and that Marlena was already long gone. It just didn’t come up as something important in his mind. It didn’t take long from him to find him self at the foot of her door. He took in three long deep breaths and finally knocked on her door. The wait for her to answer the door felt like an eternity. He contemplated if she was even there or if he had gotten the correct answer from his contact. But she did come to the door, his heart filled with joy. She was stunning, she was wearing a terry-clothed pink bathrobe and she still managed to be the most beautiful woman, creature, he had ever seen.
“John…” She said as she took a brief pause stunned that he stood before her. “ How did you find me?” Marlena looked confused knowing that she was unlisted.
“That’s not important. Why did you leave me like that?”
“Ohhh…. Ummm… “ my Marlena looked to the floor as she tried to give her fib of an answer. “ I wasn’t feeling to good and I didn’t want to interrupt your phone conversation. “
“Marlena, don’t lie to me.”
Marlena then looked straight up into John’s piercing blue eyes.
“Do you love her?”
“Do I love who?”
“Your wife, the woman who’s pregnant. The one, as you put it, now making you a father.”
“What do you want me to say? If I tell you I don’t, you’ll hate me for not loving the woman who is caring my child…. and if I say I do you’ll curse the day you ever met me and I don’t want either. There are a lot of things you don‘t know about me.”
“ Your right.”
“And for some reason I feel as if I have this deep connection with you, Marlena I don’t think I have ever felt this way that I feel about you about anyone else. Now will you please let me in?” John stop just short of telling her he loved her. Marlena move aside from the door signalling to him that he was free to enter. As he made his way into the living room still standing he reached from his wallet. He pulled out his driver licence and hand it over to Marlena. She looked and said.
“ Why are you giving this to me?” John then started
“ My name is John Black, but I was born Forrest Alamain” The name Alamain rang a bell in Marlena’s mind but she allowed him to continue. “ When I was twenty I woke up in a field 45 minutes away from Salem not knowing who I was or where I came from. When I made my way into the city I was lost. I didn’t know who I was, I didn’t remember a thing . The years before twenty are still a blur to me. After two years of trying to but my life back together I realized that I need to get an education. It was on my senior year trip to Europe when I accidentally came across the information that I was the long lost heir to the muilti-billion dollar Alamain Industries. It was during that trip that I learned the important information about the years before I was twenty. I was young when I was stolen from my parents by a crazed man name Stefano Dimera, He kidnapped me and lead me to believe that he was my father. He trained me to do his dirty work, I knew every trick in the book from stealing priceless artefacts to helping in the murders of his enemies. I did it all. I tried to put that behind me, and I began to take over Alamain Industries, that’s when I met Isabella. Her father was a business partner of mine, the head of Titan industries. It was a year later when I past by an orphanage, of coarse they aren’t call that any more but that was what it was. At that moment was when I decide I want to become a teacher. To make up all the years that I had been hurting people. When I wrapped up my formal education in Europe. I decide that I would come back to Salem to become a teacher. This place holds a lot of unanswered questions of mine. I left Alamain Industries and Isabella behind. And as for how I found you, I still have many contacts at Alamain Industries they help me whenever I call upon them. I‘m still a board member of Alamain but I leave the business part of it to the care of trustees. But that all doesn‘t matter, what matters is that I really believe, Marlena, that there is undeniable connection between us and I need to know if you feel the same way.”
Marlena understandably took a few moment to gather what she just heard.
“You never answered my question do you love your wife?”
“My wife?!” John look confused. “ Ohh you mean Isabella. We’re not married.”
“Whatever that doesn’t matter. You still didn’t answer my question.”
“ I do love Isabella “
Marlena looked away as tears began to stream down her face again, she tried to hide them from John. It was too late, he saw the tears. He went in to hold her. He wrapped his arms tight around Marlena and felt the little beads of moisture drop from his eyes, crying was very foreign to him. Marlena looked up and realized John was holding her. As they caught each other’s eyes they both instinctually went in for the kiss that eluded them. They closed their eyes and start kiss. What started soft and slow quickly became frenzied and passionate. As the kiss ended they both opened their eyes and stared into each other’s glaze. John slowly pulled the sash of her robe, his eyes never leaving her. He peeled away the bathrobe, and it drop to the ground. He stood in awe of her naked feminine frame. She turned out to be even more beautiful than what he had imagined. He slowly kissed her collarbone and then made his way to her lips. Marlena coming to herself realized that she had to put an end to this.
“ John I think you need to leave. “ John looked at her, hurt. “ I can’t do this John. I can’t destroy a child’s chances of having both his or her parents together. “ Marlena said as she pulled the robe back over herself. “It’s just not right that baby deserves both you and Isabelle together and I can’t stand in the way of that. John whatever feelings you may have for me I want you to know I feel the exact same way, but I know in time you will hate yourself for not trying to work it out with Isabella and I don’t want to be the reason of that so I think it would be best if you leaved and we never mentioned this again. No matter how hard it may be to do we still have to.” Marlena walked towards the door opened it and without any other words let him out. The door closed and John tilted his head back against it trying to breathe as tears emerge from his eyes. Under his breath he uttered “ Dear god Marlena, I think I love you.”
As the she lead John out the door and closed it on him, she tilted her head back and let the tears pour from her eyes as she uttered in frustration “Dear God John, I think I love you.”
It had been awhile since the dance, and since him and Marlena had shared that breathe taking kiss. She was all he could think about. He would try to focus on other more important tasks, but it seemed that in his mind she was most important. All thoughts lead back to her. Her kiss still lingered on his lips, her beauty and stunning image still fresh in his mind. He tried to go on with life, which was increasingly getting busier for the father to be.
It was now mid- terms and between teaching (marking, staying after school for extra help that some students needed, and coaching) and trying to take care of his home life, it left very little time for much else. Isabelle had just come from Europe to live with John. Once the school year was over Isabelle, him and the baby would be moving back to Europe. Salem and the inhabitancies of it, mainly Marlena, would all just be a pleasant memory. He didn’t want to go back to Europe, he wanted to stay here in Salem. The past few short months were great, he had meet some great people. Interesting people, such as the town matriarch, a Mrs. Alice Horton. An old widower who he had meet one day while waiting to see a doctor with Isabelle. They shared a long conversation, he learned that she was a board member of the hospital and that her late husband had been the chief of staff before his passing. She was still very active in fundraising even in her old age. Moved by her strong sprite he donated $10, 000, anonymously of course. And one night while taking a walk he notice a small little pub, he walked in and right away he felt at home. That’s when he meet, Caroline who he instantly identified as a mother figure, her husband Shawn and their son, Bo who he had become quick close friends with. They had shared a few beers, but since Isabelle had come back there wasn’t much time for that. Plus she never approved of the blue collar worker in the first place. He want to stay here and the live out his days in this quirky place where some how every one seemed to be related. He wanted to stay, wanted to be with Marlena. For in Europe or in any other part of the world there was no one like her. Leaving her was going to be the hardest thing he had ever done. But the end of June was still a ways away and it was only the first week of November.
The first week of November was when teachers’ night was held . Where teachers, students and parents would meet up to discuss the curriculum and the student’s progress with the parents. Some parents more happier then others. He had finished up his last interview and was on his way to the social science office to gather his things. He walked in and not thinking shut the door. He was more than happy to see Marlena busily working at her desk.
She was now finished her last interview and decide to come back to the office and work and finish off some of her next assignments on the computer in her office. Trying not to think of John. Which was very hard indeed. Her mind always managed to make it way to John. When she would see him in the halls her heart would flutter. “Oh cruel Fate, you like to see me twist and turn don‘t you? Finally I meet someone who is everything I‘ve been looking for, but his already taken. I can‘t even touch him without destroying the relationship between an unborn child‘s parents.” Marlena thought to herself. She got lost in thought, thinking about John and the dance they shared. How warm she felt in his arms on the crisp cold night, the intoxicating smell of his musky cologne, which drove her to the breaking point. Than her thoughts lead into the kissed they shared that evening, and what could have been. It was then when she heard a knocking at the door. She looked over the door was already open and the woman standing there walked in when she notice Marlena look up. Marlena knew who she was right away. With dark curly hair, and brown eyes but it was the pregnant belly, that had just started to show, that gave her away. This was Isabelle. Marlena gathered all her emotions, and said the only thing she could think of.
“ Hi , is there something I can help you with?” Marlena said as friendly as possible.
“ Oh hi, I was looking for John, I mean Mr. Black.” She spoke and confirmed to Marlena this was indeed the woman carrying John’s child.
“Oh John’s not here, I think he is in his last parent meeting. He should be back in 15 minutes or so.”
“Oh well he said he would be done by now. “ Isabelle said taken back by how Marlena referred to him so informally.
“ Well sometimes the interviews go longer then expected. Hi I’m Marlena by the way. Or as the kids call me Ms Evans.” Marlena said trying to be gracious extending a hand for a handshake.
“ Oh hi, I’m Isabelle Black, John’s wife.” Marlena was thrown back. She remembered him saying that they were not married. She wondered if Isabelle could hear the sound of her heard shattering into a million pieces. “ Ms Evans, Ms Evans” Isabelle said thinking “ you know I don’t think I have ever heard John mention you.”
“ Oh well we don’t really work together often, so I won’t be surprised if you or even he had any clue as to who I was.” Marlena said feeing laughter heart broken, knowing that the opposite was true.
“Ok well I have to go. Can you tell John that I’m staying the night at my Dad’s house and that I’ll call him in the morning?”
“Umm sure well it was nice meeting you, Isabelle, I’ll relay the messenger onto John. Oh and make sure that you don‘t close the door when you leave for some reason it keeps locking form the outside.” Marlena said as she walked her to the door
“Alright thanks, it was nice meeting you too, Ms Evans.”
“Have a good night” Marlena said as she finished up with Isabelle and made her way back to her seat. “She said Isabelle Black, and John told me that they weren’t married. I should have known. Poor lady John’s been trying to two time her. She also said that she was going to her father’s for the night. I remember John saying that her father was a business associate of his back in Europe.” Marlena thought to herself. She tried to get back to work, when she heard the shutting of the door.
“ Don’t close the door!” She said as she quickly swivelled around in her chair to scold the person she was now trapped in with.
“Why?” John said rather stunned at her outburst.
Marlena’s heart started to flutter again when she saw that it was John she was now trapped with.
“ Because the door’s lock is broken, it keeps locking from the outside. I told one of the janitors to fix it but he said that he wouldn’t be able to until the morning.”
“ So what? It’s ok, some one will see us and let us out.”
“No, John, I talk to Mr Richmond he asked if he should stay behind until I was done with my last interview but I told him that he could leave early because I was going to come back and finish up some work. I came back and everyone’s stuff was gone. Everyone must have left early. John we’re the only two people here. You had the last interview of the night.“
“It’s ok will just call someone to get us out. Do you have your cell phone?”
“No, I left it in my jeep. Where‘s your cell phone?”
“Right here” John reached into his back pocket and pulled out his phone. Placing in Marlena’s hand a dead phone. “ I forgot to recharge the battery last night, It’s dead.”
“Agghhh “ was all Marlena could say out of frustration.
“Sorry. So are we stuck here ?” John said as he looked around for another exist.
“It’s looks that way.”
“Oh well things could be worst” John said under his breathe.
“What was that ?” Marlena fully heard what he said.
“Oh nothing. Nothing.”
“Well your wife came by, Isabelle, she wanted me to tell you that she was spending the night at her father’s house. Not married huh? You know I almost fell for that one? And what about her father being a business associate of yours for Europe? I knew you were full of it.”
“I’m not married to Isabelle, I don’t know why you keep saying that. Do you know a Mr Kirakis?”
“Of course who doesn’t know him, he is the richest man in Salem.”
“Yes and he is also the head of Titan, and Isabelle’s father.” John tried to explain.
“Well who ever her father is, she introduced herself as Isabelle Black.” Marlena said heated.
“ Look I swear we aren’t married, I don’t know, maybe she just wanted to introduce herself that way.”
Marlena could blame the lady for adding Black to her name, because she wanted to do the same. Sure it was childish but she had actually caught herself writing “Mrs. Marlena Evans Black ” on her notepad one afternoon. Marlena without saying anything went back to her seat. John followed behind her.
“Look if your angry, tell me.”
Marlena tried to ignore him she wasn’t sure what she was. She went and sat in her seat and turned around so her back was facing John. John frustrated swivelled her chair around so she could face him and said.
“ Look, it seems like we are going to be spending the night here so if you don’t mind let’s just try to stay on civil terms.”
Marlena taken back by John’s boldness, found herself a few short inches away from John’s lips and quite turned on too.
John was not expecting the reaction that his body gave him as he saw Marlena so up close and personal. He lips were desperate to be kissed by hers. It’s was like leading a thirsty person in the desert to water and then saying that they couldn’t take a drink. It would be cruel if their lips did not connect again. He leaned in for the kiss, knowing that she wanted the same. When they’re lips touched it was pure magic. But it wasn’t before long that Marlena broke the kiss.
“We have to stop.”
“No we don’t. Marlena, I love you. “ John said not even thinking of the words that slipped out of his mouth.
“ I love you too.” Marlena said forgetting about everything and everyone else. They kissed again and hard. Marlena stood up out of her seat to kiss again. John, not wasting any time quickly unbuttoned his shirt, peeling it off, relieving that massive muscular chest of his. When it came time to undo the buttons on Marlena’s shirt he practically ripped it off of her. He quickly got it off of her after the buttons were undone. He kissed her collarbone as he undid the snap of her French lace bra. He kissed both her freshly revelled breasts, and then back to her lips. Her moist and tender sweet lips. Marlena taking control of the situation quickly undid the buckle on John’s belt. Unzipped his panted and in one movement got both is boxers and pants off and down to the ground. He stepped out of both taking off his shoes at the same time, and whipped off his socks. He was completely naked. She looked stunned that this was happening that John and her were going to be one. John saw that Marlena taken back so he took control again, he scooped Marlena up in his arms and place her on one of the desks near by. He took her shoes and then unzipped her shirt and pulled off. It was just a small piece of women’s underwear that separated him from his dream. He wanted this to last. Looking up at Marlena the whole time, he slowly peeled off her panties. Marlena could feel herself about to explode. As John start to kiss her ankle, and then kissed her other ankle, next he kissed just above her ankle on the foot he first started out on. He did this slowly back and forth going up a little higher each time until he reached her centre. He kissed her center hard and his tongue flickered against her clit. He could see her twist in pleasure which just encourage him more. He enjoyed the moans she let out . He could feel himself getting harder by the moment. As much as he love making love to with his tongue and enjoying her sweet taste he knew he would have to take it to the next level. He looked up at Marlena catching her eye. She nodded slightly knowing what was next. He enter her body. She gasped a little, he was bigger than she expected. Their tempo started slow at first and increase with every pulsating pump. They worked themselves in a frenzied passionate pace. He still took every chance he got to kiss her. Both moaning and gasping for air. His penis tapped against her cervix, he was in, deep. She got to the point where she could take no more. She began to cum. A rush shot up her spine and back down to her vagina, as she began to quiver in pleasure. He was the best she had ever had. John feeling the tremors in her body began to burst, trusting hot liquid his body was emitting into her. Cumming he felt a rush thought his spine and back down to his toes. She was the best he had ever had
That night was perfect. After making love for the first time they held each other and just talked. Listening closely to each and every syllable that came out of one another’s mouth. He learned everything about her: how she had a twin sister, how she grew up in a small town in Colorado, everything that made her so unique. He wanted to spend every moment like this, entangled in each others’ arms. Both had forgot every thing that went on out side of the small office that they were entrapped in. In between conversations they stopped to make love twice more. Both more passionate then the last. After the third time around it was well into the early hours of the morning, both exhausted by the amazing night they just had, fell asleep in each others arms. John earlier had found two coats in the closet , they snuggled under them to keep warm. John was the first to awake from the blissful sleep only to find to his delight that this was not a dream. He actually had had the most amazing night of his life and that this was as real as it got. She was there in his arms in a deep angelic slumber. He looked in awe and studied every little detail on her beautiful face. Never wanting to leave the place he was in now. It all strengthen the fact that he was very much in love with her, a love he had never felt before, not even with Isabella. She slept draped over his body and her head place upon his chest She began to stir from her sleep and woke in his arms. She woke to find her head on his chest and looked up. He had a cute boyish smile on his face, she smiled back and said in a seductive raspy voice “Good morning”
“Good morning? It’s more like a great morning. The best morning ever. One for the history books.”
Marlena chuckled.
“When did you become so sweet ?” Marlena asked.
“The day I met you.” John replied. Marlena sighed kissed John. As he added “you know what Marlena ? I don’t think I’m ever going to want to leave”
“Who says we have to?”
John laughed; if only it were that simple, if only he could stay forever this way.
“Ok I know this sounds crazy, but that was the most amazing sleep I have ever had. Sure it was on a cold office floor but it was with you. Being with you is better than any thing in this whole world. Marlena I love you.” John said with a childlike cheer in his voice.
“I love you too, John” Marlena said as a simple tear began to roll down her cheek. She began to kiss him.
“John John, it’s our turn come on let’s go inside.” Lost in thought John found himself in the one of the sterile rooms of Salem University Hospital: the waiting room of Isabella’s Obstetrician, Dr. Bader. John came back to reality although he much rather stay back in that moment with his Marlena. It was now the 23rd of December, a little more then six weeks now since John and Marlena had made love. Since that night when fate trapped them in that room. Where both of their dreams became a celebrated reality, where flesh and souls, body and sprit, all became one in a passionate sensual mix. Eventually one of the janitors came and released them from the room. It was then when Marlena told John what had happened, in the past night they had shared together, was wrong and would never happen again. She begged John, if he really did love her than he would leave her alone and pretend the night they shared never happened. That they had never made love, that he would go back to Isabella and live happily with her and their baby. If he loved her he would obey her wishes and do as she told. He did. Living in agony every moment after the fact, just wanting to be with her. He was now on winter vacations, and two days away from Christmas. A holiday he had no recollection of as a child, everyone around him was so happy, so fill with cheer, he despised them. He was far from happy, dead inside. A trivial holiday for boring people, life had been so negative since he was forced to give Marlena up. She was a light in this gloomy dreary world, where the slush fill your shoes with a cold wet feeling, Where the wind broke it’s blistery blast upon your face. Where the puffs of your secret breathes were held visible by the chilling air. “What was so great about December? Or any another month it was all the same trivial bullshit until finally a curse is broken and you are lucky enough to be gracing the underworld, six feet under.” John sometimes wondered to himself when he was alone in the corners of his mind.
It was not long before he found himself in the doctors office, sitting on one side of Isabelle and with Dr Bader on the other. Wand in hand looking at the screen she, Dr Bader, analyzed, measured and even talked to the baby growing within Isabella’s body. Monitor off, Dr Bader, now talked to Isabella asking the usual series of question she did at any appointment. But there was one thing that threw John a little back.
“Okay so the baby is due on the 25th of March so that means you two conceived this baby the week of the 25th in June.” Dr Bader explained as the appointment was being wrapped up. John and Isabella both knew what this implied. And quickly said there goodbyes to the doctor.
John shut the door, hard, as he entered the car. This oversized SUV he now owned, selling his Mini thinking that it was not greatest of ideas having such a small car. A space that would soon be caring the littlest of people, a baby. Isabelle’s baby, a baby that was not his. At a loss for words John said whatever came to mind, “So when were you going to tell me that this baby is not mine?”
She waited in one of the baron rooms of University hospital. She started to read one of the parenting guides offered in the waiting room, of Dr Bader. She started to flip through the magazine but threw it back on the table as soon as she started. She sat back in her chair, a nervous wreck. She could swear she could smell John’s cologne, This triggered her to think back to the amazing night she had had with John, a little more than six weeks ago. The way he touched her soul with his love making. His tender lips sweetly sucking, her lips curled into the slightest smile as she thought of the moment they were one. She put her hand on abdomen. She didn’t need the doctor to tell her she was pregnant she could just feel their baby growing inside her. She smiled more as she wondered what kind of mother she would be. And thought of their child’s first steps, first words, first day at school, all the firsts. Then her joy turned into nervousness and despair as she realized , none of the firsts her child had would have would ever be seen by John. She was going to have to do it alone. John was with Isabella and their child, Marlena felt selfish. She didn’t want John to be with Isabella and their child, wanted him, here, with her, and their child. Picking out names, colours for the nursery, she would be alone for all this. She would be alone in the delivery room, it would be her, the doctor, and nurses, which could very well be strangers. John would be at home with his and Isabella’s child. He would tuck Isabella’s child in at night, and sleep with Isabella. Isabella would get to see his waking face in the morning, and tired yawns at night. And Marlena would have to get up to the cry of a fatherless child, her and baby both deprived of the love and affection of John. It was a blessing and a curse, she got to have a piece of John in her life forever, but never to be with John. The time she spend apart from him her love grew, she kept falling deeper and deeper. She could feel her love for John wherever she went. The night she spent entrapped by fate in the small office room was the best night of her life, it was fitting that her child should also have been conceived on that night.
“Ms. Evans? The doctor will see you now.” One of the receptionist said, snapping Marlena back into reality. Reality was that it was now late afternoon on the day before Christmas Eve, December 23rd.
Marlena replied with a simple ok and went inside. Sure enough Dr Bader confirmed what she knew along. Her and John’s child was growing and flourishing within her frame. Marlena looked in awe as she saw their baby’s heart flicker strong on the monitor, and tears streamed down her face as that scene came to life with a rapid thumping of the little one’s heart beat. Dr Bader pointed out the tiniest of features on the growing baby. Marlena’s glazes was fixated on the monitor, as the mix of her and John proved to be growing strong within her. The static thumping of the baby’s heart beat had to be the greatest sound she had ever heard. For a few quick moments she closed her eyes and took in the sound, the heartbeat, this would be an eternal symbol for their love.
The ultrasound didn’t last much longer. It was a brief check on the baby. Their baby. Marlena also got a sonogram picture. Their baby’s first picture. She picked up all her necessary prenatal vitamins. And the doctor quickly got her on her way, but of course not before answering the all the questions Marlena had as a new mother. Marlena sure that Dr. Bader wanted to be on her way and to her family, seeing as it was late after afternoon on December 23rd,she was squeezed in as the last appointment, she made her questions quick. She was a doctor, she knew what was necessary and would brush up on prenatal care through one of her medical books she still kept in one of her back closets.
She said her good byes to Dr Bader and soon found herself in the underground garage of the hospital. Car in park, engine on she pause and finally took in what just happened. She knew even before the doctor told her so that she was pregnant, but that didn’t mean that she was ready for it. She didn’t expect to be “with child” at this point in her life. This was not the situation she cared to be in. She always thought that she would be in love and married for some time before finally have a child. She was in love but no where near marriage, her child’s father was with someone else. Tears started to pour out of her hazel orbs as the loneliness set in. A dark and chilling loneliness, much like the chilled winter weather outside. She closed her eyes and tilted her head down in a sombre fashion. When she opened her eyes were, her glaze was fix on her pregnant, not showing yet, belly. She knew in that moment she would have to stop crying, that she would have to be strong for her baby and for herself. Life would be hard without having John there but that’s what the fates had in store and she couldn’t change a darn thing. She didn’t want to be alone, so she opted to go the Brady Pub. It was a family restaurant, down by the pier. A hot bowl of Clam Chowder always helped her a great deal when she was stressed out by marking or feeling a little under the weather. She did always enjoy the quent conversations she always seemed to have with the pub owner, Caroline. And a walk down by the pier seemed to ease her mind on any thoughts, as she would take in the sounds that the waterside had to offer. It wasn’t long after that she was there. It was now night: she walked in and the pub was busier then usually, this time she didn’t even have a chance to speak to Caroline who was busy with orders. So she quickly took in her soup, which wasn’t the same with Caroline sitting across from her. This all just added to Marlena’s lonely feeling. Laura Horton, Marlena’s best friend was not even in town, she was in Africa visiting her husband who worked in Doctors Without Boarders , both husband and wife were doctors. Marlena had met them while still in university. So Marlena started on her walk down the pier looking off into the distance, to what the water had to offer. Marlena was in a trance like state, all emotions feeling, senses let go. It wasn’t until she thought she smelled John cologne that she did break her trance. She looked to see this dark shadowy figure that was now ten feet away, not sure whether to have fear or utter joy.
***
He dropped Isabella home, his home the home, she had taken over. At first Isabella denied John’s statement and told him that the child was his. John didn’t speak a word, knowing that this were all lies. She started to cave at the silence. Then she finally explain that once John had left for Salem, and had left her, she was distraught. She found comfort in another man’s arms. That she had only slept with the man once, an Italy business man who was working on a project at Titan.
“I swear to you John, it was only one night. I was upset I thought I lost you. You left what was I supposed to do? I love you John. Look at me John.” Isabella said as John kept quiet and looked straight at the road.
“I love you, John. Look no one has to know, ok? No one will know. I’ll have the baby and everyone will think it’s ours. That night was stupid I should have never done what I did and I’m sorry.” At the end of Isabella’s statement John a finally arrive to the front of his condo. He looked directly at Isabella and with a grit in his teeth and in a stern manner, but not just yet a loud voice he said, “ I don’t care who you slept with, I don’t care what you did, but you lied to me.” Isabella look at the front of the building and hopingly asked if he was coming inside. He looked straight ahead , and remained silent. Understanding that was a clear “No” she opened the door and stepped out. As soon as she closed the door. The tires squealed , John speeded away, soon turned a corner out of Isabella’s sight.
Tears poured out of John’s eyes. It was strange but during the whole time that he was with Isabella and the baby he felt no connection to them. He guess the reason why was because she wasn’t really carrying his child. That didn’t mean that he wasn’t feeling a sense of loss for this child that was not his. John drove around the city of Salem for a few hours, travelling up major streets and down side roads. Thinking. Thinking of that baby boy, a few weeks earlier John and Isabella found out that they, she, not they anymore, would be having a boy. John, joking, said that he would like to name the child Brady , after the Brady Pub, and the owner, Isabella called him an idiot and joked that her child would not be named after some town yokel’s pub.
It was till long after when the winter cold reminded him that he had forgotten his coat at Dr Bader’s office in the hospital. John knowing that it was now late afternoon figured he could make it down in time if he tried hard enough. Sure enough he was able to manage to get there but with just seconds to spare. John caught Dr. Bader just about to leave as he walked up. He asked if she had seen is coat . She said it was behind the desk and that he could pop in and get it. John walked in right away he noticed something different. For some reason the doctor’s office now smelled of Marlena’s lovely perfume. John was sure it didn’t smell that way when he came in with Isabella earlier. John figured it was his mind playing tricks on him, and quickly retrieved his coat. In the elevator Dr. Bader explained that John was very lucky because she had gotten a last minute appointment and she would have left earlier had the appointment not of come. “She’s teacher just like you. Opps I might have said to much doctor patience confidentiality” John and the doctor laughed and wished each other a Merry Christmas as they got off the elevator and parted ways.
It was now night, not having anywhere to go John figured he would stop by the Brady Pub. Perhaps a bowl of Caroline’s famous Clam Chowder would calm him, maybe he could make sense of this day. As he came close to the Pub he realized that it was busy, very busy in fact. Not wanting to be in loud and noisy area he opted to go for a walk along the pier. May be the fresh crisp air coming off from the water would clear his mind. He started to walk down the pier. He thought about the child Isabella was carrying a child that was never his. He sighed and then thought about Marlena and how he could swear he smelt her perfume in the doctor’s office. He remembered Dr. Bader saying that her last appointment was with a teacher. John daydreamed of what it would be like if Marlena was the one pregnant. If she was pregnant with his child. He imagined married life with her, how every day would start off perfect because everyday would start off her her laying right beside him. How on Sunday mornings he would get the kids to help makes Marlena a bed in breakfast. Sure he would be doing most of the work but at least they would feel like they helped. He wanted to have a house full of little ones with her, but of course that was completely up to her seeing as she would be the one carrying them. With Isabella taking herself out of the picture by sleeping with another man John was free to make all his dreams come true. John promised himself that the next time he saw Marlena he would make sure to make his feeling known. He had already told her that he was in love with her and she had done the same, but now he would tell her how much she meant to him how he could never stop thinking about her. How no one ever had had this type of effect on him. He wanted to spend the rest of his days with her. Wrapped up in this thought he noticed, again, that perfume. The one that he had recognized in the doctors office, Marlena’s scent. Looking around him he noticed a dark shadow. He walked, slowly, towards the shadow. It was Marlena.
“ Marlena ?” John questioned the shadow as he walked ever closer.
“John.” Marlena respond heart racing, recognizing that it was John.
It was Marlena. John took a few steps more to meet her. Once he got close enough to her he hugged her. He wrapped his arms around her and smiled.
“Marlena, what are you doing here?”
“Well, I just came by to the Brady Pub and well they were busy so I decide to come for a walk and clear my head.” Marlena was unsure about how she would break the news to John that she was pregnant. She thought perhaps he wouldn’t want this child because he was already with Isabella and expecting their first child. “How about you John, what are you doing down here? Shouldn‘t you be with Isabella getting ready for Christmas?” Marlena continued.
“Isabella yeah right. She cheated on me, Marlena, that child wasn’t even mine. She slept with some guy, that’s his kid she’s carrying I just found out today by accident she wasn’t even going to tell me. She wasn’t going to tell me that the child I was going raising isn’t even mine.” John bared it all he couldn’t hold it in any longer. “What angers me most is that I haven’t been with you. She kept me from being with you. I love you, Marlena, and there isn’t a moment in any day where I am not thinking about you. I love you” John said as he leaned in to kiss Marlena’s lips. She caved in and kissed him back.
“I love you too, John.” Marlena whispered back after the kiss, stunned by what he had just told her.
“Marlena what I’m trying to say is that I love you and I want to be with you, not just for today or for tomorrow, but always. No one has ever made me feel this way. I feel like I’m drowning, drowning in my love for you, it has me swept away. I know that this may seem to early, but Marlena, I love you and I would love nothing more to marry you. I know it sounds strange and I’ll understand if you say no or don’t answer me right away, but what I’m trying to say is that, Marlena will you marry me?”
He was out with it, he finally was honest with Marlena and himself. In his heart he saw no point in keeping with a boyfriend/girlfriend situation, he knew he was lucky enough to have found the one, and he wasn’t going to let her go. Even though he had pain from losing a child that wasn’t his, he was happy because now he could be with Marlena. Free to be with her and finally start the life he dreamed of with her.
Marlena was shocked unsure if what she was hearing was true, or if it was a dream and she was about to wake up to an empty bed. She stood there, closed her eyes and opened them. She opened them to see that she wasn’t dreaming and the man that she loved, the father of her unborn child had just asked her to marry him she said
“Yes. ”
John laughed, not a mocking laugh, but one from the relief of tension that had just been lifted. He kissed Marlena, happily. The kissing stopped when Marlena paused.
“What’s wrong? ” John said confused. Marlena looked away not knowing how to tell John that she was pregnant. “ Look Marlena what ever it is just tell me.” John added.
“John, I’m pregnant.” Marlena finally said.
“What?” John said in shock.
“I went to my doctor today, I hadn’t been feeling well all week, so I went it and as it turns out, that night when you and I were trapped in our office, teachers’ night, we had created a life.” Marlena confessed. John face of shock turn quickly into a joyful one. Marlena took John’s hand and said “ We’re having a baby.” Tears of happiness started to pour from each others’ eyes, as they went in for another kiss.
As the kiss finished John had what to him seemed like the brightest idea of his life.
“Marlena I don’t want to wait any longer let’s get married right now. Today.” John said “ We can have the big and fancy wedding later, but I don’t want to waste another minute of not having you as my wife. Please, please tell me you want to get married.“
“I will the same way, and yes I will marry you right now.” Marlena said with an excited smile on her face.
“ So what are we waiting for? Lets go down to St. Luke’s right now.” And with John’s final statement they made their way down to St. Luke’s. St. Luke’s the oldest church in the city of Salem.
It was now late night of the 23rd, John found Father Francis, and asked if he could marry the eager couple. Father Francis had no objection to performing the ceremony, but did warn John and Marlena that the marriage would be void in the eyes of the law, because there was no witness, but in the eyes of god the two would be forever bonded by marriage. To both, John and Marlena, that was all that mattered they promised that the official wedding would be at a later date and that this was just for the two of them something they both could share in.
“Do you Marlena take this man to be your husband for richer or for poorer, in sickness and in health, for as long as you both shall live ?” Father Francis asked.
“ I do” Marlena replied. She had said the words both had wanted to hear for the longest time. A smile grew on both their faces. Both were a wash in Joy
“ And do you, John, Take this woman to be your wife for richer or poorer, in sickness and in health, for as long as you both shall live?”
“ I do.” The smile on both their faces grew and tears started to pour again as John answered.
“ With the power invested in me I now pronounce you husband and wife, John you may now kiss your bride.” With that John planted Marlena with the best kiss either had shared in their life. Not only were they together, and expecting their first child together, but they were married too . An example of how much life can change in a day. Father Francis said that he had things to attend to before Christmas mass tomorrow and that they were free to stay but that he would be in the back room. Now alone John and Marlena sat in the in one of the pews. Silent. To take in this glorious day. It was now past midnight, it was the 24th the day before Christmas.
“ We did it.” John said with a smile across his face.
“ We sure did” Marlena faced “ We don’t waste time do we ?” Marlena added, as she laughed a bit.
“ No we, we clearly don’t” John joined in the laugh.
“ I love you, John. “
“ I love you, Marlena. “
“John, there is something I need to show you.” Marlena pulled from her purse the picture of the baby from the sonogram earlier today. “That’s our baby” She said as she point out the contours of the baby’s tiny body to John.
“Wow.” surcome by a rush of positive emotions tears dropped for John’s eyes, as he glazed upon their unborn child “ Wow Marlena you have made me the world’s happiest man, you will never be able to know how lucky I feel to be having you here beside me. I love you so much, for you to be married to me and having our child means the world to me. There was this one time after school when I saw you helping this kid, you were so caring and so helpful, you didn’t even mind that you had give up your free afternoon. You were there, and you were with it, when most people wouldn’t be and that was when I knew I was in love with you and that I wanted to spend my life with you. Your beauty is great both inside and out. Marlena I am so helplessly in love with you.” With that John kissed Marlena, to prove to himself that this all was real, that the love of his life was now with him, they were married and expecting.
There was a loud opening of the church doors, both Marlena and John broke from the kiss see who had just walked in, it was Isabella.
It was Isabella, both John and Marlena got up not expecting her to be here. As Isabella walked closer to the two they both could see the confuse distraught look in her face. The mascara was running from her eyes. She was almost into her 6th month of pregnancy so still was still capable of moving swiftly in which she did towards John and Marlena. They both stood up uneasy as to why she was here. She definitely was not expected in their moment.
“ I saw you two on the pier, John, I hear what you said!” Isabella said in a loud anger voice as she made her final last steps toward him.” This, this is what you choice over me?” Isabella referred to Marlena “ A piece of white trash?”
“Don’t talk about her that way. I love her” John said as he stood in front of Marlena, not wanting her to hear the vicious words Isabella said in her anger.
“ Oh I’m sorry did I offend the one you knocked up? I heard what she told you on the pier John I‘m not an idiot I know you slept around while we were together. You knock her about and now you get angry me. I just have one question, how come you didn‘t want to be with me? I love you, John, so much, I even knew that you be at that stupid pub. So I came down there to talk to you, and what do I find? I find you with this slut. I remember you. Marlena Evans, I meet you during that Teachers’ Night thingy I should have known you were a slut. You stupid bitch, you knew I was with John but you slept with him any way. You broke up my family, he was suppose to be with me and with our child. Instead he thinks that it’s important that he be with the one he “loves.” Soon he’ll realize that your some redneck idiot and he’ll comeback to me, what can you offer him?” Isabella assault of words was directed towards Marlena.
“ You don’t have to answer her Marlena, I love you and that’s enough.” John said to Marlena who was clearly upset by this verbal assault. As he tried to comfort her. “You heard that Isabella I love her and you such just realizes that. Perhaps it would be best if you moved back to Europe, I don’t know if you know this or not but Marlena and I got married here tonight. We’re going to be together forever.”
“There no such thing as forever.” As Isabella said this she pulled out a switchblade knife and stabbed Marlena in the chest. It happened so quickly either John or Marlena could stop it. Marlena leaned back against the pew and dropped to the floor. Flows of crimson spilled on to Marlena’s blouse. There was now a large cavity in Marlena’s chest, she was bleeding blood was quickly pouring every where, blood straight from the heart.
“Call an Ambulance!” John yelled out, pale in the face, to Isabella as he leaned down to help Marlena.
“Marlena, honey are you ok? “ He clearly could tell she wasn’t but he didn’t know what else to say. He inspected her wound. He remembered that he did have his cell phone on him. He pulled it out from his back pocket and tried to dial the number but his finger’s kept slipping from the blood.
“Dammit ” John said in frustration.
“Don’t call, John. I’m dying they won’t be able to help.” Marlena said. She could taste the blood in her month, it was now full of a deep rich red blood.
“No, no. don’t say that it will be ok, your going to be ok. Come on Marlena everything is going to be fine.” John said crying in fear of the pain of losing her and their baby, he held her hand. “ Come on baby you gotta be strong ok, you got to be strong for yourself and your mama. Come on baby I love you, and your mama so much please.” John direct his speech to Marlena’s stomach, to his unborn child who was also quickly becoming a victim. Tears were rushing out of his eyes and his voice quivered in fear.
“John I’m dying,, we’re both dying…. I’m sorry,” Marlena started to cry as cough on blood, her breath became a wet wheeze as the blood rush into her lungs. Grasping for air she spoke. “ I….. love you…. John…., I’m sorry,…I can’t … That the little time… we ..had together was… the best of my life…. John I …love you so” Instinctually knowing that these were her last minutes on earth John and Marlena kissed for that last and final time. As the kiss finished he felt her hand go limp, and as he pulled away and opened his eyes, he saw her looking angelic, not in any pain, she was dead. In sheer pain he scream “NO!!!“ He started to cry more. And, he scooped her lifeless body he his arms and rocked her back and kept repeating the word no.
“This wasn’t suppose happen” He said “We were suppose to be happy and raise our child together. And live to love each other. Why god? WHY? Why did you take her away from me? Why did you take my child away from me? You left me a shell of a man.” John questioned the higher power, then looked up at Isabella, shocked at what she had done in her heat of passion. She was still holding the bloody knife. His heart only wanted to one thing, and when the heart is strong enough the mind can’t do anything, it is at the mercy of what beats within. He got up, gently placing Marlena’s body on the floor. He sternly walked over to Isabella not saying a word. Once he got to her, he looked her in the eye, not letting go to the stare he took Isabella’s hand which still carried the knife wrapped his hand over hers and trusted the blood red knife into his chest exactly where the knife had impaled Marlena‘s body. He couldn’t feel the pain, he was numb. He let go of Isabella’s hand, she was now crying, she let go of the knife. Now looking at the knife that stuck out from his chest, he raised his hand and grabbed the knife twisting it in it’s location, to make the wound larger, then after he made a full circle twist, he pulled it out, not once screaming in pain. Blood dripping from his heart and onto the floor, puddles of red, from his blood and hers. he went back to Marlena. Everything was now becoming faded and darkened. His limbs were cold from the lack of nourishing blood, his breath wet from the blood that dripped into his lungs. With his lost ounce of strength he again resumed his position and held Marlena’s body in his arms. Rocking gently back and fourth as a tears flowed through his watery blue eyes and everything became empty, black. He did so, holding his wife and child, dead in, one until he too pasted away.
***
He opened his eyes, there was a light so bright, it blinded him at first. Everything was white a clean pristine white, no more blood, no more hurt. He looked around, no one was there. Until a figure emerged , wearing all white, she walked to him something in her arms. It was Marlena. And in her arms was a child, a baby, their baby, wrapped up in a white cloth, clean and pure. Without speaking she handed the baby to him, he held his child, their angel.
“How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of Being and ideal Grace.
I love thee to the level of everyday’s
Most quiet need, by sun and candle-light.
I love thee freely, as men strive for Right;
I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise.
I love thee with the passion put to use
In my old griefs, and with my childhood’s faith.
I love thee with a love I seemed to lose
With my lost saints!—I love thee with the breath,
Smiles, tears, of all my life!—and, if God choose,
I shall but love thee better after death.”
– Elizabeth Barrett Browning
THE END
The Jarlena Journal 
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